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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 408500)

YOU CAN'T JUST HIT ME FOR THINGS I DIDNT DO OH MY GOD YOU TALK ABOUT SELF CONTROL, BUT HONESTLY, YOU HAVE LIKE NONE AT ALL.
You've been using physical punishment as your choice as punishment for 13 years, and it hasn't been effective at all, what makes you think it will ever be? I'm thinking that you're just using it to vent your anger out, but I'm not your fucking property that you can just throw around and blame things on, I'm your freaking daughter, a human being. Get a punching bag, because I'm not yours.

It's things like this that make me dig my nails into my skin as hard as I can until I have scratches all over my skin.

I'm pretty sure that child abuse (such as hitting) is illegal in America.
http://www.childhelp.org/ I think this is the equivalent of ChildLine in America... They should have information about whether it is legal and give advice for your state.

*hug* Please don't scratch/cut or harm yourself in anyway. Please. You don't deserve to have any pain inflicted on yourself. *hugs*
Have you talked to anyone about it?

My inbox is open anytime.

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Originally Posted by shadowtide (Post 408498)

All the most awesome people are a bit f*cked up, LST.
*hugs you so hard the world turns bright orange* Please, please try not to hate yourself… You're incredibly amazing and awesome and kind and amusing and so many people love you. You have no idea how amazing you are because you can't see yourself from the outside.
You're not okay now, but I think you will be, eventually. If you ever want to tell me anything, you can… I love you. :/ *hugs again*

see? you do try to help people. *Hugs* Just… it's not at all easy to help me on this topic.
*agrees*
thanks, really.
you'll be okay, too.

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Originally Posted by DragonRider (Post 408543)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4e4yIXL1T8M

You are f***ing perfect, OK?
*hugs* My inbox is open anytime you need to talk.
Don't hate yourself. Please.

*loves the original version of that song*
no, no I'm not. but thank you.

i'm really going to try to learn to give a f*ck about myself, thanks to some friends…

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 408500)

*massive hugs*
You need to check out the link DragonRider posted. Maybe you think it would just make things worse, and maybe it possibly would, but consider it as a possibility…
Don't hurt yourself over him! he's not f*cking worth it.

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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 408551)

*loves the original version of that song*
no, no I'm not. but thank you.

i'm really going to try to learn to give a f*ck about myself, thanks to some friends…

*would have given you link to original, but couldn't find one with correct lyrics* /perfectionist

Yes, yes you are. *hugs tightly*

Good. *massive bear glomp* You deserve to feel good about yourself.

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 408500)

He's done enough to you, don't punish yourself for something that is his fault. Hurting yourself won't make it better, but other things can.

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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 408488)

what the f*ck is wrong with me
what the f*ck
and why
seriously
i don't

earlier today i was thinking i'd sort of like to just tell someone everything. my 'darkest secrets', the things i kind of try to hide in the farthest part of myself.
then i thought i'd rather keep it inside and hide it and never let it see the light of day and hope it asphyxiates
(and the 'secrets'—only one's actually dark, and I've mentioned it. the other is pretty much only dark because of how much self-hate surrounds it.)

You don't have to bottle everything up. You can talk to us about it, or send someone an anonymous ask or something in case you're afraid that someone IRL will try to track it down.
You shouldn't hate yourself, no matter how dark your secret/s are. You are a good person, and we're all allowed to have stuff like that.

Almost everyone who knows about it that is not a family member is saying that it's child abuse. C said it, Litzy's saying it, the twins are saying it, B is saying it, and you guys are saying it.
But my parents are saying that it's not since it's completely justified.
My friends are saying to tell an adult, but honestly, I'm terrified of doing that. My family and even my cousins think it's fine. I talked to my brother about it last year and he said, "Others have it worse. It's not child abuse. And how can you even think of reporting family members?! What goes on inside the family stays inside the family. You shouldn't report family members." I know if I report it, my mom and my uncles and aunts and cousins and my brothers will judge me and they'll have no respect for me.

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 408697)

It's really for you to judge, Lily. And just because other people have it worse, it doesn't make your situation any less horrible or any less serious. If you feel that it is abuse, then absolutely do not be afraid to report it. Your brother seems to have a slight skewed sense of loyalty. Even if they don't respect you, it's completely your choice, and they have no right to judge you or make you feel guilty.

I guess so. Thanks, I'll think about it.

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 408699)

I guess so. Thanks, I'll think about it.

It's okay. We'll support you, whatever you decide to do.

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 408697)

your family members are very likely used to it and grew up with it, I think…
whether it's 'justified' or not doesn't make it right and doesn't make it not child abuse.
so what if others have it worse, it's still a problem for you. and screw loyalty to your family—your wellbeing is more important and it sounds like they don't deserve your loyalty.