I just don't know what to do now.
I'm just a complete mess.
Having tinnitus scares me, but on the other hand, I want something that'll make my friends treat me better.
Is it so hard to find friends nowadays?
My friend keeps shooting down my dreams of becoming a lawyer by repeating the same sentence over and over.
"You have no talent. There's no way a law school will accept you."
I try not to let me parents know, even if my friends are treating me like this.
It just feels kind of wrong to blabber about this when they're part of the problem.
There's always a time we'll leave kp, and I'm dreading that day.
Nobody to understand me anymore.
My brother's probably wondering why I'm crying a little.
I tell him I'm fake crying for practice.
When can I stop the lies?

im not that amazing honestly but ill be ok for now i think anyway
*hugs you back* wait how come it said i cant be reached by imessage tf i can always be reached by imessage

I'm dying over here.
My dad's forcing me to translate an entire story into Chinese because he claims I'm pretty much useless when it comes to Chinese.
The story is really hard to translate, and I just hate the story itself for no exact reason.
He's pressuring me, and saying that I have time for homework later.
I want to die.

hey hey hey friend yes you ARE that amazing you're awesome and super brave and idk you very well but like you're super swaggy and i wanna be buddies because you're hecka cool and unafraid of who you are and if you ever need anything contact me (use the email in my contact tab and then i'll give u a different email to contact) but please never ever hurt yourself okay you're strong and you can get through this and you're a hecka rad person okay i love you

life is so worth living you may win the lottery two years from now okay you could win a million dollars and the thing is that's COMPLETELY POSSIBLE but you wouldn't get to do that if you killed yourself. likewise there's a ton of other stuff you could do and it would be awesome but you wouldn't get to do it. do that stuff! have fun!!! life should be fun so just keep thinking "frick sadness im gonna keep living"

you might not care about this but please please please please just keep on living okay you're amazing you're better than you think and i love you

religion is helpful if you're interested!! Jesus saves and God can make you happy because He loves you (even if you don't believe, He still does!! He loves everyone!! Isn't that great?). turn to God and you'll be happy, you definitely won't regret it!

chinese!!! i'm gonna learn chinese I'd be happy to translate it for you haha, um idk if you mean you actually want to die or if that's a hyperbole but if it's not then NO you don't want to die and neither does anyone else. it may look like your dad doesn't care but he does and he would be crushed if you died, as would i and everyone on this thread and your family and friends and teachers and neighbors and people you haven't spoken to in three years and like i said you could WIN THE LOTTERY but you wouldn't be able to if you died, and you'd miss out on awesome stuff. don't die, don't think dying would be better. it isn't.

those people ain't your friends. i had a "friend" that i clung onto bc i'd known her for three years and i was scared of being lonely without her but she lied and manipulated and almost turned me and my now best friend against each other. she wasn't my friend. from the moment she started mistreating me and my friend she ended the friendship. get away from people who are hurting you and be safe. you should be happy. be around people who make you happy.

if you want to stop lying then just don't!! lying makes me feel really gross and i used to tell lies a lot and i felt ten times better once the truth was out so just be truthful, you'll feel better.

do you like coldplay? because chris martin has had tinnitus for over ten years now, and he's the lead singer. you're not alone. and um i'm not an audiologist but talk to your doctor! maybe see a specialist who knows about ear stuff.

again, religion is helpful!! Jesus saves and God can make you happy. He loves everyone, thus, He loves you! He's great! turn to Him in times of trouble.

I didn't watch the video, I might later, but thank you for posting this! I hope it helps a lot of people and hey, maybe other people will believe now and be happy!

EDIT: oh uh so this is a Jehovah's Witness thing??? um as a Christian I don't really know how to feel about this. I agree with the fact that the world's evils are caused by the evil one (the devil) but there are some things the groups disagree on so as a Christian I don't think I can really encourage people to begin conforming with JW beliefs and stuff so yeah

TO ALL OF KP: I love all you guys, please stay safe and happy. God loves you too. If you're interested in Christianity please seek Christian resources! If any of you guys are Jehovah's Witnesses or Mormons or anything else that's alright I don't discriminate, but I encourage Christianity. Don't be offended bc y'all can be cool people regardless of religion. but to everyone: Jesus saves and God can make you happy. He cares about us regardless of belief, He's great! you won't regret turning to Him if you choose to do so.

(I don't want to start religious arguments or anything.).

Ehh, well, I kind of already know Chinese, but it's just the translating part I hate. My parents want me to be a translator, but I just want to be a lawyer. I'm done with the article, anyways. :D

Aha about the other stuff, thank you so much. You're amazing.
I'm new to this school, and my "friend" was the first to be an actual friend in the school, so I guess I was kind of scared without her.
I wouldn't know what to do without her, but she's not a very good friend at times. It's like she can turn evil then be the best friend in the universe in a second.

I've had tinnitus for my whole life, pretty much. When I was little, I didn't acknowledge the ringing until later on when I accidentally stumbled across an article at night. Coldplay's awesome, and tinnitus is like this little special connection I have with singers. <333

I'm not a scary judgmental Christian!!

on another note I believe different sexualities and gender identities and sex changes and stuff are all okay because I believe God gives us our sexualities and I believe that if someone is trans it's not due to a mistake (because God makes no mistakes) but I think that they're meant to be trans! Like if someone is ftm I believe they were meant to be born female but also meant to identify as male or get a sex change to be biologically male. And for people who are nonbinary I believe they are meant to be nonbinary because I think gender is different from biological sex!

Ultimately you shouldn't be scared of being a Christian or deny Jesus because of what others will think (you shouldn't deny Him for any reason.). If you believe, even a little bit, don't deny that, and if you don't believe at all try to believe! Ask God for you to receive the Holy Spirit and the fruits of the Spirit (love, peace, kindness, faithfulness, etc.) and the gifts of the Spirit (look them up; an example is wisdom). Also, my friend is a Christian and she's a really nice, friendly person and shares some of the same beliefs as I do. There are churches that are gay-accepting.

Be strong in your faith and ask God for His help! Don't be scared to be a Christian.

that's good you've found that connection! I love finding little things like that with singers and actors I like.

thank you! It was no problem, I'm glad to help. Try talking to your friend if its less common that she's mean. If she's more common you can try talking about it and decide from there what the best option is or just leave the friendship. just don't be judgemental, even if she is really really rude. but do what makes you happy and safe.

oh MY GOD IM LISTENIGN TO MY IPOD AND LITTLE PRE PUBESCENT TROYE SIVAN CAME ON SINGING IMAGINE BY JOHN LENNON AND RIGHT AFTER IT HAPPY LITTLE PILL CAME ON AND I CAN'T OKAY

hi what do i do if im buddhist but i also have always kind of wondered if god or a higher being is out there. buddhism helps me a lot but i still wonder and i feel like im young and my religion shouldnt be concrete since a month ago, i was atheist, and now im buddhist. so im confused.

edit: also, often times if i just come back to my breathing and remember the present moment and meditate, im a lot more at peace. i feel peaceful and happy and buddhism also just feels right. its not just the meditation that feels right, but the things i learn from buddhism. so buddhism makes me happy but im also confused and kind of interested in other religions.

I think religion should only be as important as you make it. Some people are extremely religious, and I completely respect that, while there are also die-hard atheists, and I also respect them. If you're confused about what you believe, maybe try to open your mind and don't feel constricted– talk to people of different religions, research it if you find it incredibly important, etc. Like I said before, religion should only be as important to you as you want it to be.

I'm an all-thiest (yay I'm twins with Chris Martin :D He made the term. He's a genius <3). :) I believe in everything.