The Writer's Block - Your emotional venting thread. I'll explain.

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ugh
this was the same song I used to describe my aunt
now this is me

fences-paramore
this is why im scared
because i'm becoming more and more like my aunt that is depressed
and my dad... well, he yells at her for being depressed and says that she's worthless and she's just taking up space and she should die already
and what if i'm still like her when I grow up
imagine how my parents would react
or my brother
wow
okay

and i want out i want out i dont want to be here anymore i dont want to be in this place, here, this earth anymore.
and im such a fking hypocrite because i tell my friend that self harm is not the solution but i cant help but think of it
and i feel so done about everything and i just want to go already

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 422906)

no no no no noo… please.
i don't want you to go. i want you to stay here, with the people that love you. i love you. we all love you.

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 422905)

DEPRESSED PEOPLE SHOULD NOT JUST "DIE ALREADY"! e_e It is NOT their fault that they're depressed. They would change if they could, but they can't, so other people just have to get off their high horse and have some sympathy. NO ONE has the right to say that about someone who has true chronic depression. No one. (Sorry if that sounded harsh; I know and love many people with chronic depression, and it pushes my berserk button when someone tries to talk down to others with the same ailment.)

Don't dwell on what-ifs, Lily. :( You're making yourself sick by worrying about this.

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 422906)

NOOOOOOO LILY!!! D: *super huge flying glomp* Stop it. We love you, Lily. Tredom does, I do, EVERYONE ON HERE LOVES YOU. ;w; You can't hurt yourself. It will only make you feel worse in the long run. Try the butterfly method, or maybe draw a little face and name it after one of us to remind you that your KP family loves you and is supporting you.

But I know how you feel....I had three breakdowns in 2012, all of which included me feeling fed up with everything and wanting to not be on Earth anymore.

THIS IS HOW I FEEL...about my art. DX *has been re-drawing and re-drawing this one picture for hours*

http://media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mc1p4h4e1h1r5xen1.gif

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 422910)

THIS IS HOW I FEEL...about my art. DX *has been re-drawing and re-drawing this one picture for hours*

http://media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mc1p4h4e1h1r5xen1.gif

IS THAT JOHN GREEN IS THAT JOHN GREEN OH MY GOD TELL ME.
;w;

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Originally Posted by maxi (Post 422912)

IS THAT JOHN GREEN IS THAT JOHN GREEN OH MY GOD TELL ME.
;w;

Yeah, it is, I think so. XD Either him or his brother, Hank.

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 422916)

no, kat, you can't help me. i can't be helped by people who don't understand
no, siobhan, you don't know what it's like, you don't know how i feel, you aren't in my mind.
no, holly, i know you don't care.
no, life, i won't stay

No, Charlotte, you will stay.

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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 422907)

when you grow up, you'll be being really f***ing awesome with really f***ing awesome people, listening to really f***ing awesome music. And you'll be happy. and if they're still a-holes they can leave you the f*** alone.

no no no no noo… please.
i don't want you to go. i want you to stay here, with the people that love you. i love you. we all love you.

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 422909)

Thanks. Its nice to know that people care about me. What scares me though is even the fact that people care about me doesn't make the idea any less appealing. It's gotten to the point that I don't really give a crap whether or not people are here for me. If I were to get hit by a car or something that would cause my death, I wouldn't care.
And yeah, I'll try to do the butterfly project or something similar. Thanks guys.