are you okay? i'm pretty sick so i can't do a lot right now, but just calm down, try to get somewhere safe, and maybe watch tv, read some fanfics, or find a movie to watch. gameplay videos on youtube are really distracting or just scribbling really hard with a pen can help. but stay safe and don't feel bad about crying; just let it out if you have to. :o

is literally no help but is also super worried. but i've been too weak/tired to even walk to my desk, so idk if i can even help at all TT-TT I'M SO SORRY. YOU'RE GONNA BE OKAY THOUGH

hey i edited it and i feel great now <3 AND I ALSO FEEL REALLY CUTE NOW THAT I'M IN CONCERT CLOTHES SO EXPECT LOTS OF PICTURE SPAM OF ME AND MAYBE OTHER PPL XD but really though, talking to you helps so much and i don't know how you do it but you always make me feel so much better it's so weird

i survived middle school.

my exact feelings.

omg same
seriously like how did i get to high school without killing myself tbh

imo high school is a lot better like i would be in year 10 if i was in usa? and here it is so much better, everyone is just generally better towards each other because everyone has realised it doesnt matter at ALL


meera: i totally understand this. do you think you could stay with a friend for a few nights maybe, to get out of the situation?

they wouldn't let me bc all my friends have siblings and/or pets and there's no space in anyone's house, and plus i have to do school and everything. but who cares it's fun making her regret everything she said to me bc no one should just tell their kid to get out or die or something and then come back and expect a hug

So today at lunch, I got into a heated argument over gay marriage with two of my friends. Basically, they started talking and they're both religious so they're both under the belief that gay marriage is wrong, that gay people are damned to hell because they're different and that it needs to stay illegal where we are. (My friends words: if you want to do that, you need to the leave the state and go somewhere where it's legal so I don't have to see that)

Honestly, this is where religious people really bother me. I mean, if you have a religion that's fine. Personally, I'm agnostic/atheist. But when religious people start saying stuff like that, I get mad. (I've had quite a few bad experiences with the super religious people who can basically make you feel like complete shit because you don't hold their beliefs and then they tell you you're going to hell because you don't read the Bible or go to church.) Like, religious people can sometimes be some of the most judgmental people ever.

Honestly, WHO CARES. With gay marriage, it's not affecting you or your beliefs in any way, and I personally think that the government could be regulating a lot more important things than gay marriage. Who cares who you like? You should have a right to be happy without having to leave your state to go get married. And I mean you don't really get a choice? People are so stuck up with their traditional beliefs that are apparently the gospel from the Bible that they don't realize shaming gay marriage is a form of bullying just because someone is different. All anyone wants is to be happy, is that seriously too much to ask for?

I also didn't realize how strongly I felt about gay marriage until today. But yeah. There's my rant for the day.

/applauds/

be radical girl
be radical

Yeah....I have a problem with those types of Christians, because that is not what Jesus would want at all. He even blessed a gay couple, because they had faith in him. http://www.gaychristian101.com/Gay-Centurion.html (I looked it up) The Leviticus verse 20:13, the whole thing that started this mess, is also mistranslated. Christians have to remember that it was in the Old Testament, which was a bunch of rules that Jews had to follow-and if I remember correctly, not eating pork was one of them. Or seafood. Or mixing fabrics. Besides, when Jesus died, it was to absolve us from our sins or something. Jesus loved and accepted everyone, and that is what Christians are called to do-love and accept everyone. Not cherry-pick rules from the Old Testament that suit you best and proclaim that "It's God's word!"

adding on to that, i found this website awhile ago http://hoperemains.webs.com/ that basically shows that all the "anti-gay" verses in the bible aren't actually supposed to be interpreted like that. so yeah, anyone who uses religion as an excuse to hate people is a horrible person and i will fight them immediately bc of how horrible they are. it's also the reason i refuse to believe in any religion but i don't wanna talk about it

