chelseki3 |
06-10-2012 03:56 PM |
The message that Pokey sent me.
The way I phrased it, I think people are thinking I'm talking about my period. No, thank god, if I was on my period right now I'd just jump off a cliff. -_-
Anyway, thank you so much for caring, you're basically the first to in a while. Don't pay me much attention, I'm a stupid hormonal teenager, and I'm smart enough to sort this out (I think?), I just need someone to talk to. So thank you for being here.
I've been really depressed lately. Everyone's suddenly turning on me. For example, I just got back from the pool. I sat in the sun getting burnt for two hours without touching the water because I was loyally waiting for my friends. After two hours, she called and said she mades other plans. -_- She didn't sound sorry at all. And stuff like that has been happening all year.
This morning, I started... my...
My suicide jar.
It has fifty beads in it. Every time I feel depressed, I take one out. Every time I feel happy, I put one it. If it's empty...
...
You go ahead and finish the sentence.
I'm already down to forty. And I'm really scared.
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