ok but schools will care less about your grades and more about what makes you happy, even if you have interests in voodoo-badminton as long as you show that you're passionate about that you can get into your dream school
and one B on your transcript isn't gonna hurt you, even if you're aiming for Ivy League
I KNOW YOU HAVE REDEEMING QUALITIES so just stop being so hard on yourself ;-; you paid $15 to get a KP account meaning that at some point in your life you were ambitious enough about writing to be here today and if that's not an example of passion idk what is

idk dude
i havent written in ages
i'm really into music + performing arts but i'm shit at that and i'm surrounded by prodigies in a world that seems to hate me

thanks dear it means so much to have your support. i think i'm going to go with my friends, but i know i'll feel regret either way. i think i'm going to try and see her again later, though. in the next four years, hopefully, and i've also dreamed of going back after college for a gap year writing articles about the whole organization of orphanages and seeing my goddaughter be in college and her smile and seeing my friend who's fluent in english and whom we all suspected was gay comfortable in himself and happy, also in university. i know they all come from rough backgrounds, but pero espero con EVERYTHING that el malo es gone for good.

sí, es muy dificil para ellos, pero creo ellos están feliz cuando ven tú...
tbh i would go with the same thing :) it sounds like you have a pretty good plan there. (also sorry about my spanish it's pretty bad isn't it)

aww quierida, gracias, es de mucho importante para me. y no, quierida, tu español es perfecto. no puedo leer un poquito de que escribiste. MI español es malo.

(about 95% sure i messed up half of those sentences)

lol es no malo, yo creo. posible. yo no se, porque yo no leo español. (yo tengo español dos este semestre, y no es facil para mi a hablo español. o leo. o escribo. o comprendo.)

yeah that was pretty bad :P

sorry i only post negative things but i just i feel like i need to separate. i'm just dead weight to my friends i feel like i just make things less fun and always say the wrong thing and my relationships have become more obligatory for my friends just because we've known each other for so long. i'm sick of weighing people down and i just feel like i need to cut myself off. i feel like it's time. i don't want to be what holds people back.

no first of all don't apologize for having sadness in your life and needing to talk about it bc we're all here to listen ALSO you are amazing ok don't you dare believe anything less of yourself. even if you aren't feeling it atm, you are really fuggin loved by everyone around you and if you were gone, there are dozens of people who would be walking around with a hole in their heart, so please try and hold on and it will get better and someday I promise you will see how much you mean to people

ahaha. It's 12:21 in the morning and I'm not tired so i decided to read while listening to music and I just really want to die and I don't want to fight anymore I just want it all to end and I'm crying and crying and im so tired of pretending I'm fine but I don't understand why people think I'm fine because I'm clearly NOT fine but no one notices so maybe its not real?

its 1:03 now. my chest hurts so damn much a searing pain that wont go away my sides hurt to this has happened before but never this bad I'm so scared ive been breathing in funny patterns too I just cant control help me help help help please help