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bookworm1999 06-24-2013 02:46 AM

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Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 474148)
I tried to double space this post, I did, honestly. I swear.

I have decided to be a writer professionally, starting in high school and practicing now. I kind of want to write a small autobiography, little journal entries from whenever- it was weird, I've never wanted to write nonfiction before. I mainly have decided to attempt to write about my life because I am confused and Iíve been told I should take it more seriously and become a Ďrealí writer. Perhaps if I was a real writer I would be less confused. Perhaps the words I so frantically try to put into the mold of my dreams and fantasies wouldnít sway and swim and slip through my fingers as they dig into the little bumps on f and j, and perhaps my fantasies would be less dark and more organized instead of scattered randomly into my waking, sleeping, and lunch hours. Perhaps Iíd be neater, or less neat, or more public or more private or less judgmental or more judgmental. I thought I wrote an awful story for a school assignment, and then because Iím too nosy for my own good, I looked at the stories of other kids who did it. I knew in my heart that my story was still utterly pathetic, but I felt better. I told one of my friends that when I was eight I wrote awful stuff with amazing grammar. He replied that he wrote amazing stuff with awful grammar, and now I know he was lying because I read the first paragraph of his story and it looks like one of my stories from when I was eight. Humility is a virtue I donít possess, but neither is the heart to tell an aspiring writer that a true villain would never say something along the lines of, ďWhen i take over the zoo the world wil be mine mahahahahaĒ. In between disgust and hysteria, I reminded him gently that perhaps it should be mwahahahaha, you know, with a w after the m. Perhaps if I was a real writer Iíd be a little more subtle, and people wouldnít ask me things like, ďAre you writing another book?Ē Then again, perhaps Iíd be less subtle and Iíd reply with something succinct yet decisive such as, ďYes, and itís a novel, exactly fifty thousand words, and itís all about how much I hate people like you.Ē When I go back to school I plan, to be honest, to tell them all that Iím not a writer anymore and Iím not interested in writing and Iím training to be a concert pianist. I would be bereft of both the annoying questions from people I would like to hit over the head with a baseball bat and the quick answer to questions from them such as why I talk like an Ďold dead personí. Iím a writer, I say. Then they nod as if this explains everything, while in reality a writer doesnít talk like an old dead person because old dead people donít talk. Coincidentally, theyíre dead. How Iíd hate to lose the one-size-fits all retort of Iím a writer. Amongst my many talents, I feel that writing is probably my best shot. On a recent vacation, I decided to bang out my annoyance at being at a party and being expected to socialize on one of my many punching bags: the piano. I composed something wonderful in g minor and this old lady came to me and complimented me no end and told me to have a successful piano career and asked about my other talents. I was more than a little frosty because I hate it when people compliment me, and she finally dug out of me that I was a writer of fiction because someone told her about my published work of pooónot using that exact terminology, of course. ďGood, honest hobby,Ē she said. This irritated me because she passed off writing as a hobby instead of a lifestyle, and then, in all the wisdom of your average nincompoop, labeled it as good and honest. Being a writer is being an ugly, two-faced liar as well as a sly thief, a coldblooded, murderous assassin, and a mastermind of all things dark and deceitful; a puppet master of mind and heart. To top it off, I donít feel I am a good fiction writer anyhow; I am too utterly and chronically confused. Iím good for my age; thatís what they say. Thatís true, thatís very true, but I really donít want to be a good writer for my age. I want to be a good writer, period. And as I said, I usually despise compliments because theyíre either not sincere or based off of ignorance or lack of standard. Iíve heard that becoming a writer is the most honest thing you can do, but itís my personal opinion that itís the least honest thing you can do. In my day-to-day life I am a quirky, funny, generally unpopular person who likes giving hugs to random people and faces the same challenges that everyone her age faces: dealing with report cards, test grades, really weird tan lines, and boys and stupid peopleóExcuse me for repeating myself a little there. In my writing, I am dark and mysterious, weaving tales of fantasy and terror to bring out light in darkness and darkness in light. Yes, Iím a hopeless romantic who loves the smell of rain and the velvet-soft touch of roses on her skin and love poems and vampire romances and scented candles and the smell of clean laundry; yes, Iím a shallow child who loves donuts and gumball machines and slumber parties and pretty clothes and fancy hats and shoes she would never be able to walk in and flowers in her hair; yes, Iím a nerdy outsides who loves the Lord of the Rings and Back to the Future and Star Wars and Cosmic Encounter and Dominion and the Oxford English Dictionary and lists of obscure words that are nearly obsolete save for the treasures of ancient literature; yes, Iím a dark dreamer who loves gargoyles and cobwebs and Edgar Allen Poe and Agatha Christie and Coraline and black lace. If Iím not a Ďrealí writer I donít care, because I choose to channel my insanity through writing and I always plan to. In the end, what is a writer but someone who creates their own universe and then lives their life through it? Good writing, really good writing, is the musings of an utter lunatic. And I certainly plan to call my book the Musings of a Lunatic. That, my friends, would be an awesome title.

