TheAshWolf |
12-15-2012 09:14 PM |
Quote:
Originally Posted by Sandy
(Post 377326)
Well... I'm certainly not underestimating you, if it matters that some random on the internet says it. I expect great things from you... because I know you're going to achieve them.
I know how you feel, though, about being in a weird mood.
I searched for half an hour, trying to find a song to respond with but I ended up almost crying so I had to change it. :^I
In short, I'm a failure of everything I expect myself to be. Beyond not good enough in both terms of appearance, mind, and heart. And on top of it all, I can't stop thinking about how pointless I am, how little I am going to achieve, how futile I am. I thought it had gone away when I started high school, and for a moment, it had... the enriched and accelerated curriculum kept my brain fed for this entire term... and I can't believe it but now it's somehow no longer enough.
Ugh... me, me, me... the sad/happy part is, there is a rational part of me that is still conscious during all of this... (*facepalms*)
Ignore me. -______- I'm silly.
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You're not some random person on the Internet to me...you know that. >w<
x_x Everyone expects great things from me. I don't know why, but they do.
I'm seriously sick of rolling over and letting people push my friends and family around. If this ridiculous situation doesn't get better soon, I am going to snap. e__e I'd like to say I'm okay, and that my temper's in check, but it's not. There's this one person.......dsfsbkbsdf...I've never EVER been so hungry for revenge. Never. I've always been concerned for other people's well being, even if they're my enemy. But now, all that's holding me back from physically ripping this person to shreds is my morality and the fact that I seriously do not want to end up in Juvie.
D: Don't cry... >w< You're NOT pointless. You're NOT a failure. Cass, you're amazingly intelligent, creative, and beautiful. I know you don't think you are, but that's how I see you, and I"m sure that's how many people see you. I'm sorry, but I'm not going to ignore you, hon...if you're having trouble with something, you always have me to talk to. You know that. I thought you were doing well now that you're in IB, but...ugh, I don't even know what to say anymore. >w< My brain just died on me.
Don't beat yourself up over not being perfect. No one's perfect. And if there's anything I can ever do to help you, I'm always here, Cass...
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