annoying.
fuck this I need to learn how to act better.
next year at school I will outwardly reconstruct myself. no one will know this crap.
act, improve a little in competence and effort area, whatever. it'll be work. such fun.
whatever.

hey hey nonononono!!! dw u r so amazing and i felt so much better when u emailed me man!! im sorry i didnt reply to your prev post but!! i love u so much man!!!

stfu u ok you are beautiful and if you are morbidly obese it looks damn good on you

oh and you're not by the way

hey hey hey stand up for me. stand up straight with your arms by your sides and move nothing but your head. look down at your feet. can you see your feet? then you are not obese. if you don't eat two/three meals a day regularly it can mess up your metabolism which is bad for you. eating healthily is good, fruit and veg, not too many carbs if you like, enough of everything. pls remember that you're perfect because you're you, and at the end of the day weight doesn't matter. it's about yOUR PERSONALITY /cheesyik/
and ik that i'm just saying things like this and that it's not that easily to get rid of these sorts of thoughts but we are all behind you and we love you ok

i don't have much to offer you except eternal love and support and internet hugs but please remember that your parents, friends, family, internet communities etc. all love you.
imagine if you were a mom and your daughter killed herself. imagine walking to her bedroom and everything around you screams your daughter. everything smells of her. everything is left how she used it. every single little reference to your daughter would bring tears to your eyes and rip your heart apart.
it would kill everyone who cares about you, and knowing there is some sense of hope and success out there can move you forward.
try to focus on the great things that you love, start not wasting time on things that influence you negatively, start looking in the mirror and pointing out great things instead of flaws, find your passion and excel at it, get a shrink if you think it helps you or talk to an adult you trust, talk to us on kp because a lot of us understand and love you and want to help you, start saying idgaf to things that are getting you down, build on your dreams and make them come true.
i know it's easier said than done but we all believe in you and i truly hope you get your happy ending

omg thank u!
 

thanks, you guys! this was really super sweet and i'm feeling a lot better today. ^_^ it's just been really hard for me to cope with myself because i'm an emotionally unstable adult-child who has a hard time being young like I'm expected to be. so when I try to confront a situation like an adult when I don't know how, it's really frustrating and, not just like annoying, it's intense. and i really lose myself and just *hides under a table* i cry in the closet and lay on the floor too much. my mom talked to me, though, and i'm so sorry if i took up your time or space on this thread talking about myself! but thanks, guys, you're the best!

thanks c: yeah i have a really weird metabolism so i can't ever eat breakfast and then i eat a lot for dinner and that's the only way to prevent me from throwing up
i woke up at 8 and it's 12 now and i haven't eaten a bite and i feel fresher than i ever do when i eat breakfast
it's just really weird please do not follow this example unless you will literally throw up from eating before noon

apologies for the terrible "advice" TT-TT
 

okay, so my friend has the thing where she never eats breakfast either. Like, she goes on walks and bike rides and drinks water and stuff, but she pretty much can't eat until lunch. I think she still eats breakfast foods tho, but always after like 11 so i get where you're coming from with that

(i have the thing where i throw up stomach juices if i don't eat breakfast but i usually end up skipping lunch and sometimes dinner, so it's like the opposite. i'm wondering if this is just me or if puberty messes with everybody's stomach like periods were bad enough or something)

still, make sure you keep hydrated (if you can keep it down *shrugs* don't hurt urself) but, ya know, having a headache from being dehydrated around the same time as you actually get hungry sucks, so spare urself the minor discomfort if that ever happens

i get so hungry before lunch but if i eat i WILL THROW UP!!!! ugh!! i find it ur hungry but if u know u cant keep it down, move around, it helps me not b so hungry !

its only 6:08pm ".....
 

Hello everyone ! I am sorry for everything. I need a drink. Tfw