The Writer's Block - Your emotional venting thread. I'll explain.

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Originally Posted by cheezemziez (Post 449792)

/hugs
You can do things right.
You aren't a fuck up. You're awesome and amazing
These things don't make you a bad person. And I doubt pushing your friends away will be a permanent thing. You are going to get better.

no i cant do anything right
ahaha no
but if it goes on for long enough they wont want to be friends with me then it will be permanent

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 449794)

no i cant do anything right
ahaha no
but if it goes on for long enough they wont want to be friends with me then it will be permanent

You can.
ahaha yes
They'll stick around, if they understand.

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Originally Posted by rebecca (Post 449738)

In the car yesterday, one was caused by the satnav confusing me, and the other two because I was not permitted to pick which songs to skip. These were only small, and I suppressed them, mostly. They are caused by things that clash with my idiosyncasies the majority of the time, or just things that make me uncomfortable. It is different to being normally stressed. It is a dufferent kind of panic.

I can imagine...

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Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 449748)

our school is trying to get a gold level status with the math competitions. if twelve or more students get 80% or more on a certain test, we get it. It was ten questions.

I see...

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Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 449767)

I really hate myself.

I haven't eaten in four days.

Eat. Please?
Maybe don't eat that much, so you won't be entirely FULL.

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Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 449778)

I guess it distracts me from how I feel and it's not as bad as cutting, which I've been trying to avoid, and since I am messed up anyway I thought it would help and I guess it is helping but I don't know and I don't love myself and I can't love myself enough to help or start eating. I don't think it matters. And it helps my voices too. I don't hear so much as when I'm full. I wish I could manage to eat, but I can't.

*hugs*
f*** i wish i could help…
we love you.
try to eat enough to stay healthy, okay?

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 449788)

god i am so fucking tired
im okay im okay im okay i tell everyone but
im so tired and exhausted from doing nothing and im sorry im sorry im sorry litzy and emily
im sorry im so distant and im sorry i can't seem to talk to you guise im sorry i dont want to look at anyone you did nothing wrong at all
im just tired

*hugs*
i can relate to being tired…
I hope you feel better. :/

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 449789)

and i can't actually do anything right??
i don't think i'm supposed to want to make everyone in the school disappear
i don't think i'm supposed to just want to talk to online friends
i don't think i'm supposed to push emily away
i don't think i'm supposed to push litzy away
i don't think i'm supposed to be fucking annoyed by their faces??
why am i such a fuck up

You can do a lot of stuff right. Like write awesome shit, be an awesome friend, be an awesome fangirl, have awesome taste in music and TV shows, be awesome in general, be kind, and help people.
You are not a fuck up, you are fucking awesome.

Things that are annoying/stressing me of right now:
-My art teacher who has a bias against me who hadr have detention yesterday, WHO EFFING SEES GAPS IN A SUPPOSEDLY FULL PICTURE AS THE PICTURE UNDONE.
-Chinese History quizzes.
-LS quizzes.
-Week of quizzes.
-How my mum never stays at home for lunch.

AA speaking:

this was C's account. she thought KP was stupid and got off. :/ I know her password and such, so.

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Originally Posted by CrazyCat (Post 449979)

AA speaking:

this was C's account. she thought KP was stupid and got off. :/ I know her password and such, so.

^that was me, btw

Well, we all know that.

KidPub is a place of safety for me. I feel pain for my friends here. AA, why do you feel so bad? What's wrong?

Why does everyone feel bad except me? I have a good life, when I'm not asping, and they tend to be short sharp things.

Pluzzle, stick with it. I don't call you my secret Australian twin for nothing.

MaryElizabeth, I can't think what to say to you. I just don't like my friends feeling bad.

Guys, I might not be good at empathy, but I care for you all. I don't want any of you to die or self-harm, or feel bad about who you are. Esther, MaryElizabeth, you are amazing, fascinating, hilarious people. You can trust me, I'm bluntly honest.

So AA, eat, please. If you don't eat you might starve to death and it's unlikely but I don't want it to happen. If you need a way to release anger or hate at yourself, find something new. Listen to beautiful music, read amazing books. Write a journal, draw pictures. Do something better.

After two years, some of you are like a sort of family. It's better than real people, because I can ponder over what to say and you can't interrupt me. Here, I can be me.