o shit the curse of the genius/prodigious kouhai is upon me o shit o shit & if I lose there's no one there

managed to convince my parents i was sick so i could stay off school but for real im very sad and i have to go to the doctor and i might be getting a blood count to test for anemia? because im always fucking tired? but thats probably my mental health anyway my mum is anemic so maybe

OK theres nithing wrong with my blood but my scoliosis has gotten worse by four degreess gerat

also: me: exists only as a ball of fear and death in its human form

well i'm depressed and constantly emotionally and physically exhausted but i had a period of time in which my average falling asleep time was like 3am (it's kind of better now) and apparently you can 'damage your sleep' by not sleeping enough so maybe it's that or maybe it comes with being sad?? idk but if you think you're anaemic you could google symptoms and see if they match up with what you have

i think i have a crush on a girl and it honestly scares me because i thought i was straight and she seems like the only girl i would have a crush on (i've known her for 8ish years) and i don't even know what i am and it's annoying

MMMmmm i have a lot of. mixed episodes. so its probs that. my irons a bit low but not anemia level so !
being straights no f u n so
but seriously girls are so Great and i know sexuality is hard and confusing and ??? but i promise u will come out the other end

Happiness is an emotion, right? So I just wanted to say I'm happier. Recently I've been working on bettering myself mentally and physically. Before I was constantly getting myself down about how bad my procrastination was and about my appearance. I'm finally doing stuff about it and I can feel myself getting happier. I'm doing homework on time and starting to draw more, which is something I want to work with in the future as a career, so that's very beneficial to me. I'm also exercising and eating healthier, which is doing well for my health and gosh, I didn't know how much a diet affected acne. But that's slowly clearing. I'm not happy with the results yet and I'd like to lose more weight, but hopefully it'll all work out c: i don't know, I just wanted to share this because some of you are really down and need to know that you can get better. The way to get better is not to sit in bed and continuously plague yourself with the problems you have, but to get up and do stuff that brings you happiness, and to do it healthily. So yeah \./

hey thats awesome you deserve that so much !! thats awesome you are getting better!!
while that does help it doesnt work for everyone because chemicals so i

ive never been able to concentrate or stay still in school and lately its affecting my grades so much. like i cant i literally cannot focus at all. ill read a few sentence but ill lose my focus so i have to go back so many times and by the time i finally understand everyones already doing something else. also i cant stop moving like i need to be moving idk what to do i cant stay still or concentrate or focus on one train of thought hdgsgg

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this is literally my adhd feels oh man!! do you think mayb u have a form of it?? like i dont wanna b That Guy but this is literally how i feel so theres a chance u might?? anyway im srry it gets so much in the way at school, do you have anyway of talking to your teachers about acomodations (sp??) e.g more time with reading tasks and tests, and breaks where you can get up? like at my school a lot of the boys have adhd and as such its mandatory that we have three breaks where we can all get up and dance or w/e - im assuming you dont do that? or even getting up to go to the bubbler, you know? you might also wanna talk to themabout reading texts aloud, if that helps, cause it does for me most of the time especially when i get myself jumbled up !! im sorry im so little help eli.

honestly i had a horrible dream last night bc im always jiggling me leg or tapping my hands on the desk and i had this dream where the teacher calledon me and some kid i didnt know in my class started saying stuff about my tapping the desk and making fun of me and everyone was laughing and i?? oh my god