I'm not sure what to say. My mom has had her angry moments (especially when she's pregnant), but she's not like that.

If she's so set on you being mentally ill, why doesn't she get you help?

Hey. Don't always believe your mom. Yes, you should listen to her in what you think is right, but parents aren't right all the time. And I think your mom is seriously wrong on this one. You should tell her that you really aren't suffering on purpose.

I think you already figured it out, but not everyone is like you. There are shallower people who think their little problems are worth giving up on life for. Honestly, I don't think your friend has depression. You aren't a freak - she just doesn't know what she's talking about.

Think of this as a classroom. Let's say there are 35 students. In all, there's probably just a couple kids who listen to something that isn't pop/dance/electronica because it's cool. And in those 2 kids, it's unlikely they like, say, classical music and old death metal. But let's say you do. That's a minority compared to the normal majority. That's sort of how it works with your situation. You aren't worthless, you aren't a depressed freak. But you do need help.

Not all therapists are bad. Some are, stinking horrible, but some actually listen to you and unrest and what you're feeling. Those people don't just work for the money, but to genuinely make the patient feel better. Or maybe you need a friend that you can tell everything to, that isn't just on the emotional venting thread. Maybe it's your mission to go seriously talk to your mom. It never hurts to ask, unless you ask for hurt.

And sorry to sound like your mom, but you really should eat. When you're depressed and have a shitload of problems, the future as you see it is grey and hopeless, isn't it? But if you get past a bit of your problems, you can see a light somewhere at the end. Very vague and murky, maybe, but it's still there. Once you get past the grey shadows in front of your eyes, you'll survive. Think about it. What if these horrible feelings you've had for five years go away one day, when you win the fight with it? Let's say one day, they do go away, and you're all you are is skin and bones and a case of happiness that can't last long because you're not eating. Things would be a lot better if you wouldn't let yourself starve and succumb to your own darkness. Just please eat. Not for your mom, but for yourself. And if your mom is just being a liar, don't listen to her.

Isn't everyone scared of showing their emotions at some point? Or rather, most people? You've got a more serious case of it, but it's something you'll eventually have to get over. Or just try, with someone you really trust not to judge you harshly. If you don't really trust alone, you need to find someone that you do. Or just try letting loose every piece of anger, sadness, and despair you have in some way that doesn't hurt you. Or transform your depression into some sort of art to save yourself.

RAHH!!! Okay.. don't mind me, just passing through, ranting, lots of bleeping out cussing

Gosh Bianca, you really aren't that great! You're just an arrogant little *****
I realize your good, everyone does, everyone LOVES you, and your long hair and skinny body and amazing voice! I get I'll never be as good as you, but you could at least be humble. There's 40 of us, all wanting what you have stop acting like you own the place! You know what to tell people to get them to LOVE you! Just because our teacher gave you the music and the dance to the song doesn't make you any better!! I've been working at this For YEARS!!! Starting at the bottom and working my way up.. And you just waltz in and get in Varsity Choir without trying! If you were more humble, and gracious I might be happy for you, but all you do is rub it in our faces, steal my best friend and constantly talk in class. You get EVERYTHING! EVERYTHING!! What do I get NOTHING! And I realize your going to get the solo, SINCE YOU ALREADY MEMORIZED THE BLOODY SONG BEFORE ANY BODY ELSE EVEN KNEW ABOUT IT! But just watch, choir is my life, and your not gonna take me down that easily..:mad::mad:

On the other hand, you didn't have a boy tell you your beautiful today.. Nope, and if he did, he doesn't mean as much to you as this one did.;)

That's gotta be hard, and I understand you. Your not the only one, trust me. It's hard to deal with, but you've got to be strong.
Don't let anything get to you. And as nngo said, you should eat. Not eating isn't going to solve problems. It's just going to make them . . . worse.
I'm not the best person to comfort people, I'm sorry. It's hard to put feelings into words, so maybe I'll just share my feelings. I'm sad that you have to go through this but I have a bright hope that you'll get through it.
I hope you feel better and remember we're always here for you <3

:( Cassie...look, I know most of that is to your mother, so I won't delve too deep into this, because you have a right to feel however you feel. But I do have this to say:

1.) Your mother appears to be very short-sighted on this issue. This is not your fault, and it's probably not even hers--maybe her parent did that to her, too. I don't know. Listen to what your dad said. Don't let her get under your skin. You don't deserve to have to feel so bad. It's not your fault. If she can't see that, that is her problem.
2.) ...If you can find a GOOD therapist that will NOT drug you, I think you should go to one. Venting regularly and possibly finding ways to control your emotions would help you. I want to see you get better, and this seems like one of the only options...please, please try to get to one, Cass. Try to ignore all the what ifs about this. If your mom won't get it done, go to your father. Make sure to tell him you don't want drugs, though. (Watch the documentary Generation RX if you haven't already.)
3.) You're very noble for wanting to break the chain. But please, Cassandra, don't look at life like you're waiting for it to end. You're NOT a freak, you're NOT worthless. No matter how bad things get for you, you're still a person, and you can enjoy being alive to a certain extent. You can see color, enjoy music, taste good food (by the way, you HAVE to keep eating... D: please don't ever starve yourself), and be with people that care about you. No matter what your mom says, she loves you. So does your brother and your father and your pets and all of your friends on KP. You may not always see your value, but all those people DO see it. <:^J

I hope you feel better about this soon, Sandy. Please keep me updated. And feel free to come to me if you want advice or need to vent or just have a good laugh. *bear hug*

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Is it just me....or did a lot of recent WB posts (on all threads) just...disappear?

Bored. Well, not completely, anyways. I'm kinda... lost? no, that's not the right word. Oh, I hate when I can't find the right word for something. I'm in the mood for reading something, actually...

Nope. They did indeed.

That's really weird O_O They did.

I think Perry reset the site. O.o