Thanks, Ruza. I can get a little paranoid sometimes.

What's your time?
I'm freaking terrified of fitness testing--even though I'm planning to kick myself back into running, it doesn't matter HOW good you are. It doesn't matter if you're the chubby kid in grade three or Usain Bolt; you WILL be puking at the end of the beep test.
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NOPENOPENOPENOPENOPENOPE. NOPE.

Thank you. :/ I'm feeling better today anyways--sort of. It never really goes away, but I guess I have to accept that. I know that people with eating disorders, whether it be undereating or overeating, will have to live with their relationship with food for the rest of their lives: it just imprints into your brain. (*sigh*) Thanks for responding, though.

8^C I don't have any real friends either! The only reason I show up is to learn--but the IB kids are showing their true colours now... I'm back in a class full of idiots. ._. I can't even believe it. XD This boy was harassing this preppy girl and shoving his butt onto our desk while we tried to sort out the French cards (I was the one who had to take over and get my group back on track >_> I dunno why the IBs fail so hard at French) and I'm the fastest one in Math, the only one who doesn't go home with a butt ton of homework, even though I don't do any of the calculator shortcuts (they're so confusing... e_e). Part of me is shocked, part of me is irritated... but I'm also relieved. XD
Don't be afraid: pick something in your future to look forward to and focus on that, and see all the challenges as steps you need to take to get there. I'm looking forward to getting a butt-smackin' awesome IB diploma and going to a butt-smackin' awesome school to get a butt-smackin' awesome career in what I love... but to get there, I'm going to have to apply for jobs that make me nervous, go through job interviews, do well on exams... and do fitness testing next semester and try out for the basketball team in a couple days. e_e I'm scared too, but don't let that hold you back. 8D

You said that? 8D That's freaking awesome.
I know, some girls are unbelievable. It seems strange, but once they realize that the opposite sex is still the same species as us, and that neither the brain nor emotions have gender, all this skankery will become obsolete. If they ever recognize it. -_- Hookers are not sexy. They are desperate, literally, desperate for money. That is the only reason that they allow the scum of the male population to use their bodies to fulfill their needs--NEEDS. Adults males DO need sex to stay on a certain level of sanity (thus, the frequency of masturbation during late adolescence, when these hormones are revving up for the first time ever)--it was the way they were programmed to maintain a growing population--but a need does NOT mean they are in love with some hooker who is sour and miserable because she has to sell herself to a bunch of SDI-ridden dudes. (*lols*) That is the most ridiculous thing I've ever heard. I mean, I've listened to prank calls on YouTube where a guy repeatedly prank calls a prostitute while she's working, and she is NOT happy to be doing what she's doing, nor is she exactly the most enchanting woman ever. Prostitute and customer have a mutual agreement--fulfillment of needs, and their relationship does not even come close to even a SHRED of platonic. Erg, you probably know all this... sorry. x_x Me typing out my brain again--I'm a kinetic learner so... I think aloud a LOT and aklsjkdljaskldjklsadsa
You're totally right. It's not that she wants other people to think she's sexy--that's what happens when a girl is unable to muster up some confidence for herself on her own. She relies on other people, but she has no flippin' idea what other people want from her because a) she's not other people and b) everyone wants something different/don't want anything at all. She needs attention. ._. Even if you tell her she's pretty WITH clothes on, that will only feed the fire.
Anyways, enough of my rambling ramble bluruiashda kldjaskl as.


That's why I just assume that I\m crazy enough that not only will I go to hell, but I have a special job reserved for me... poking souls with pitchforks. 8D
Anyone ever seen the movie "Little whatshisface? Benny? Jimmy?" The one with Adam Sandler in it... Little Billy? With the dog and the weed-brownies and the lisp and the three brothers who escape from Hell and wreak chaos upon the mortal world? X'D I love that movie...

I hope to beat two of my classmates in the nine-minute endurance run :P One of them runs long distance, like me, and another says she runs 200 metres but was sticking close to me when we Athletic Team people ram during the morning :P
Why am I fussing over this?

9:59/58. IDK yet. My best time is 9:08/07, and in the 1.5, it's 15.47, (though I've only ran it once). Yeah, the beep test (Pacer), I do about 42 I think. My best is 56, and I achieved that in 3rd Grade. Seriously? You are going into running again! That's amazing! I hope you do well. My suggestion is to start with like a football feild, and then half a mile, and stuff like that. Thanks for your support again. (And I hope you do well too) :o:D;):rolleyes:

For the mile run (here we call it the 1600m) my best time was 7:12, but that was last year and from there I've done a lot of training... dunno what this year's results will bring about. ._. My best for the beep test was 61, and at the end of both the beep test and the 1600 I was gagging, about to vomit everywhere. *_* I push myself pretty hard when I want to... My body is not naturally structured for running, though, and it took YEARS of training and frustration to even get that far. My shoulders are much wider than my hips and I naturally maintain upper body strength whereas, if I sit around, my legs will widdle down into nothings, so a) it's not easy on my diaphragm b) it's not easy on my knees, which are already weak in my genetics and c) eventually I'm going to have to stop and never pick up running again simply because of my bone:muscle ratio constantly pounding on my feet and knees. x_x It's quite complicated... I usually start with four miles at a set speed (I use the treadmill, so I go at 6 miles per hour, my top speed is 8 when I'm sprinting, 7 when I have a lot of energy, and 3 when I take a walking break) and just change the incline (my highest is 10 when I'm walking, 2-3 when I'm running and I'll reduce it to 0 if I'm tired or if it's the final fifteen minutes. :P)
Are you in elementary, middle, or high school? :P I\m in high school but I'm too terrified to join the running/track and field teams... ._. (*hides under a rock*)

Mile run...I've only done 1500 m before and it was...err...6:07:??, I think.

We get a 12-minute endurance run. x_x

Awesome! *_* That's fantastic! I hope I can shave off a minute... someday... ;_;

Well, adrenaline is useful :P That was during a competition.

UGH WHY U WASTE MY TIME RUNNIG COMPETITIONS?!
800 m at the end of September...on Mid-Autumn Festival too :P
And cross-country! /flails-and-dies.