Graystorm |
01-29-2017 11:00 PM |
Quote:
Originally Posted by Frostblaze
(Post 594163)
ok so I highkey wanna tell someone that I haven't really stopped cutting but
- my parents have been no help
- my grandma freaked out when i told her about the first time three years ago
- i promised my sister i wouldnt so it again
- but
- I have a friend in college and I think I could call her like she's always been so nice and helpful and she is the kindest human being ever
- but like
- she's the kindest human being ever
- I can't burden her with this like she's in college she doesn't need to worry about me anyway
- but
- I have cut more times in the past 8 months than I have in the past two years
- that's bad
- I'm not getting better
- I wanna tell someone
- I need someone to talk to I need someone to stop cutting for someone it'll be hard to lie to someone I won't want to hurt because that's just what I do best right
- but
- I can't hurt these people it's just better to let them think I'm fine that I've been clean for two years instead of two weeks
So yeah I'm just Really really really scared
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You'll never ever be alone, honey. I will always be here for you if you ever need to talk to me. Heck, I can email you my phone number if you think talking voice to voice with a person might help. But please, if you need a person to stop for, stop for me. I feel so selfish for saying that, but please please please I don't want you to break your beautiful perfect skin because you hate yourself or you hate life.
You need to know that no matter how much shit you have carrying with, feel free to rent to me. Don't worry about how it effects me, because honestly? I would walk through tartarus for you, love. Tell me, tell your collage friend, I swear she won't mind. Ask your parents if you can see a counselor? If you already to, then tell them. I know it's hard, but I know it'll get better.
You are my first, and have been my best friend. You can't go dying on me before we meet each other. Keep your head up, Wifey, ily so goddamn much. God, I cried when I read that. Well, as Tyler says "in the meantime, make it about others, that seems to work."
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