you need to believe me when i say that there is a reason you ran out. there is a reason that you are still alive. and you need to stay that way.

please please please find some help in real life, because on here we really want to help you but it's hard to do that through a computer screen. we care about you so please tell someone how you feel.

there's a reason you did. it's not your time. there is still so much good you can do for the world. plus, that's not even the best way to die. this is: grow up. finish school. go to college, if you want to. fall in love. get married and have kids. find a job you love. go to as many concerts as you can. meet beautiful people. have struggles and overcome them. watch your kids grow up into kind, fantastic people. have grandkids. have pets. then grow old. then fall asleep peacefully forever, after knowing you're content. after knowing you've done all the good you can. that's the best way to die.

hey so.
suicide is not the solution. suicide is shutting down, giving up. you were meant to make it. you were built to make it there's a reason you ran out of water there's a reason you're still here. on every facet, in every way, on every level in every religion from every single objective perspective, you were literally made for life. you were made for experiences and emotions and I'm so, so sorry my love that your experiences have made you scared of what's to come to the point where you're ready to end it all. but you will come out of this so fucking strong and so fucking beautiful and you were fundamentally unarguably born to survive. you are not a martyr or a lesson. you are human and beautifully so. life is sosososo beautiful and sosososo important and there are people out there who are meant to touch you and love you and see things with you and see things in you and I want you to get those experiences.
I know we don't know each other but I am fucking rooting for you. you can do this.
pardon my language. I'm sending positive thoughts your way.

(and I know you've heard this a thousand times over, but it really does get better. I speak from experience.)

stay strong lovely <3

theyre coming for metheyll catch up one dayand theyll probably kill me

are you okay, stormy? who are coming for you?

Nononononono im not okay im not okay im not okay my demons are just trying to slow me down cling to my legs and slow me down so the big issues can catch up like THE FACT THAT I FUCKING KILLED MY OWN MOTHER THE FACT THAT IM A SHITTY PERSON theyll catch up and theyll envelop me in a darkness so thick that I wont be able to see and itll seep down my throat and into my stomach and suffocate me until I die

hey hey hey it's ok you're ok you did not kill your mom i promise you i know you think you did but i promise you it was not your fault. you are going to be ok just hold on i'm sorry that's what i keep saying but you have to hold on.

breathe.

breathe.

you need to calm down you are ok and you are alive and you are loved.

stormy (can i call you that?) you are an amazing individual. i have seen you struggle with this and you have stayed strong you are strong you can make it through this.

stormy you are strong and you have made it this far. but i cannot stress enough that you need help. real, live, breathing help. you are worth it. you are ok. you need someone to remind you of that when we can't come on the thread to tell you. you need to tell someone. please just tell someone.

i know it's dark and evil and horrible but it's not always going to be. you are going to make it through. you are going to be able to see and breathe and it's going to be wonderful. it is going to get better.

you are not alone. we are here for you. but please, tell someone that can help you in real life. tell someone. please just promise me that you'll tell someone.

hey, we haven't talked but i've seen several posts by/about you (said posts from these amazing people on kp who have dedicated poetry and songs and stuff to telling you that you, too, are amazing and always deserve to live <3) my name is clara. please pardon the shitty username that i made when i was like 10 and thought i was clever. but that's beside the point.

i don't know what happened to your mom, okay? but i know that you did not kill her. and i know that you are not a shitty person. i know that you are struggling rn. that does not mean you are a bad person. that does not mean the demons have the power to overwhelm you that does not mean you are going to give them the power to overwhelm you. you are so so so so strong, just like panda said. you are strong and you are beautiful and i don't know much about what happened to your mom but i know she would not want you to feel this way. she would not want you to let the darkness drag you down and envelop you and make you think you are someone other than what you really are.

you are not a shitty person. i really really want you to remember that. you are not a shitty person and you deserve to be here to see all the moments your mom can't, to witness this world unfold around you. please stay. and please, friend, talk to someone. anyone. tell them what's going on because there are so many people that care about you and so many people that are going to protect you and tell you the same thing i'm telling you and everyone else on this thread is telling you.

you are loved. and you deserve in every way to overcome those demons and live. <33

I can't do it I can't do it because I don't know what will happen and how people will react and what will change and WHAT WILL CHANGE? What do you tell them? The bare minimum or all of it? What will they do? WILL THEY GIVE ME PITY? BECAUSE I DONT WANT THAT.

that's why I can't tell anyone. That's why I won't tell anyone.

I talk to you guys because I know that you can't change anything happening in my real life. You can encourage me and ask me to get help and what ever, but I don't have to listen.

I've been feeling horrible for posting on this because I keep complaining and you guys keep trying to help but I never listen and you guys should go help someone else who's not stuck in the way they're living.

I'm not worth it.

the best thing ive ever done for myself was tell my school counselor i was going to kill myself. with a good therapist and if needed, psychiatrist, things will change. i didnt tell my therapist EVERYTHING, just enough for her to help me develop healthy coping mechanisms. i dont see my therapist anymore but i still see my psychiatrist. i'm medicated for a whole bunch of mental health issues, and there's nothing wrong with needing medication. there's no shame in needing meds.

you remind me a lot of myself. and that gives me hope that you'll pull through, cause i'm pulling through right now.