thank u all sm

I couldn't breathe this morning my friend came in telling me that my best friend posted a goodbye on instagram (I don't have an instagram so I didn't see it) and thenmy best friend didn't come to third period and I kept thinking that maybe she did something and I started crying and I felt legit sick to my stomach with worry I didn't think you actually got physically ill from stuff like that but I felt like I would puke and my math teacher yelled at me for zoning out but I couldn't breathe and she came in for fourth bc apparently she was only out from third bc she was with a counselor bc a teacher saw her post and she acted like everything was fine and so I acted like everything was fine and I don't know what to say to her we've been best friends for five years but our relationship has been very detached and I don't know what I would do without her and I want her to know I love her and she can talk to me but how do I talk to her when she won't talk to me.
I'm crying rn just thinking about it I need her to be ok she's such an amazing person and it would be my fault if she did anything bc she gave me the signs and I was too afraid to talk to her.
I'm going to text her right now I need her to be ok I need everything to be ok.

ugh that has to be terrible, but you seem like the kind of friend she'd never want to let go. Just keep loving on her, and she'll figure it out.

So I read that wiping your tears on your face will help give you clear skin, so I guess some good can come of dad calling me a jackass

my parents said i used to be good at at least some things but apparently now i'm a no talent dud

oops .

oops what?

I came home to my mom crying and telling me she had a drinking problem?? Like I really hadn't noticed until she said that and certain things clicked into place. Like she got really angry at nights and was slamming doors after drinking multiple glasses of wine, and honestly, I'm just grateful that she's not as bad as other people who drink a lot. My dad is making her stop so I hope she gets through this.

I don't know if I should reply but my sister is going through something very similar, only she's young and has other issues on top of that. But I know how you feel about that, like you think everything is alright with your world, and then you get pulled over and it's like "the person who made you what you are has issues" and it isn't even unexpected but you never thought it could happen like ???

Exactly!! You got it spot on! Like you'd never expect that to happen to that particular person and it causes you to question things. I don't know. I'm sorry you're going through this though with your sister :( I hope it all works out!