I don't even know what the hell I'm typing anymore, and I don't know even now. I don't feel like me, and I guess that sucks, but you know, I guess that;s totally normal right? Every time I go to school, everything happens, no I take that back, nothing happens. Things just keep piling up, piling higher and higher and heavier and heavier. I should stop coming to this thread, because all I want to do is feel sorry, and the way it goes for me, is I practically absorb the emotions because of my over average EQ that I have. My dad says that's a good thing, that I have such a high, EQ, but WHY? So WHAT. It makes me feel depressed. But you know what I learned? I can't feel bead for myself. I guess it's self esteem. And maybe that is what all this shit is about, self esteem. Cause, sometimes I'll come here, and read everything. When someone reads this rant of mind, I don't want to hear any of the "oh, you'll make it through" shit or the "good for you". Or "sweetie, don't worry". What the hell is that? Strength is in you. We might need support, and yes, hell yes, we need support, but we don't need canes to lean on. We have legs. We can walk and talk, and if we were ducks, we could lay eggs too. Anyway, I don't know if I have a point, but my point is that this isn't you. When I post here? Not me. That isn't Sophia. Sophia is a rebel, an artist, singer, a music maker. All of you, you aren't you when you post this stuff. The grass is more resilient, if we were like the grass, we would be perfect. Stepped on, and spring back up again. Bringing back to the subject of self esteem. This is all about self esteem, and when you let depression rear it's ugly head, it's clogging the self esteem that you need. You know what? The point IS THIS. Depression is showing it's STUPID face, and SELLING you this shit. But you know what? THE CUSTOMER IS ALWAYS RIGHT.

Well, I have the rest of the week off. :D

Me too, I've had ALL week off. :3

The last day of school until it turns into Christmas Holiday is on the end of the world! >:D

They're not bullying me. They are annoying and making me feel depressed just because I have a crush. >->

Okay...bigger rant.

I don't know EXACTLY how to type this out so it can make sense but people know who I like but I shouldn't care but, apparently, I do. ,_, It makes me feel like they are asking:

"Max, Max, Max! You like *insert her name*, don't you?" They ask me this every single time of my days in these last 4 weeks at school and it is bloody annoying. ._. I don't know if it is just me but people should lay off others and give them a bit of spare time to themselves if they want to like someone...it's not like that to those people.


They want to know MORE.

I went through a lot of that in 5th and 6th grade. x_x And let me tell you, those kids had some dirty minds. You can't even imagine the untrue rumors they cooked up about me and this one guy. And then, the moment they got tired with those rumors, they moved on and paired me with ANOTHER guy. It was like I couldn't talk to a boy without everyone saying we were dating or he kissed me or I was kajbkjabfkajdbf--it was horrible. >_< I kind of know how you feel, then.

Truth is, Max, kids can be really sadistic. ._. They take pleasure in watching you get embarrassed. I have no idea why, but it amuses them. The only way to lessen the blow of their rumors is to try to act like you don't care. Also, tell these kids that the rumors they're spreading are so ridiculous, you're not going to waste your breath by addressing them anymore. It takes a while before you totally get used to ignoring stuff like that, but it's possible. It's kind of like harsh sandpaper on rough wood. Eventually the wood gets smoothed out and sandpaper has nothing left to grind down, so there isn't nearly as much stress being put on the wood. ^_^

They're just trying to get your goat. ._. And people do tend to like to snoop in other people's business. I'm sorry you have to put up with this, Max... D: