crap.


um well first of all no no no no no no no. I got pissed off because of something stupid you said that offended me, not because you're a horrible bitch. I don't think that at all of you. Everyone has their moments, good and bad. Don't apologize to me; it doesn't matter anymore. I just needed to hear that you didn't mean it, and that's all I needed to hear. I don't want you to feel bad over it at all. And for the record, you are a genuinely nice person in general.

Don't talk like that. You are not a bitch. Everyone says mean things sometimes. Often I feel like a total monster and believe I'm not any good. But that's not true. You are beautiful and kind and please don't die.

I'm probably not helping at all and just sounding like some annoying therapist, but you are not a bitch. You may act bitchy, but you're not a bitch.

im sorry

...sigh

don't be sorry. Just forget this ever happened and I will too. It's over. I don't care anymore, and you shouldn't either.

it's just that... making people upset has been hitting me a bit too hard lately for reasons i don't feel comfortable discussing. basically, my mental health is awful and i'm sorry.

lol screw u anxiety and weird tendency to compulsively apologize for everything

oh my god I can't fucking win now you're feeling bad for apologizing

I should probably just shut up now but long story short you're not a bad person and you're going to make it thru.

thank you c: yeah i just haven't been very stable lately

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why am I so fucking useless why can't I make everyone okay why is everyone around me hurting and I can't stop it

im gonna punch a wall

wouldn't it be so much better if no one had feelings? then i wouldn't have to scream "NO NO NO MEERA DOESN'T CRY I DON'T CRY MEERA IS NOT A CRYING PERSON" at myself literally every day, and i wouldn't have to worry about making other people angry or having them do something for me and feeling guilty and crying some more and just
I SHOULDN'T HAVE DISPLAYS OF EMOTION THIS OFTEN OK THIS IS NOT WHAT I DO