tfw
one of your two best friends from 9th grade and half of 10th grades is lost completely because of a serious drug problem. last summer she was in a friend-with-benefits type of relationship with this guy who i used to be friends with and he really really really liked her and she didn't really like him romantically and just used him for experience with kissing and sex type things and she kept hurting him by making out with other guys at parties because she never made it clear she wasn't romantically interested in him. he would always call me and be crying and ask what happened and me and our other friend would try and help him. at a party at the end of the summer she "broke up" with him and he didn't accept it because she hurt him a lot so he grabbed her and forced her to kiss him and touched her some and at the time she just played it off but a couple weeks later she realized it was sexual harassment and she hated him for it. but it was over. her friends with benefits relationship with him was over and she hated him and as time went on, she got worse. everytime she tells the story of the night at the party, it gets worse. i wasn't there. i don't know what happened. sexual assault is never NEVER never acceptable. he didn't have permission to touch her. but he didn't know he was doing anything wrong, and he apologized profusely. that doesn't mean she has to forgive him or ever see him every again in her life, it doesn't mean she has to forgive him. but she wants him dead. she wants him in jail, she wants him ruined so he can never go to college or have a life. she wants him to die. she also began to abuse her prescription drugs and became addicted. the doctors took her off of it but she has found ways to illegally order them online or buy other drugs off of dealers at school. i probably haven't seen her sober in months. and in her mind, she's okay. she's working on a police case against him. she still goes to school and maintains her grades. but there's so much for me to worry about. she's always high. she hangs around with suspicious people who use her for drugs or sex. her parents don't know how to handle her so instead of getting her some sort of help, any sort of help at all, they're just letting her free. they know about her drug problem. they know she often parties and drinks and has sex with adults and these things she does that are so terrifying to me and they don't stop her, because when they try and restrict her freedoms she tries to run away from home. i still talk to her at school, but there's no way for me to be friends with her anymore. it's just too complicated. there's nothing i can do to help without her getting mad at me, because me trying to help always backfires and she just sees it as me snitching or betraying her.
tfw
i'm jealous and possessive and i have symptoms of various mental illnesses but i can't do anything to help them because i have to maintain my mom's standards of being the perfect daughter while she focuses on dealing with stress of work and my dad who she has a lot of problems with and my brother who has all sort of social disorders but i'm always in such a bad place mentally. i'm always so torn between thinking i'm too hot and cool for my boyfriend and being fucking jealous when he.... hangs out with his friends??? like what's wrong with me??? it's unhealthy i;m disgusting he's going camping this weekend with another family who's like a close friend of his from childhood and it's a girl who's his age and her brother who's like 14 and i'm just,,,, my mom wouldn't let me go and he is going to be alone in the woods for 2 nights with no phone service with her and she's going to be in a bahting suit and no matter how many times he tells me everything's ok it isn't. sometimes i look at myself and im like wow im so beautiful and i want to make sure he knows that im too good for him anyway but im not when it comes down to it and im more reliant on him than any person ever should be and it's disgusting im disgusted with myself and i'm always so anxious and lying to everyone lying about everything and im just
tfw
no friends
bad relationship disguised as good
lying about eveyrthugn
shshosji

i'm really sorry mira
i wish i had more to say but i've never experienced any of this (no one has never even had a crush on me and all of my friends are way too innocent to even think about sex or drugs) but i'm really sorry and i hope things get better for you

Hehe thank you :)

Yes, exactly! Thank you for adding that link. :) Sometimes Christians can be so hypocritical: "God loves everyone, even if you're on a bad path in life you can still change and accept God into your life" but then when it comes to gay couples apparently God no longer loves everyone? It just doesn't make sense.

Completely understandable. I feel the same way. And thank you, as well, for that link too. :)

ugh my toenail fell off when i was biking and it's all bloody and gross >.<
stupid phobia of blood

*hugs* oh Pokey. :( it's good that you recognized it before it was too late, but please get some help. Tell someone. Your mental health matters way more than any image anyone has of you, I promise. Do you have a counselor at school or something? Please tell someone who can help you before you run yourself into a ditch. I don't want anything bad to happen to you. Email me if you ever want to talk about something or someone-I will always listen. I promise. <3 thecheese555@gmail.com

Hello, yes *raises hand* I'm a very strong Catholic and I'd like to say that those are the kind of people that make religions look bad. I'd also like to apologize for their behavior and how religious people treat gay people. It's incredibly wrong and that just shows that they don't have enough knowledge about their religion. They should really follow the phrase treat others how you'd like to be treated. it's also considered a horrible thing to tell people to go to hell, so shame on them. I'm really sorry people have to deal with people like them. Please don't consider religions to be bad though. There are some good religious people out there. Please don't group all of us as bad.

