Isaac, listen to me. There's no shame in crying in front of anybody. Your friends understand that you're struggling; I doubt they minded that their nights got a little interrupted. Besides, you're worth a lot to both of them! I'm REALLY glad you didn't scratch, and I'm glad you and Sam both have that promise to help keep each other safe. That's sooo kind of you to do!!

That's a really terrifying thought, I know. That you might not ever get better and things will feel bad constantly. But, buddy, I know you know this already, but, I'll say it anyway--worrying about that WON'T help you any. If anything, worrying about that will just make things worse. Please, please try not to think about such poisonous what-ifs like that! It's hard, I know--I struggle with totally impossible what-ifs all the time and needlessly freak myself out. It's a tough habit to break. But I know you're strong enough to fight it. You that you CAN get better, and you WILL get better. You've already made a LOT of progress!!! Don't overlook that. Just...remind yourself that you can't see the future. Deal with life one day at a time. The past is gone, and the future isn't here yet. It's like driving a car, man--you can't always be just looking in the rear-view mirror, or you'll crash. And you can't keep looking ahead at roadsigns or down at maps, or you'll crash. While it's wise to plan ahead and make sure you're on the right track, focusing on what's going on right now is the most important thing.

Let yourself cry if you feel like you're going to. But, please, don't think you'll feel this bad forever. You won't. I promise you, you'll feel better and get better, at least a little bit. <3

Hey, man, loneliness is horrible and I totally understand why that made you want to cry. And there's nothing wrong with crying, regardless of what triggered it or where you were. I do that sometimes, too--something will just make me feel isolated and I'll have to clench my jaw and force my mind onto other things or I'll just start bawling in public. And I've done that before, too. And it sucks. I'm sorry you have to deal with that feeling, too. <:^/ Just remember that, in a sense, you're not really alone. You've got KP, and there are TONS of people who are dealing with loneliness, too. Probably more of the kids at your school are dealing with it than you realize.

o man... im sorry u have to deal with that too man

im crying again

hs starts in 15 days and i havent finished my hw yet also i really hope i have E in my geom class. L wont be in there bc shes taking algebra but like last year, the second day was terrible and i couldnt breathe that well bc i kept panicking bc i didnt know shit abt math. im hoping E will be in geom with me this year bc i really dont want to repeat tht. im just scared that ill be super panicky in school again sob

also idk how to come out to teachers and students?? i did it in 8th grade (only students tho) but idk its just major stressing me out but like havig ppl call me elliot and use he/him/his for me is something that will also help alleviate stress. so i mean i guess i just have to get it over with quickly and then it will be better in the end. like i mean i kind of have to. it would be a lil strangee if i went by my birth name and she/her/hers pronouns and then JUNIOr/SENIOR year, deep voice and traditionally masc. face. coming out is just stressful ;-;

ugh someone please tell me that high school isnt as bad as ppl make it out to be. someone say i wont fail my classes and i wont get harassed for being trans and SOMEONE SAY THAT SCHOOL WONT CAUSE ME A LOT OF ANXIETY LIKE IT DID FOR THE PAST THREE YEARS SOB

AA, you know my opinion of your writing is pretty high.
Of course I'll buy it.
And I probably won't give it to my friends because I want to keep it all to myself.

do you have your schedule yet? you could email your teachers telling them about the roll, and that you have a preferred name etc. i think tell students as you meet them and stuff, you pass rly well so.

idk i've been in HS for two years but y'all start in what?? year 9?? you'll be ok! i promise !!!

(*bear hugs*) (*sincerely hopes I didn't contribute to the reasons you're crying*)

You wanna talk about it? Vent a little? c^:> I'm always willing to listen if you ever want to. (*gives you a box of chocolate and some tissues*)

no i get mine on the first day i am So Sad also i want vegan ice cream to help me feel better but i dont want to do more dishes sob

thank u !!

I seriously don't understand what the heck homework during break is for. Like??? We're supposed to learn at SCHOOL?? NOT DURING A VACATION? Doesn't that defeat the purpose?!

There are plenty of resources available if you're nervous about how much you understand. YouTube is actually surprisingly helpful, I've found. There are a bunch of different explanation videos (basically mini lessons) on there for practically all math topics. They're paced pretty good, too. Also I'm sure your friend would still help you out even if they're not in your class. Right? ^_^ In any case, I hope everything goes well for you in Math!! (I'm horrible at Algebra but good at Geometry so I totally know how you feel.) Just try not to worry, okay? Focus on what you have to accomplish now and enjoy your last few days of break.

Hey, I'm sorry you're stressed about that, too. I honestly can't think of any advice since I've never been in that situation. (Sorry.) But, again, I hope it works out for you, whatever you decide to do. <:^D

I really hate my sleep schedule and my inability to go to sleep at a normal hour.

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