Alone For Life Chapter 1

I was put up for adoption minutes after I was born. My father was 39 and my mother was 17. When I was born none of my aunts, cousins, or any of my relitives knew about me. My mother ran away so she could be with my father, because my grandparents threatened to move to another city if she would continue to see my him.

Let me introduce myself I'm Leah. My mother became preganet with me so young she decided to give me up for adoption. My father left my before I was born. The adoption agency always told me that my parents died in a plane crash and that there was only a 2 year age difference, NOT 22 years. My mother finally told my aunt that she had a daughter 14 years ago so my aunt told her that she would try to adopt me so I could be a part of the family, though I never was before. My mother would adopt me, but I was told her husband doesn't want another child because of the responsibility that would come with 4 children. Though, I wouldn't be to exited about living with him for a father either. If he doesn't want me then I don't want him. Plus, the fact that she's on drugs might be a factor to me not living with her. I was told this all last month. I'm worried about meeting my mother next month. She's now married and has three other children ages 11, 10 and 9.

I've been to at LEAST 8 diffrent foster homes, but no one wanted to adopt me exept for a woman in Alabama that wanted me to help her sell drugs. I was five at the time so I didn't see anything wrong with it. Currently I'm living at the orphanige. It's nice to know I won't be bouncing back and forth between foster homes anymore.

I have to meet my aunt tomorrow. I'm going to miss my friends, espesially Jessica. I've known her for almost 8 years now. Plus, I'll miss the orphanige workers. I'll miss them all alot. I feel like I'm alone and I always will be. Alone for life. It's like a sentancing for prison. I can imagine I'm there in front of the judge and he says "I sentance you to be alone for life!" thats when I'd break down crying because I didn't do anything to deserve this and go on a rampage.

I hear someone coming. It's to late to be reading or writing or to be doing anything exept for sleeping. I have to go. I'll write back when she's gone. Okay, it was just Jessica. She just had to go get water. I've been caught once before when I was six years old and I had a nightmare that night and Britney, a girl who is now 17, was trying to comfort me.