The Writer's Block - Your emotional venting thread. I'll explain.

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WARNING: THE FOLLOWING POST IS A HODGEPODGE (IF YOU WILL) OF RANTS. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!

SOME THINGS ARE NOT TO BE JOKED ABOUT. SIMPLE SOLUTION. DON'T JOKE ABOUT THEM. IF YOU DISLIKE SOMEONE. DISLIKE THEM SILENTLY. DO NOT TELL THEM, DO NOT MAKE FUN OF THEM TO THEIR FACES, DO NOT ANYTHING. OH YEAH AND COLORS, LIKES, DISLIKES, SEXUAL ORIENTATION, RACE, OPINIONS, BELIEFS, ANYTHING ELSE ARE NOT SOMETHING TO MAKE FUN OF SOMEONE FOR. JUST. DON'T. DO NOT SCREAM ACROSS THE EFFING ROOM. EVER. LIFE RULE. IF SOMEONE IS HAVING A GOOD DAY. DO. NOT. RUIN. IT. FOR. THEM. EMOTIONS ARE LIKE BUBBLES. THEY CAN BE HAPPY AND FLOAT ALL AROUND BUT THERE IS NEVER ANY WARNING WHEN THEY WILL POP (that was a horrible analogy I'm sorry). WHAT KIND OF DICK MUST YOU BE TO HAVE TO MAKE SOMEONE ELSE'S DAY SHIT TO MAKE YOUR'S GOOD?
IF SOMEONE IS QUIET. DO NOT ASK THEM WHY. DO NOT INFORM THEM. LEAVE THEM BE. THEY WILL TALK IF THEY WANT TO. IF IT SEEMS LIKE SOMEONE IS HAPPY ALL THE TIME, DO NOT TEST THEM. THEY CAN SNAP. BECAUSE EVEN THE PEOPLE WHO SEEM HAPPIEST ARE FIGHTING A BATTLE YOU DON'T KNOW ABOUT. WE'RE ALL EXCITED TO GET OUT THE HELL HOLE KNOWN AS SCHOOL. THOSE 2 SECONDS YOU SHAVED OFF BY PUSHING SOMEONE TO GET TO THE DOOR FASTER AREN'T AS VALUABLE THAN YOU THINK THEY ARE YOU ASSHOLES.

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.....i apologize deeply for that. but it had to happen or i might have exploded.

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Originally Posted by Puckbrina159 (Post 498225)

As cliche as it sounds, "if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all" is a really, REALLY good life rule.

I know EXACTLY how you feel. :| *pats on the back*

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 498226)

As cliche as it sounds, "if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all" is a really, REALLY good life rule.

I know EXACTLY how you feel. :| *pats on the back*

YES. THAT. Good life rule.

i dislike my french teacher D:
so today we had a test and i asked a question about something to do with pronunciation and she said "wow meera, you're becoming like *insert the name of annoying dude who she ships me with but who isn't in my class this year*!" (i'll call him billy bob joe ^_^)
and then she almost wrote "meera is becoming like billy bob joe" on the whiteboard. really.
and the whole class exploded and screamed "meera likes billy bob joe!" and stuff like that.
i sure hope he doesn't find out anytime soon... DX

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Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 498180)

I know this may not mean much, but your amazing quality as a writer and an author and your steady perseverance at being a good person whilst surrounded by all this shit has already affected me and will continue to affect others. You're one of the strongest people I know, even if you don't know it yet.

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 498190)

Sandy, I'm going to respond to your vents. This might take me a while because I have a lot to say. So just keep an eye out for my response, okay? I probably won't give it to you on KP, though.

But I will say this, right up front:

You matter to me. I know that it sounds crazy; thinking someone half a continent away cares about you. But it's true. You. Matter. To. Me. Do you know what I would do if you died???? Do you?! Well, I hope you know, because, I don't have the slightest freaking idea WHAT I'd do. I mean....just...asdfghj. I'll explain more in my full response. But, just...Sandy.... x__x *giant bear hug* You have worth, okay?

THAT REMINDS ME I've been meaning to respond to your response of that other vent a while ago. It's been sitting in my drafts (like a lot of other things ;A;) but I haven't gotten much time to work on emails since my homework load has been slowly increasing... =__=
And... okay. I'll respond to your full response, then. I apologize beforehand if it takes a while, though. x_X
(Oh gosh, sorry about all the cursing. I'm sorry you had to read that. 8'I)

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Originally Posted by LaurenM (Post 498217)

You can do this. The only thing that's stopping you is your lack of confidence.
I'm a bit confused, though. I saw a short story you wrote and it was seriously gory, yet you have a fear of violence...?

you are not a freak

Thanks, Lauren. And yeah, you're totally right. The sad part is that I know, too, that the only thing that's stopping me is myself, but I just can't seem to move past it.

