Dying Lonely

It seems like only yesterday
When I last held you in my arms
But now I look out my window
Crying all alone

The rain still falls
Life is beautiful and moving on
Only I know
That you’re forever gone

Who am I
To wait here for a miracle that won’t come
Doesn’t everyone know
That you’re the only one I love

I wish I could say that I would be all you need
But that would be a lie
My own heart spends every second
Dying inside

I’m so afraid
Don’t you know what it’s like
To bleed love
All your life

You hurt me when you
Left me for another who loved you
Not as much as
I do

I know your enough for me
Just so perfect, I know
But I realized that I loved you too much
Never wanted to let you go

I wish I could tell you
That the sun and moon rises in your eyes
But since you left
Dark has blanketed all my nights

This love I pour in tears
Is too much to bear
The sting and burn you bring me
Leave me scars to wear

Long ago I surrendered to
Your love
The warmth of your embrace
Wrapped around us

The feel of our touch
Our caressing hands
Is now buried deep down
In the cold, hard sand

Didn’t you hear my call
I told you that I will give in
I surrender
Yes, you win

I melted into our play
Your love game
In the end
You got it all your way

I wish I could live my life
All over again
Never make the mistake of loving you
I know there are other men

But my lonely heart
To you it’s bound
Please return it to me
In my heart, you live on

There are so many breaths I’ve taken
Only to die in your sweet kiss
The pain you burdened me
To forever live with

But I still remember
Though you’ve buried me so deep
You’re in my nightmares
Love in my sleep

You were the man that I called
Mine
Now I’m haunted by loneliness
And lost memories that I hope to find

The moon and the stars
Frown when they see my tears fill the lake
They try to smile
Knowing how much the memory of you aches

Little fish in the pond swim up to me
And watch as I fill with tears
They have no hands to wipe them away
So dying brings them fear

Everyone knows it’s you
They want to kill you a thousand times
For torturing this
Fragile heart of mine

But it’s only you I’ve ever loved
Your voice, your touch, your kiss
All of this I still
Miss

If only you would’ve kept me
Everything would be fine
I’d hold you in my arms again
Our love so devine

Your heart is still my shooting star
Your arms, my sky
I’ve given you my world
You left me, I wish I knew why

I’m still falling into
You
This dream could come
True

These walls begin to build
Solid stones that cannot be cracked
I wonder if you built them purposely
Like that

I laugh and cry at the same time
These memories bring so much
And yet it’s the only thing I have left of you
Your tingling touch

I just don’t know
How to let go
Of everything
I’ve been through with you

I want love
Like any woman in this world needs
But your love only left me
To bleed

My cuts, my wounds
My heart is melting
A swirling black hole
It’s a pain that keeps hurting

If you didn’t want me
Then why did you tell me you loved me
You’re a romantic murderer
Who wants his way to be

I gave in
Fell into your strong arms
You caught and touched my body
I fell for your handsome charms

Wish I could’ve known
Before you left me with these wounds
My love you
Still consume

I love you
You are my life
My happiest moments wouldn’t have been created
If you weren’t by my side

You are my Heaven
My happiness, my pain
You are that sharpened knife
Piercing my heart again

I’ll never leave you
If you ever need me
I’ll still be here crying
Dying lonely