The Writer's Block - Your emotional venting thread. I'll explain.

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Originally Posted by Lena (Post 504903)

(*clings to you and tries not to cry but fails*)
(*whispers*) thank you

(*pats your head and hugs you*)
(*whispers back*) How many times do I have to tell you/ Even when you're crying you're beautiful too
no problem just stay strong honey

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 504756)

sometimes it happens like this.
sometimes i just have these conversations with my parents, and all of a sudden, they take a turn for the depths of depression, and it's then when i realize that, hey, my parents are people, you know? they're people and i have no right to downgrade them or call their experiences less than my own when they certainly have more than me, or even to say that they don't understand what i'm going through. they do, to a greater extent than i've ever thought possible.
but the thing is, just when something like this happens, i realize that my parents are forgivable, fallible human beings. and i think, maybe i shouldn't yell at them and hate on them so much, you know? maybe i should try to be more civilized, not them.
and then we have our next fight/argument/whatever and i'm not thinking because i really do, that is, never change. i can't fucking change. i'm stuck in my depressive cycle much like i'm stuck in this one. because no matter what, i always yell back.

Oh my gosh yes.
My mom has depression and it kills me to see her sad yet sometimes I get so angry and I yell. After that I just get mad at myself because she doesn't deserve it and I can't help but think I'm the reason.

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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 504883)

*crushes you with hugs* that sounds horrible im so sorry.
hey i can't speak for everyone but I do care

*hugs back* thanks LST :) it just reaaaally stinks because he's like 60 and my youngest brother is like 6 and he's the only one who makes any money in my family to support us and yeah

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Originally Posted by Lena (Post 504897)

i'm just having a really rough month and no one even really fricking cares anyways it's like can you just take the time to even ask how i'm doing or consider how i feel anywhere in those pathetic little minds of yours and also i am not a fricking diary sure i'm good to vent to but if that is the only reason you even try to be my friend, screw off.
i'm so sick of people yelling at me when i didn't do anything and then get surprised when i snap back
i had a pretty good day today and then life just kind of slapped me across the face and reminded me that that "good" is not my norm
i feel like such a bitch but why the hell can't i be mad? why the hell can't anyone understand that even stone-cold people like me have our own emotions? every single time i smile or laugh or frown or sit back and try not to cry, why do they look at me so strangely? it's so frustrating.
also, i don't get why they ignore me. i make people smile, laugh. i cheer them up when they're sad. i can empathize with so many different people, and i'm repaid with the same thing, every single time: an awkward thanks, and more ignorance.
guys, i don't have friends. i don't have people who'd be willing to so much as give me a hug when i'm sad.
ugh.
okay guys you should just ignore this i just needed to get this out somewhere i'm sorry

Lena you are awesome and you absolutely do not deserve to be ignored. You deserve to have better friends that care about you and to be happier and to live a happy life.

Unfortunately, life fricking sucks and does not find anyone really deserving of all those things, even though some people really fricking deserve it. Hopefully in the near future life will stop screwing around. All I know is that you are so fab that things will 100% work out for you.

But anyway, cheer up please? For me and all your other friends? C:

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Originally Posted by lvhamsters (Post 504983)

yeah i just recently found out that my dad also had depression (he's not really over it. he thinks he is. but i know him better than he does) and goddamn that just makes me feel even worse about my yelling at him. the thing is that i can understand, comprehend, whatever, but i cant change. i know what you mean by that last sentence. it fucking sucks

It's really nice to be able to say I have a best friend again.
It's been a while. :)

I offered to let him read my writing today for the first time. I don't know why I did. It just felt like the right moment, you know? So it kind of really hurts that he turned away from me and turned the news back on. I want to feel closer to my dad but he's not allowing it. I wish he cared enough to want to feel closer to me too.

u think everything is right just because u say it is.
well guess what
it ain't
it'll never be
and, til i'm through with telling you how it's gonna be, i'm mad--and i've never been mad at you.

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Originally Posted by lvhamsters (Post 505052)

I'm so sorry, lv. :( He's really missing out. You AND your writing is fantastic.

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Originally Posted by maxi (Post 505060)

u think everything is right just because u say it is.
well guess what
it ain't
it'll never be
and, til i'm through with telling you how it's gonna be, i'm mad--and i've never been mad at you.

*gives you a cookie* You okay, buddy? What happened? D:

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 505064)

*gives you a cookie* You okay, buddy? What happened? D:

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