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HeatherB 03-03-2014 12:47 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 521360)
*whispers* i'm so angry bc a) you even write well when you're venting wow and b) you're my friend and i love you bunches and you feel bad *hugs you really really tightly*

i'm sorry i didn't mean to make you angry *hugs you back*

rebecca 03-03-2014 12:54 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 521393)
right so i just
i don't know what to call it but whatever it is
has gotten to the point
where i'm afraid and sometimes get physically ill at the thought of going out after school, at night or on the weekends

i'm so scared of anyone from school seeing me
one time my parents and i went out for sushi and two girls from my grade were there
and i refused to eat
i just refused because im so afraid of eating in front of people im not comfortable around
that's why i don't eat at school

if by chance i do run into someone i know i'll duck into a shop, or look down, or walk the other way until i can turn back to avoid them
something just worries me about seeing them and saying hi

once i went to the dentist and i walked past this coffee place to get to the car and a girl in my homeroom was there
i paced for a bit, when i saw her, then walked past with my head down but dad called my name (he was in front) so i said yes and looked up and she saw me and looked at me then looked at my dad
and said this weird hi thing
and i nodded and ran
and she doesn't ever say anything to me anymore

sorry for this

Oh my god I get this to a lesser degree.
It's a thing.

It is so difficult to tone it down though. I cope with mine by ignoring everybody and ranting as intellectually as I can so I look intelligent/weird. Or I hide.

L.S.Trendom 03-03-2014 10:00 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 521422)
i'm sorry i didn't mean to make you angry *hugs you back*

no non nooo it's not your fault *hugs*

Lena 03-03-2014 11:57 PM

you can ignore this i just needed to get it out
hi
i miss having a real friend
and i miss secrets and smiles and sleepovers
and i know you left two years ago but i was looking at pictures of all our misadventures and then smiling and crying a little bit because i also remember how much you hurt me
and we still talk sometimes but it's weird and distant and patched together, like we've stretched a string and two tin cans between us and now the cans have gotten rusty
but hey
i still miss you

and i miss you, too
for all your stupidity and bitchiness
and all the times you stabbed me in the back
and all the laughs and gossip and texts and smiles
because you knew me and didn't ignore me and now i miss that
and you'd probably see me now and go "holy shit" because i've grown so much and i know your stupid words wouldn't do anything to me now and you're probably taking your turn being the punching bag
but we were friends and i miss you

and damn, i even miss you
and you were always an ass to me
and i can't wait to see you so i can eloquently tell you how much of an ass you were and probably still are and give you something to think about

but most of all, i miss my innocence and my confidence and even my stupidity
most of all, i miss me

HannahChen2009 03-04-2014 04:14 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lena (Post 521463)
you can ignore this i just needed to get it out
hi
i miss having a real friend
and i miss secrets and smiles and sleepovers
and i know you left two years ago but i was looking at pictures of all our misadventures and then smiling and crying a little bit because i also remember how much you hurt me
and we still talk sometimes but it's weird and distant and patched together, like we've stretched a string and two tin cans between us and now the cans have gotten rusty
but hey
i still miss you

and i miss you, too
for all your stupidity and bitchiness
and all the times you stabbed me in the back
and all the laughs and gossip and texts and smiles
because you knew me and didn't ignore me and now i miss that
and you'd probably see me now and go "holy shit" because i've grown so much and i know your stupid words wouldn't do anything to me now and you're probably taking your turn being the punching bag
but we were friends and i miss you

and damn, i even miss you
and you were always an ass to me
and i can't wait to see you so i can eloquently tell you how much of an ass you were and probably still are and give you something to think about

but most of all, i miss my innocence and my confidence and even my stupidity
most of all, i miss me

Aw Lenaaaaaaaa (*hugs*) I'm so sorry
But that was beautifully written. (*gives cookies*) I'm really sorry :c

TheAshWolf 03-04-2014 04:38 AM

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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 521407)
*crashes through a window and hugs you*
hey man i know how you feel. it hurts, and it hurts a ton, and you might not ever get over it. but it stops hurting as much and you'll have other friends, close friends, who'll make things not so bad. *hugs*
yo i'm not gonna leave you

(*picks shards of glass out of your hair*) be careful you lil' derp don't hurt yourself >w> (*hugs back*)
thank you soooo much, though...

