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ANXIETY

ANXIETY

Posted December 22nd, 2017 by FrostBittenKitten

by starlight (luna)
in The heights

Laying awake in the middle of the night
Feeling in my stomach and my chest is very tight
Which keeps me from falling asleep sometimes
Staring at the ceiling comtenplating my whole life
Why did I do that stupid thing in fifth grade
Why can I not talk to people the right way
They all hate me they all hate me but they’re too polite to say

What is with this feeling
C’mon stupid it’s so not justified
I don’t understand why I am the way I am
I wish it would just leave me so I try to take a stand
Fight against it but it just keeps coming back
Yesterday I liked myself but now I take it back

I lost so many friendships and I just can’t seem to laugh
My life is far from perfect but it’s really not that bad
There’s nothing bad tomorrow so why can’t I fall asleep
I’m so stupid I’m so stupid I’m so stupid can’t you see
I don’t know why anyone would bother being friends with me
And no one understands
And it’s not just a teenage thing

But in the morning I’m just fine
Suddenly I’m all right
‘That’s nonsense,’
I tell myself
‘It was just late at night’
But it’s not gone forever no it’s never absent long
A week at most and then it’s back to torture me once more

You’re pretending you’re pretending
You say you’re just like them
But you just want their sympathy
And it never ever ends
It’s an ongoing cycle and no it’s not a trend

Mom and Dad I’m not okay
Please try to understand
I’m not nervous about a test or really anything
It’s nothing in peticular it’s anything and everything
It’s not something I can control
Mom and Dad just please
I’m fighting a battle within myself but you never seem to see
I’ll try to talk to someone but they’ll end up hating me
Why can’t I talk to people
It’s my dumb anxiety

(A/N I was just annoyed at my parents because they didn’t understand but I’m working on it haha)


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I love this poem so much

I love this poem so much aaahhh it's very relateable esp the part about dismissing the anxiety later and all of that stuff and I just think your writing is amazing. stay strong girlfriend.

Posted by esther on Fri, 12/22/2017 - 22:44
Thank you!! I think

Thank you!! I think you’re pretty cool and I’m super glad that you like my writing!

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Posted by fa la la la la ... on Sat, 12/23/2017 - 22:42
I love

I love this!
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“There is something delicious about writing the first words of a story. You never quite know where they'll take you.”
- Beatrix Potter

Posted by Evergreen! *Alem* on Sat, 12/23/2017 - 08:37
Thanks Alem!! It makes me

Thanks Alem!! It makes me happy that you like it!

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Posted by fa la la la la ... on Sat, 12/23/2017 - 22:42
ok I love this I'm

ok I love this I'm favouriting

 

They can survive, just not as two. Read A Soul's Petal! https://www.kidpub.com/book-page-or-chapter/souls-petal-prologue-3288161...

Posted by glass on Sat, 12/23/2017 - 17:04
Thank you so much Sy!!
Posted by fa la la la la ... on Sat, 12/23/2017 - 22:43

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