high five vicious murderer writer people

because you're just that fabulous

and you totally deserve to be alive

You guys

So I have this character in my book, Lava, and she only makes sense to me a lesbian. It's part of her personality and part of who she is as a character. I could just pull a dumbledore type thing where I don't make it obvious or anything but just think of her that way, or I could actually have some romance going on with her, which would be amazing. Two problems. First, if I'm going to let friends from school and stuff read this, it's going to get awkward with straight romance, not to mention lesbian romance. As ridiculous as it sounds, I just want to avoid the awkwardness. And also, Lava is loosely based off of my very straight friend Taylor who is understanding and all that but I'm not sure how she'd react to her character being like that.

but at the same time I really care about my character and I don't think it's fair to keep her in the closet

and I have writer problems that just aren't normal

save me

honestly what the fuck am i even doing here except draining my mom's bank account and eating fatty foods and being a bitch to people i dont know what to tell u guys there is absolutely no point for me to be alive

There are plenty of points for you to be alive. You make people happy, whether you know it or not, and there are people that care about you. Not only just on Kidpub, but in life. And don't focus on the now, focus on the future! I think practically every teenager does what you described. I know I do :P But hey, when you grow up, you'll be supporting yourself. All of this will have passed and you'll be living your own life free from the confines of childhood. Think of all the people that you'll make happy in the future, think of how you could save someone's life. Just think of all the possibilities there are and will be. Traveling the world, having a family who loves you, becoming an author, and just trying to make everything you want to happen come true.
Just don't give up now. Just wait and things could get better. In fact, they will get better. Please?

yo dude shut up okay *buries you in hugs*
remember the other day when i said you're one of my fave people
and one of my best friends
and ily bunches
hey if nothing else you make my life a lot better at least
(plus you're a fab person and the world needs fab people)

"Suicide does not lower the chances of Life getting worse, Suicide eliminates the possibility of it ever getting better."

Think about that for me.
We love you, Heather. <3

The NES on the Mainsite is being really fucking shitty right now i mean I don't even know what to say about it GAH I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DEAL WITH THIS

SCREW IT

it's just. yeah. thank you. i'm just so codependent now but i want to get as far away from my parents at possible but i'm also becoming sort-of friends with my mom (when she's not yelling at me) and idk this sounds really stupid and self centered but i do understand people a lot and i'm almost over empathetic but then i dont know what to do with all that emotion and knowledge and shit and i guess i'm just too young/old for my age. thank you for caring, honestly.
i love you too, sweetheart, and i'm really glad that i make your life better. but i think i'm kind of like the doctor with companions. everyone i get to close to i end up hurting in the long run. or pushing away from. or clinging too close to.
thank you c:
i know that feel. i'm sorry.

yo i'm going to stay anyway, bc even if you do hurt me, i'm prettyyyyy sure my life will still have been way better for having you in it, and i care a lot, and yeah c:
*whispers* the doctor, like u, is a badass motherfucker and a great person