That's so awesome! Congrats! ^^

L.S.Trendom 06-24-2013 02:50 AM

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Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 474172)
oh god that's horrible

is there a really good teacher you had or something that you can e-mail about it? besides that i guess just be a really good friend. does he have any older siblings, you know, the really big college sister who will strangle any girl who messes with her bro, or whatever?

no, he goes to a different school. i'm thinking either his parents or another boy scout leaderÖ :/
he's an only child

maxi 06-24-2013 02:52 AM

Im SO TIRED.

lvhamsters 06-24-2013 03:37 AM

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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 474163)
one of my friends said he thinks he's going to kill himself by the end of summer. he's sounded kind ofÖ down/depressed/sad for a while, because of, from what he said, girl problems but idk it sounds like more than that, he hates himself. and i haven't been able to help at all. and a lot of the time i'm so tired emotionally i can barely bring myself to try to keep up a conversation not about suicide with him and i don't know how the fuck i can help him. he said he won't tell his parents, that destiny will determine whether he dies or not (i didn't even really know how to respond to what he said about destiny ugh), and that going to therapy would make him weak. and he said his parents would send him off somewhere where people would try to helpÖ i got him to promise he won't kill himself this year, at least. partially because he wants to help me. so i'm avoiding telling him he can't help me.
i don't know what to fucking do, i'm pretty sure i'm going to tell someone but i don't know who to tell and what if it just makes it worse.
so yeah this is fun

D: That's horrible D:
I guess the only answer is to tell anyone, or everyone. he may think that therapy would make him weak now, but it may actually help him (unless he's already been and knows what it's like). I hope he'll be okay....


So I learned that my old best friend has tried committing suicide 7 times.... that scares me.... I'm worried about him :c he's had a difficult life and I just wish I could've been there to help him, but he left for about 5 years. I'm hoping to help him now that he's back <3 I just really hope he gets better....

maxi 06-24-2013 06:30 AM

UGH I NEED TO GET HISTORY DONE.
BUT PROCRASTINATION.
BUT HISTORY HOMEWORK.
MAX IT'S DUE TOMORROW. IT'S NOT EVEN MUCH HOMEWORK.
BUT IT'S STILL HOMEWORK.
BUT GET UP AND DO IT RIGHT NOW. NOW. NOW.
BUT I WON'T HAVE THE TIME TOMORROW.
EXACTLY SO GET UP AND DO IT NOW.
No.
NOW NOW NOW NOOOOOOW.

Confuzzled 06-24-2013 03:28 PM

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Originally Posted by maxi (Post 474390)
UGH I NEED TO GET HISTORY DONE.
BUT PROCRASTINATION.
BUT HISTORY HOMEWORK.
MAX IT'S DUE TOMORROW. IT'S NOT EVEN MUCH HOMEWORK.
BUT IT'S STILL HOMEWORK.
BUT GET UP AND DO IT RIGHT NOW. NOW. NOW.
BUT I WON'T HAVE THE TIME TOMORROW.
EXACTLY SO GET UP AND DO IT NOW.
No.
NOW NOW NOW NOOOOOOW.

Welcome to my world. :)

rebecca 06-24-2013 03:57 PM

Homework. Ack.

- Me at my most eloquent.

lvhamsters 06-24-2013 07:14 PM

Guise .-. I hash made a cover for all of you people who are feeling lonely, or self harming, or feeling any emotional toil. If You Knew by Joel Faviere
Excuse the suckishness of it ;~; I was in a hurry
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_T0HRAoYmTg

Arin 06-24-2013 09:06 PM

I'm feeling more and more unstable about my writing every day. Gah
I just want to delete everything I've written.

camikat 06-24-2013 09:29 PM

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Originally Posted by Arin (Post 474900)
I'm feeling more and more unstable about my writing every day. Gah
I just want to delete everything I've written.

Maybe you could take a break from reading anything, IRL or on KP. Whenever I read something good, I automatically compare it to my writing and feel worse about it. :/ So.


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