That sounds...messy.

So what is it, aside from your maternal grandparents, that you'd miss from that side of your family?

Not much. It's just that I've spent my whole life with my mum... It's kind of scary, leaving her.

Then you've got to think it's a change for the good.

Just wrote a 3 page letter about Dance. I'm thinking about giving it to them tonight to read....I'm nervous. Last time I gave them a letter, it didn't work and I ended up sobbing into my pillow for three hours....

Go for it. If they still refuse, try a compromise. For example, you could say that if they let you dance, then you'll try and get the best grades that you can.

Things you aren't:
annoying
a piece of shit
not good enough
stupid
idiotic
a bitch

Things you are:
an awesome writer
a great friend
f***ing amazing

The promise helped, didn't it? If it did at all, then it was worth it, I think.

I second everything that Isaac said. You are amazing and awesome, and not even a million stories can change that. You're a human being, you are allowed to make mistakes and break promises, and it doesn't make you any less amazing.

something has changed within me
something is not the same
i'm through with playing by the rules of someone else's game


yes, yes I am. I can handle my own life.

too long i've been afraid of losing love i guess i've lost
well if that's love
it comes at much too high a cost!

Thank you very much, I think I know what I want. Go get your own life. I like mine, and I'm sure as hell not selling.

so if i'm flying solo
at least i'm flying free
to those who'd ground me
take a message back from me

I'm defying gravity.

Is it weird that while "normal" people might fantasize about things that make them happy, I fantasize about me getting hurt—about hurting myself? About everything that'd ever scarred me as a child, everything that gave me nightmares and made me cry to myself just thinking about it happening to someone else?
Is it normal that I think about that every day, and that it's what makes me happy?
I just...
Does anyone else do this?
Is this why I feel odd?

I am annoying, I can just tell by the way Litzy looks at me and the way she speaks to me and everyone else thinks I'm annoying too, I can't blame them. I'm not smart in science or math at all or French and I struggle in English class to write a freaking paragraph. I even struggle to write something original thats not related to school. It's my fault when my friendships never turn out right. It's not their fault they have to be near someone who just drags them down. They never knew they'd have to put up with a clingy, suicidal pessimist. I don't know how you guys can think I'm amazing or awesome because if you knew me in real life, I'd probably be the last person you'd want to be around.

I don't even know if Litzy wants to be my friend anymore. We rarely ever talk in class, and it's hard to have a conversation with her, I have to actually try to have a conversation with her. I have to try hard. Because every time I don't try to make my words and sentences just right, it always ends up with her sounding annoyed or angry.
I don't even know if I want friends anymore. I just want to shut out the world.

I don't think you're annoying.
"…not smart in science or math at all or French". You mean, you're not doing well in those courses. Not the subject. You could be the smartest person in the world and still even fail school because you're too depressed to manage the work.
It's not all your fault if friendships work out. And that's not how friendships work—you don't just drag them down, if that's what you think you're doing, you help pull each other up.
We think it because it's true. And nooooooo, you wouldn't even be close.

I've never done that. I mean, I've thought about it but it's never ever made me happy.

But, I mean, if it makes you genuinely happy... there is a chance you are a masochist... ._.

I'm not smart at it or anything really. I can't remember anything I learned in science and I just plain suck at math. I hate being around here or on flockdraw or on Chatzy when people talk about their grades because I feel even worse about myself and it feels like I'm with my friends at school, and that's how bad it is. My grades suck and I hate it so so so so much but it feels like I can't do anything about it.
It's never been like that for me. I've always been the one who drags people down and I don't want friends anymore because of that.

I'm going to miss this place so much.

So? That doesn't affect who you are, as a person. Ask them to not mention it, then? They should understand. I feel similar, sometimes…
Your grades don't effing matter, relatively. You know what does matter? You. How you feel. If you're okay. That's by FAR more important than your grades.
You've helped me. And… you're far more likely to drag people down if you give up

Why, what's happening?

I mean my school, not KP. Sorry, that was vague...I'm just going to high school next year, and only about six of my classmates are going to the same school.

What's this about?

You're lucky. I only had two when I was going to secondary.
In my case it's usually 'don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened' or something like that, but I don't get depressed. Are you okay? What's causing it?

You are not annoying. You're just scared of losing your friends. Classes and grades don't define anything about your personality, bad grades don't mean that you're annoying.
"Everybody is a genius. But if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid."~Albert Einstein (or not, it's up for debate)

I love that quote. I love Albert Einstein's quotes.
It's also my fault when I cut off my friendships. Everyone messes up something.

Sister called me gay. >.<

(My parents implied something along the lines of me being gay, once… it was funny.)
Doesn't matter if you're gay or not, you're still awesome. Doesn't matter if your sister doesn't see it, you're still awesome.

If it was supposed to be an insult, then it''s a pretty useless one. There's nothing wrong with homosexuality.
My brother and our friend (a girl who wears make-up and high heels and whatever) asked me if I was gay/a dude because I told her that I would not wear make-up for everyday aesthetic reasons.

A dude called me Mary E-lesbo. At least it was clever. Being gay is how someone's born, it's not an insult. It's like the half-wits who call me Halfrican. I don't care, because I was born biracial. It's not a choice.

It's okay. My friend's crush called her and I lesbian while we were holding hands in the hallways. IT'S WHAT FRIENDS DO, KAY?

Haha, I bet so many people thing I'm gay because my friend and I are cuddle buddies and we dance at school dances. She's a very touchy-feely person, okay?
http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m4...mtuko1_500.gif

Y'know, sometimes I start to lose my faith in humanity. Then I see stuff like this. Just browse through the search results.
http://www.tumblr.com/tagged/self%20...wareness%20day
Look at how many people are coming out and showing their support for the Self Injury Awareness Day.
Look at it.

Dad: Do you hate me?
Me: No.
Dad: 'Cause you talk like I annoy the crap out of you, when I've done nothing wrong. It hurts my feelings just to talk to you.
Me: *turns music in headphones up so I can't hear.
Dad: *doesnt even notice*
Dad: ...it would be nice if you could at least talk like you like or appreciate us.

done nothing wrong
of course
nothing's ever your fault
not my mom's either
nope
it would be nice if you guys wouldn't act like passive-aggressive assholes
i don't at all want to hurt myself right now nope. i'm not going to, but...

I hate moving so many damn times. I guess to some people it might not be much, but I've moved like 9 times in 5 different states. It's so hard to say goodbye when you move. And it's all because of my dad's friggin' job.
We weren't supposed to move from Seattle, no. I was promised I would stay in Seattle, and where the heck am I now? Michigan, for crying out loud!!! Whenever I move I try not to make friends, or at least make lasting friendships because when I end up moving, I get all sad and pathetic. All because of my dad's stupid job. I envy people that were born in one place and have lived there their whole life. I really envy them.
"Apparently" my family isn't moving anywhere anymore. I just get so frustrated because it's so hard to make friends. Everyone at my school has been there WAY longer than I have, and all of them have friends that they've had since they were born. I can't seem to make any friends at all. I feel like an outsider. Nobody has excepted me as a "true friend."

Why is life so friggin' hard?

Anyone who has body image problems
 

I just found this and the only thing that comes to mind is:

Is this what perfection looks like?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0zHiZnymF2M

I mean, no offense to this guy or anything...
But... :/

3:16 is the before and after picture.


And about the chin part... I feel weird because I have that chin naturally and it's always bothered me a LOT... why do people want it?