Oh no, I didn't mean it like that. Of course there are good religious people out there. In fact, one of my other friends is Catholic and she agrees with me. I don't have a problem with other religions. :)

I didn't mean to accuse you, I'm sorry if it seemed like that!! I just know there are some people out there who would groupd everyone together so...yeah xD

posted a vague thing on tumblr friend assumes its about her (it not) she gets anxious i cry because im a bad friend!! bluh!

For three years I have had something on my mind.

what the heck is KidMud?

It's like a virtual world thing and there are all these commands you can do using code, like make a house, invite people over who are online, etc

It's all text and it doesn't work anymore

Well. :) guess who managed to install a ton of viruses on her computer unknowingly. :) this is why I shouldn't be trusted with technology. :) I just spent the last few hours uninstalling everything, and I still have a lot of stuff to uninstall. Lovely.

i should know better than to stay up past midnight freaking out about things i can't change but here i am
also the weird red lines on my stomach/legs are back and i have no clue how they got there but it's freaking me out and i think they're just stretch marks but i'm too young to get stretch marks it's so weird and they just will not go away now no matter how much lotion i use

i learned that i am underweight and this scares me a lot help
srsly with my height and age, even if i gained 10 pounds since my last weight check i would still be underweight
i've been eating a lot but i don't gain weight like ever so what's the point
and the weird thing is, now i feel fat
but i'm not

I'm actually taking th time to get to know myself w/o anyone else influencing me and I going to try to be the person I want to be and for the first time in ever I actually like myself and who I am I mean I have problems and crap but frick I'm a good person I need to appreciate myself more.
BTW just saying you guys are all amazing honestly I look up to so many of you and I have for so long so if you're reading this I probably idolize you I just thought you should know bc I see so many of the people I admire saying insults to themselves and I just thought you guys should really know that there's someone who admires you and thinks you're amazing even if it's just a dork like me but honestly you guys are amazing

http://www.mayoclinic.org/healthy-li...t/faq-20058429

here, hopefully this website helps. :)

i worry way too much but i can't help it. there are so many people who i've gotten used to leaning on me and suddenly i'm not there and i have no way of knowing if they're okay and jfc it's been three days but i'm so scared. this is pathetic. they have other people but there's so much irrational fear in my mind i just need to stop worrying. i need to breathe.

this is pretty much what i have going on and i really don't know how to help bc if i did, i wouldn't be this freaked out right now. so just try to take your mind off of it for awhile by playing video games or doodling or reading or something. that worked for me when i was irrationally freaking out last night. and if you really can't help but worry, just send them a text or an email or something to check up on them, bc that usually helps calm my nerves.

but no i literally have no way to contact them and that's freaking me out aiuaheviuahuiah

hmm if it helps, you could write letters to them but not send them or something?? and also remember occam's razor: the simplest outcome is often correct. and the simplest outcome is that they are completely alright, isn't it? therefore, they're probably completely alright.

actually that sorta helps a lot. thank you.

you're welcome c: i didn't realize being a logic nerd would actually help people whoa

my grades are awful and i need help
i'm so freaked out i can't breathe i need someone to talk to and i need good grades but i'm stupid stupid stupid
i cry too much

edit: still not any better

Crap I'm Late. Are You Okay Now? I Have To Shower & Stuff But If It's An Emergency

i keep getting weird highs and lows and this is the lowest i've been in a while and god i forgot how much i hate this feeling

to someone (you'll know if it's you if you see this, i promise)

it's not your fault. it's not. i swear. none of this is your fault. i'm still gonna keep caring about you and loving you from afar and i know you're never going to see this but i want you to. i really want you to. i love you, okay? and none of this is your fault. i love you and i want to hold onto you and say it over and over again because i mean it so much. i'm shitty at showing it, but i love you. and someday we'll find a way to make this work. we will. i promise. i swear. i will see to it that we make this work and i won't stop missing you and loving you.

to eVERYONE IN THE MY FREAKING SCHOOL: I'M NOT FUCKING SHY YOU LITTLE SHITS I JUST HAVE AN OVER ACTIVE BULLSHIT METER THAT JUST DOES NOT HAVE TIME TO SCREW AROUND AND BE AN IGNORANT IDIOT LIKE ALL OF YOU DOUCHE CANOES

Stress is pretty overwhelming.