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choke

choke

Posted February 6th, 2020 by FrostBittenKitten

by it's great to be 8 {luna}
in the clouds

my words stop in my throat

without my control as i desperately strive not to cry

i can barely breathe without collasping into a pit of tears

why are simple things so difficult?

 

the anxieties choke me with their familiar strain

"you're not good enough"

"you're just being a baby"

"you're such a coward"

just another punch in the gut as i try my best not to show my emotions

 

i glance to you, thankful that you haven't left me here

i don't understand why you don't leave me now as i continue with my obsurdities

making things harder for everyone else

i feel like such a waste of space

 

later i will look back on this and frown at my dumb overreaction

roll my eyes and pretend that i'm not the way i am

until the next time this happens

maybe i'll hide it better

 

i just wish i knew how to live without my anxiety choking me


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Wow, this is really good; I

Wow, this is really good; I can really sense the emotion in it. I don't know if there's a hidden meaning behind it, but I saw the word anxiety- coming from a person with anxiety, talk to someone. They can help. 

 

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As you walk down the fairway of life, smell the roses. You only get to play one round. -Ben Hogan

Posted by Ava #1 on Tue, 02/11/2020 - 18:03
thanks!  i do actually have

thanks!  i do actually have a great support circle, i was just in my feels that day lol

 

"Today is going to be a good day and here's why: because today, today at least you're you - and that's enough." -Dear Evan Hansen

Posted by it's great to b... on Thu, 02/13/2020 - 18:12

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