http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=G17iMOw0ar8 Hey everybody needs to watch this RIGHT NOW it's a Ted talk about self harm and this guy is so inspirational oh my goodness PLEASE watch this it's like 20minutes and it's completely worth it. I literally cannot stress how amazing and important this is so even if you don't struggle with self injury please please watch this

i cut for the first time in eight months i was doing so well but then i just broke i dont even know why most days are a lot worse than this one i just dont get it why did i feel the need to do it now of all times i feel so worthless and i got in a fight with my dad at lunch because he made a mean joke about my friend and i got upset and he called me too sensitive and i just hate myself what is worth living for anymore i just want to give up and die and were going to the lake on wednesday and i've got six big red ugly marks on my skin oh my god someones going to see theyre going to know someone help please i just want to leave

hey love I wasn't able to respond to this earlier because I had friends over but I've been thinking aobut and praying for you all day. You're so loved. It's okay that you screwed up because everyone does that sometimes. pls don't die you are so loved.

thank you - that means more than you'll ever know. i love you so much.

no problem at all and I'm super glad it meant something to you. I love you too <333

im scared to go to any pride events now. hell, im even afraid to go to the vigil in my town for the orlando shooting. but i will. im scared as fuck but i have to be here. i have to keep fighting

yes please keep fighting we need so many brave people like u <3

everything hurts and i just don't know what to do anymore.

good things to dullen emotional pain:

1. loud rock or metalcore (favorites: Halestorm and Issues)
2. binge watching violent and/or funny tv shows (favorites: x files and Monk)
3. phone a friend (literally call somebody and talk over the phone for a few hours it rocks)
4. cut up t shirts into unwearable slashed tank tops
5. do really aggressive dramatic makeup
6. draw on yourself

so like
what if i quit music forever