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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 422864)

no no no no no no
i feel so useless right now
you can't die. you're too great to die like this. we love you too much.
you can get the hell away from your parents, if you want/need to, in a few years. and until then—even then—we'll do whatever we can to carry you through the pain.

don't feel useless
i'm not gonna kill myself
(if only because i have nothing to kill myself with)
ok. ok. thank you.
sorry i was freaking about b/c of their suspicions.
i just.
idk.
i want to go to that black place in my mind and never come out sometimes.
it's about the equivalent of dying, anyways.

Quote:

Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 422862)

hey guess what
my dad just started brainstorming
about what was making me not want to eat
i heard him with my mom
'i always ate a lot when i was a teen'
'yeah me too'
well
and then
'hey heather, you eaten dinner tonight?'
'no.'
'why not?'
'i'm just not hungry. that's all.'
'....you sure?'
'.................'
'i wonder if something's wrong with your stomach.'
'nothing's wrong with my stomach, dad.'
'well, maybe it's from lack of sleep.' (my dad uses this excuse for EVERYTHING about me)
'not everything is from lack of sleep, dad.'
'i didn't say it was!!!!!!' (sounding like petulant child)
'no, but you imply it frequently.' (under my breath)
'......'
'..................'
'........................'
'.......................................'
'are you anorexic?' (note the accusatory tone of this inquiry. it seems to suggest that if i AM, he's gonna deny deny deny deny, disown me, and/or murder me on the spot.)
'nO!' (how to lie to your parents: make the word ((usually either 'no' or 'yes')) very offended sounding, as if-- how dare you suggest such a thing! and Of course not! Don't be ridiculous! hahahahaha!)
/subjectwasthusdropped
and i kinda want to die now
not that i didn't already
but like
that's the only way i'd ever let them find out
is if i died
it would be in my will or something
because then
i wouldn't know their reaction
and
i wouldn't get hurt
more than i already am.

really
want to die

No, Heather. Just no. Don't let this get to you! :( You're not going to die. You hear me? YOU. ARE. NOT. GOING. TO DIE. And I know you really don't want to, deep down. You just want the stress to end. It will end eventually, and you and I both know death is NOT the answer.

Besides, your father is just concerned about you, even if he has a strange way of showing it.

Like Tredom said, you're not going to die. We love you too much to just sit here silently as you go through all this. ;w; Please don't hurt yourself. Please don't let them get to you. You're a beautiful person, Heather, even if you don't see yourself as one. We all can see it. And one of these says, you'll see it, too.

Quote:

Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 422862)

really
want to die

wow that's close

im scaring myself now
i looked on lots of charts and stuff
im 15 pounds underweight
that cant be right
but it all says it
multiple charts
i'm scared, i don't think I can do this
id excercise
i eat but i'm underweight
wahtthehell can i do?

you see yourself 10% more beautiful in the mirror than you are in real life

i must look like a monster

Quote:

Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 422866)

thank you so so so much *hugs*
:/
I know how that feels, sometimes… we want you to stay out here, though, away from the black. Happy and amazing.

Quote:

Originally Posted by soph-soph27 (Post 422869)

Some people are just thinner and have lighter bones, and thus weigh less. But, if you can, make your diet as high in calories and sugars as possible--lots of breads and rice and fruit would do. Also the best exercising you could do is probably regular walking, jogging, and/or push-ups.

Quote:

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 422873)

I do Taekwondo, martial arts class.
I eat starches, and some fruits.
But I'm just scared because
I'm not me anymore
when I take a sort of deep breath while I'm in a tight fitting tank top, I can see the individual ribs and my spine is really defined
and I'm wondering if I shouldn't just accept it

but thank you.

Quote:

Originally Posted by soph-soph27 (Post 422879)

Maybe you just have a really high metabolism? <:^/ If you're really concerned, get your parents to take you to the doctor for a general check-up. He/she will be able to tell you if there's something wrong or not, and how to possibly help you fill out a bit.

Quote:

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 422882)

that's the thing
I don't want my parents involved
that's the last thing I want

I htink you're probably right
eating normally without gaining weight or much weight

thanks. :o I owe you. and I'll try to stop worrying.

Ignore me. I have reverted into a small child.

OH MY GOSH, PIXAR IS MAKING FINDING NEMO 2!!!

MY EARLY CHILDHOOD! AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

Nostalgia!

PIXAR, IF YOU GET THIS RIGHT, I'LL LOVE YOU FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!! :'D
If you mess this up, though, I'm going to go ballistic, and so will the majority of your other fans. e___e

You know what I absolutely HATE about the English language?

How so many words can be accidentally misspelled into curses. DX Seriously. Also how spell check doesn't tell you that it's misspelled since curse words are still words that can be spelled correctly, so you don't notice it at all until you send/show someone the thing you wrote with the mistake in it.

(...No, that didn't happen to me, I just noticed that the other day while trying to write a word super fast and it came out as a curse, which made me paranoid about typing certain words, now. x_x)