its lik e i want to be bad
itll happen eventually , i know it will
what am i without it
what am i with it
le t me tear my skin off and RIP AND RIP MY SELF APART I AM UGLY. I AM SO UGLY. ROLLS O F FAT< ALWAYS EATING NO CONSIDERATION. NO WARMTH or DEPTH. I SAY IT NOW I SAY IT AGAIN I SSAY IT AWALSY ALWAYS ALWAYS I WANT TO TEAR. MY./ SKIN. OFF. RIP MY SHOULDERS APART RIP TYHE SKIN OFF MY FACE UNDER MY EYES I WANT TO RIP MYSELF SO HARD I BECOME NUMB TO THE PAIN . RIP MYSEL F RIP MYSELF RIP MYSELF RIP MY SELF RIP MYSELF RIP MYSELF NOT R.I.P REST IN FUCKING PEACE ??? NO. I MAY WANT TO DIE BUT WHY AM I SO CALM I DIONT KNOW I SOULD DIE I SHOULD DI E I SHOULD DIE WHO WOULD CARE IM UGLY I SHOULD DKIE I M SORRY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM
so o sorry. im sorry. im sorry. please forgive me. please forgive me why cant i die. im siorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorryu . im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry cant you see im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry forgive me im sorry im sorry im sorry im osrroy im sorry im sorry im sorr y what odes this even mean im sorry forgive me fiortigve me FORGIVE ME
please let me go

Maybe in the morning I'll write "I'm sorry" across myself in scars bc that's all I ever feel like saying

TIA!!! TIA!!! I WOULD MESSAGE YOU ON TUMBLR BUT SMTH HAPPENED AND I DELETED IT ANYWAY PLEASE PLEASE DONT, YOU ARE WONDERFUL OHH MY GOD TIA I LOVE U SO MUCH PLEASE DONT HURT YOURSELF!!!! ohh my god can yzou talk to your gf??. im sure they would be able to articulate how much they care for you better than me,,, pleas e dont do anythingohh my god !!!!! oh myg od please

wondering whether or not my family actually cares about me lmao
and i fucking relapsed oh great.fuckkimightaswellkillmyself

Hey, CT (Tia is that it?) ik we don't exactly talk much. But I'm here.

Everyone goes through body image stuff. Everyone. Trust me. And it's horrible and annoying and you feel like a waste of skin. But no skin is a waste. The Vikings knew that, mind you, they used to bind books in human skin on occasion and that's not recommended. In fact, it's probably illegal. Like most Viking activities. Anyway, you'll feel bad but it's not true. You're not ugly or fat it's your brain's bias against yourself. It's inaccurate. That's not how people really see you.

As for feeling stupid and wanting to die, understand you mean a lot to us. Don't hurt yourself. We're here for you and ik I'm bad at these speeches but I'm here too.

i didnt' get into one of my school options
and i'm probably not going to get into the other one either
i'm going to be stuck at this poor little small school where everyone hates me forever

i want to die

I'm sure you'll do fine.

Keep your head up! If you think negatively like that, it will reflect on your actions and your attitude, whereas if you're more optimistic it'll give you a boost and you'll be happier and more confident. I hope that made sense. Just keep believing in yourself :) and besides, school is such a short time period in your life. Once it's over, it's over. You'll move on to bigger and better things and forget about the drama of school and all the immaturity that's there. However, if school is seeming to be too much for you, I highly suggest online school. It can get you away from all the drama!

ugh im such a bad friend what th fuck

i'm not perfect therefore i suck at life
is losing one jacket or getting one b- on a test a valid reason to want to punch myself because to me it is