look i know you don't take me seriously and i know you think i'm a bitch and only put up with me because i'm friends with her but honestly i did mean it. i hate making people sad. despise the fact that i'm able to do it. so if i've ever done that, i'm sorry. and i told you that. and you said that you were joking and laughed at me and that fucking hurt. but you didn't apologize.
i guess you didn't really have to. but it would've been nice to hear something.

I've always felt that I'm
Just a barely-contained ball
Of anger and hatred.
Perhaps I'm right.
It's starting.
It's been flaring up more often.
It's starting.
Society makes it too easy.
It's starting.
I don't know what to do.
Why does the curse of hatred plague me?
And why does society make it so easy to grow?
I can't seem to control it at times.
When did it start first?
Well, the first traces, I suppose...
It's been four years.
So young
To fall to the
Curse of Hatred.

I want it so flipping bad that it hurts
but my pessimism is kicking in and I'm thinking that the odds are against me
after all, I'm so young and everyone else has had years to build their experience
but I want it so much that it's a burning flame within me
...there are those glimpses of moments when I think: but why not me?

Fingers crossed

Faith in humanity restored. :D
I had my first cello lesson at school the other day and this girl came over to me and introduced herself and she asked how it was going and told me to come to her with any questions. And then yesterday at gym she asked how cello was going for me. She's so sweet.
It's the things like that that remind the world isn't 100% suck. :D

Dear [insert name of school],
It's snowing like a bitch outside. You know what most schools do in this case? Close. You know what you didn't do? Close.

NO MORE SCHOOL SHIT YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!

When are you guys off?

Just got off :D
I'M FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE-
*gets home and my mom and brother as so sick that my brother had to go to the hospital so will be spending the rest of vacation on my computer in my room* .-.

Oh. Are they okay? If I may ask.

why the fuck am i so fucking stupid i need to put a bullet in my head

hell no please don't then the world would lose an awesome person (*hugs*)