I'm listening to "Dead Man's Chest" because this Bio homework is going to kill me. :)

Sorry, I just had to lighten the mood because everyone is so DARN DEPRESSED!!!!

DEAR EVERYONE:

Alright, I want you to listen to me. First of all, you are all freakin' amazing. I don't care if you are a "oldie" and you've been on here since the beginning of KP, or if you just joined yesterday. You are all unique and special and wonderful and beautiful people.

Okay, got that?

For all of the people who feel unloved:

I get it, okay? I feel like that half the time. My parents, they don't even understand me. So I get it. But please, you have to get out of that chasm of despair, alright? I got out and you can too. KidPubbers love you. Even though you might not think it, your parents probably love you. I FREAKIN' LOVE ALL OF YOU!!!!! :) So if it comes down to that, remember, Stephanie. Thinks. You. Are. Amazing.

To people who have to deal with bullies:

Okay, I hate to admit it, but I was sort of a bully to this one kid in 6th grade. He was super annoying to me and my friends and we though it would be funny to call him stuff like "retarded cow" (See, I don't even know how I think this was clever???!!!). And now, I remember that and I'm like "Darn. I was so stupid". But keep your head up, okay? You're not going to be in middle school or high school forever, and soon you'll be off to college and your wonderfully successful lives. And when you're feeling especially down, come to KP, grab a box of chocolates, and vent out all your problems to me, 'kay?

To people who are having love issues:

Oh. My. Gosh. I have this problem so much. First of all, sweeties, let me tell you something: You're just a kid still, okay? So if that guy in 6th grade doesn't fall in love with you, life will move on. Eventually. It's not the end of the world. It's not the end of your life. It's not even the end of the prospects of a relationships. (Just wait for a couple years, you'll see... people change!) And if the guy/girl is a jerk to you, forget them. You are worth more than that.

To people who are worried about looks:

Geez, this is like the story of my life. I have glasses, acne, the whole shebang, okay? But seriously, when I see someone, I don't even notice their looks. Personally, I'm more worried about what I look like then to judge them. So don't even worry about it! Baby fat disappears, acne goes away, you can get contacts. Life moves on. And boys even like me, even though I'm not gorgeous. It's the personality that counts.

To people who are just... depressed/going through a hard time in life/ sad:

*hugs* That's all I can do, honey. I love you, your parents love you, your friends love you, KPers love you. Keep your chin up. Smile. You'll get past this. Life is gonna move on. Just don't worry about the things you can't control.



And please, PLEASE don't ever think about suicide. That. Is. Not. The. Answer. Even though it may seem like there's nothing left in the world for you, there's always that one light at the end of the tunnel. Write down one thing you're thankful for everyday. Talk to a counselor. Because if you killed yourself... I would die on the inside. KP would die. Just. Don't.

I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!!

If this was Facebook, I'd hit the like button.
Then, like, hack someone else's account and hit the like button on their account too.

:D:D Thanks! I was just trying to help. The stupid thing about computers is that you can't reach into them and bear hug someone.

I hit homophobes. I'm serious. Like, there was this guy on a school trip I went on and every time he said "fag" or gay in a derogatory manner, I would stop whatever I was doing and smack him. He learned his lesson after the first week. He and his friends incessantly make fun of my friend and call him gay, even though he's not. Yeah, kids are cruel.

Emma, that is an awesome way to result your situation of bullying gay people. x_x Honestly, I think people can be gay if they want to--they is no saying that they can't so they can go off and love whom they want to love--I think it is a fine thing to do, seeing that people can react (sometimes) differently in life but what I am saying is that you can be day if you are gay; it doesn't matter if you are. My friend is afraid/doesn't like gays and I don't care--gay people are themselves. ;__; They love whoever. They aren't different than us.

Yup. I even hit people I don't know very well. I just say "excuse me" to whomever I'm talking to and whack them.
Sometimes when I'm bored I calculate the number of gay people in my grade. Using the 7% model and factoring in Seattle's higher percentage (12.5%), there are around 6 gay people in my grade. In the entire middle school, probably around 12 to 13 people.
I hate homophobic bullying. I don't exactly know why I get so fired up about it, even more than other forms of bullying, because I don't really have a sexuality myself, but it just infuriates me.

Well, I am glad you did that. *shakes hand*

I feel so lost.
a) I don't know who I am friends with anymore in my group. J and E, I say they aren't, but they act like I should be their friends. They make self esteem even lower. I can be fine one minute, and the next I could be feeling the need to cut because they're saying stuff like, "Oh wow, I bet you got a bad grade, huh." Especially with E, this hurts. She's getting better grades, but she used to be at the same area I was in. Now that she's getting better grades, it seems like she's just pushing me down so that she can pull herself up.

b) and then I have one friend I hate it when she gets the slightest bit annoyed at me, so I shut up for a long time. Even if it was just being annoyed, I go into silent mode so I won't cause her to get upset again. I hate this, because I shouldn't be like this. I should not be so upset that she's just a tiny bit annoyed, but I can't help it.

c) I'm confused about my sexuality. Frustrated but not so much as Problem A.

problem a is my biggest problem.
I feel so lost.
I have no idea who my friends are, or if I even have any.

That.
That is incredibly freaking awesome.
It definitely doesn't sound like you should be friends with J and E, if they make you feel worse…

And b, I don't know, just try to tell yourself that people get annoyed and you can't always prevent that. :/

You do have friends.
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Just hold onto it as long as you can. It won't stay for ever, but it will make life better. (:

Thanks Rachel. Sometimes, I feel like you are the only one here that answers to my pleas.