TheAshWolf 03-04-2014 04:53 AM

this song is so unbelievably accurate it hurts
 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HO4e4nCYBEo

2 a.m., where do I begin?
Crying off my face again
The silent sound of loneliness
Wants to follow me to bed

I'm a ghost of a girl that I want to be most
I'm the shell of a girl that I used to know well

Dancing slowly in an empty room
Can the lonely take the place of you?
I sing myself a quiet lullaby
Let you go and let the lonely in to take my heart again

Too afraid to go inside
For the pain of one more loveless night
But the loneliness will stay with me
And hold me 'til I fall asleep

I'm a ghost of a girl that I want to be most
I'm the shell of a girl that I used to know well

Dancing slowly in an empty room
Can the lonely take the place of you?
I sing myself a quiet lullaby
Let you go and let the lonely in to take my heart again

Broken pieces of
A barely breathing story
Where there once was love
Now there's only me and the lonely

Dancing slowly in an empty room
Can the lonely take the place of you?
I sing myself a quiet lullaby
Let you go and let the lonely in to take my heart again

strawberry 03-04-2014 05:06 AM

i finally realized what a hypocrite i am
see when people say i do something well i disagree firmly and blatantly because i suck at everything
but then when people say i didn't do well enough i end up thinking that they expect too much from me and i'll never live up to anyone's expectations ever
when there is no one to comfort me i feel like i'm the only one who understands to an extent what pain is
but when someone does comfort me i shake off everything they say because i'm absolutely sure they don't understand
it's like positivity is rejecting me
or maybe it's the other way around
and gosh i feel so lonely and confused
at school, on KP, and even at home
idk if i deserve it
idk if if i'm right
but one thing i'm sure of is that there is something undeniably wrong with me
help me guys idk what to feel anymore

SilverMoon 03-04-2014 07:10 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lena (Post 521463)
you can ignore this i just needed to get it out
hi
i miss having a real friend
and i miss secrets and smiles and sleepovers
and i know you left two years ago but i was looking at pictures of all our misadventures and then smiling and crying a little bit because i also remember how much you hurt me
and we still talk sometimes but it's weird and distant and patched together, like we've stretched a string and two tin cans between us and now the cans have gotten rusty
but hey
i still miss you

and i miss you, too
for all your stupidity and bitchiness
and all the times you stabbed me in the back
and all the laughs and gossip and texts and smiles
because you knew me and didn't ignore me and now i miss that
and you'd probably see me now and go "holy shit" because i've grown so much and i know your stupid words wouldn't do anything to me now and you're probably taking your turn being the punching bag
but we were friends and i miss you

and damn, i even miss you
and you were always an ass to me
and i can't wait to see you so i can eloquently tell you how much of an ass you were and probably still are and give you something to think about

but most of all, i miss my innocence and my confidence and even my stupidity
most of all, i miss me

This is similar to my life

camikat 03-04-2014 05:11 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lena (Post 521463)
you can ignore this i just needed to get it out
hi
i miss having a real friend
and i miss secrets and smiles and sleepovers
and i know you left two years ago but i was looking at pictures of all our misadventures and then smiling and crying a little bit because i also remember how much you hurt me
and we still talk sometimes but it's weird and distant and patched together, like we've stretched a string and two tin cans between us and now the cans have gotten rusty
but hey
i still miss you

and i miss you, too
for all your stupidity and bitchiness
and all the times you stabbed me in the back
and all the laughs and gossip and texts and smiles
because you knew me and didn't ignore me and now i miss that
and you'd probably see me now and go "holy shit" because i've grown so much and i know your stupid words wouldn't do anything to me now and you're probably taking your turn being the punching bag
but we were friends and i miss you

and damn, i even miss you
and you were always an ass to me
and i can't wait to see you so i can eloquently tell you how much of an ass you were and probably still are and give you something to think about

but most of all, i miss my innocence and my confidence and even my stupidity
most of all, i miss me

hey
i sort of know that feeling
it'll all be okay, don't worry *hugs* i'm so sorry you have to go through this

Quote:

Originally Posted by strawberry (Post 521475)
i finally realized what a hypocrite i am
see when people say i do something well i disagree firmly and blatantly because i suck at everything
but then when people say i didn't do well enough i end up thinking that they expect too much from me and i'll never live up to anyone's expectations ever
when there is no one to comfort me i feel like i'm the only one who understands to an extent what pain is
but when someone does comfort me i shake off everything they say because i'm absolutely sure they don't understand
it's like positivity is rejecting me
or maybe it's the other way around
and gosh i feel so lonely and confused
at school, on KP, and even at home
idk if i deserve it
idk if if i'm right
but one thing i'm sure of is that there is something undeniably wrong with me
help me guys idk what to feel anymore

shh you do not deserve loneliness
and if you feel something's wrong, if there's someone irl you can trust, i would tell them. nobody should have to go through this. *hugs* we haven't talked that much but i've always looked up to you and thought you were really rad. c:


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