THAT story. Oh my gosh. I can't exactly explain that story, to be honest. I remember it was one of AA's horror contests and I remember reading the rules and how she really wanted the contestants to go all-out, and I usually go completely nuts with horror/gore, and that was also during my middle school phase where I was fascinated with psychology and serial killers and all that nice stuff so I just kind of
wrote... that

i dug it up a couple months ago and killed myself laughing at it, so I showed it to my friends, who also killed themselves laughing at it

But even so, fear of gore/body horror/generally disturbing content and having a fear of violence are really quite different. I love listening to gory creepypastas, reading gory/scary stories about murderers, and heck, I used to watch tracheostomies and hip replacements being recorded by professional surgeons (I had to take breaks though, because even though they were interesting, it was still really gross) and published for educational purposes simply because I was at the time quite fascinated by it. However, in a violent situation, where two parties are lashing out at each other, whether it be with words or fists (no gore involved), I don't respond as calmly as I wish I could. I get caught up in the anger and the yelling and I was never one to be naturally soothed by turbulent situations. My heart rate probably skyrockets far higher than the people who are actually involved, and despite being a bystander, I panic and irrationally assume that I'm either about to witness someone get killed, or that I'm going to be next and have to fight too, which is a whole other story. Almost instantly, my mind gets carried back to a really dark place I was in a couple years ago that I really don't know how to explain. (Basically, I was the bystander in an ongoing bullying thing, it was kind of complex and a really damaging relationship so I'll just leave it at that.) And I mean, people change. I've changed. My gory phase lasted a couple months, and I'm not going to lie, self harm changed all of that. I can't really look at blood or injuries now, even from a random bloody nose or a papercut, without getting uncomfortable.
tl;dr: fear of violence, fear of gore, and fear of pain/anything else that seems related are still quite different.

*slinks onto thread*
why is the general human population made up almost completely by idiots ;A;
*slinks off of thread*

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Originally Posted by Sandy (Post 498256)

I... thank you, AA. You do know that the same is true for you, though, right? I can think of multiple occasions where, despite everything, you helped me come down from some kind of hecked up panic attack and helped me feel normal again. Thanks a lot, man.

THAT REMINDS ME I've been meaning to respond to your response of that other vent a while ago. It's been sitting in my drafts (like a lot of other things ;A;) but I haven't gotten much time to work on emails since my homework load has been slowly increasing... =__=
And... okay. I'll respond to your full response, then. I apologize beforehand if it takes a while, though. x_X
(Oh gosh, sorry about all the cursing. I'm sorry you had to read that. 8'I)

Thanks, Lauren. And yeah, you're totally right. The sad part is that I know, too, that the only thing that's stopping me is myself, but I just can't seem to move past it.

THAT story. Oh my gosh. I can't exactly explain that story, to be honest. I remember it was one of AA's horror contests and I remember reading the rules and how she really wanted the contestants to go all-out, and I usually go completely nuts with horror/gore, and that was also during my middle school phase where I was fascinated with psychology and serial killers and all that nice stuff so I just kind of
wrote... that

i dug it up a couple months ago and killed myself laughing at it, so I showed it to my friends, who also killed themselves laughing at it

But even so, fear of gore/body horror/generally disturbing content and having a fear of violence are really quite different. I love listening to gory creepypastas, reading gory/scary stories about murderers, and heck, I used to watch tracheostomies and hip replacements being recorded by professional surgeons (I had to take breaks though, because even though they were interesting, it was still really gross) and published for educational purposes simply because I was at the time quite fascinated by it. However, in a violent situation, where two parties are lashing out at each other, whether it be with words or fists (no gore involved), I don't respond as calmly as I wish I could. I get caught up in the anger and the yelling and I was never one to be naturally soothed by turbulent situations. My heart rate probably skyrockets far higher than the people who are actually involved, and despite being a bystander, I panic and irrationally assume that I'm either about to witness someone get killed, or that I'm going to be next and have to fight too, which is a whole other story. Almost instantly, my mind gets carried back to a really dark place I was in a couple years ago that I really don't know how to explain. (Basically, I was the bystander in an ongoing bullying thing, it was kind of complex and a really damaging relationship so I'll just leave it at that.) And I mean, people change. I've changed. My gory phase lasted a couple months, and I'm not going to lie, self harm changed all of that. I can't really look at blood or injuries now, even from a random bloody nose or a papercut, without getting uncomfortable.
tl;dr: fear of violence, fear of gore, and fear of pain/anything else that seems related are still quite different.

Oh okay/

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 498264)

Is anyone else a little disappointed by the new P!ATD album? It's so...electronic, and Brendon's voice is just so perfect without all that autotune shit.

Sorry. :P

Very.
I only seriously like the first two songs. Though Girls/Girls/Boys was pretty good.

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Originally Posted by Sandy (Post 498256)

Take your time with what I send you. I understand. (Homework is evil. ewe)

It's okay, Cass...you were terribly upset; I understand. <:^) *hugs* Don't feel bad about the cursing. Just don't. Okay?

Also, check your inbox.

So I listen to mainly pop punk/rock/"emo" bands, which are evil according to my dad¿¿¿

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Originally Posted by camikat (Post 498372)

So I listen to mainly pop punk/rock/"emo" bands, which are evil according to my dad¿¿¿

The same goes with my dad .-. And my mom.
Yelling from other room "Turn off that devil music!" (My mom)
My dad: "You will never listen to that devil music while you live in this household." Except using other words. That shouldn't be on here X3