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L.S.Trendom 12-29-2012 01:53 AM

that last sentence scares me.
please email me.

Sandy 12-29-2012 01:54 AM

ramble that no one cares about... pfffft
 
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Originally Posted by Bex (Post 391873)
It really frustrates me how people keep on saying they want Aspergers, without actually understanding it. Because of my Asperges I had to change schools because my Asperges sensory problem meant that I couldn't comply to the uniform regulations. I can't wear socks, because it makes me so uncomfortable that I scream and cry and kick and pretty much turn into a three year old who didn't get what they want. Same pretty much goes for jeans and short and most shirts. When I was little I had long hair but I had to cut it because it was too uncomfortable to tie it up but I had to for school, and I constantly got mistaken for a boy. Literally. I walked into the girls bathroom one day and the girls all screamed at me and told me I was a stupid pervert because they thought I was a boy. Also, my asperges sensory used to stop me writing. Before I had a computer, I had to write all my stories by hand, and I never finished one because I find it extremely uncomfortable to hold a pencil, because I have this thing about my hands having to be even, same with my legs and arms and waist and shoulders and feet and ankles. People actually realised this at school and constantly poke my sides, because they know I'll always poke the other side because its uncomfortable without doing so. And it actually hurts. Because they all poke in the same place, on my upper arm, and I have two very dark bruises on my arms. Even my "friends" do it, and they find it fucking funny to hurt me for their entertainment. One time I got angry and pushed one of them away from me, and she screamed at me and told me I was mean and horrible for trying to fucking hurt her. Which I was not. Its called self defense, you stupid bitch!
So yeah, in short, Asperges has pretty much destroyed my life.
Rant over.

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Originally Posted by rebecca (Post 391891)
My OCD is extremely noticeable. I have to correct grammar errors, I have to do everything in odd numbers, and I have to correct facts. There is no choice. I just have to.

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Originally Posted by EmmaR (Post 391919)
I don't think that I have OCD. I mean, I have my own little obsessions (I have to take notes the same way every time, I have to have my blanket over my ear and tuck in the comforter at the bottom of my bed, I HAVE TO correct grammatical and spelling issues, I have to alphabetize my books by author, etc.), but I don't think that I have full-blown obsessive compulsive disorder. I have a friend who I think has at least a touch of OCD. She has to do everything in fives, and I mean EVERYTHING. She walks up and down the stairs five times, brushes a part of her hair five times, plays games five times, so on and so forth. We were playing this game in a park near her house where we simultaneously passed a volleyball and a basketball. We didn't stop until we had gotten five passes in a row. Things like that, and her neat-freakness, make me think that she has OCD.

... That reminds me not only of Artemis Fowl but of my brother as well... last night he wanted to sleep on the floor because he was afraid of "messing up his bed." When he gets up in the morning, he immediately asks my mom or dad to help him rearrange his room--everything has to be exactly perfect. ESPECIALLY his bed. It's really weird and creepy... 8^I

(*has some random stuff to contribute*)
Huh. I remember I used to wish I had Asperger's Syndrome without having the slightest clue what is was--every figure in history that I ever looked up to seemed to have it. I suppose it was partly a desire to "have my own disease" that would set me apart from the general population. I remember talking to Camille about it, and she told me the nicest thing... <:'^D "Don't try to hard to be a genius." I'll never forget that. :') That was, what, about two years ago...? I don't know, but it was a long time. :P I know a lot more about Asperger's now, and although it seems to come with a streak of genius in various savants and people, I'm sure that it is not without its undesirable points.

I went through this really OCD phase, too... If I was put in a situation where I had to glance over my shoulder, I would "have" to turn and glance over the other as well just to make sure that there wasn't anything hiding from me on alternate dimensional planes, and I'm not even joking. :I If I had to go to the basement, I would "have" to say hello to the "dude that lived down there." Oh, and then my lovely issue with mirrors... Early puberty was funnnnn... ._. (*extreme sarcasm*) These lasted about 8 months. P:

I have suspected that I have schizotypal personality for a couple years now, or mild schizotypy, which is psychologically categorized as "odd or eccentric." It's more or less having a personality that shares a lot of likeness with a watered-down schizophrenia, and consists of having a lot of moral flexibility (NOT being a bad person. To clarify: think assassin--a chaotic neutral), hallucinations or unusual perceptions (I've learned a lot about these, actually, and they no longer unnerve me), unusual patterns in speaking and thinking (my weird speech has been brought to my attention many times... ._. In real life without rehearsal, I will eventually lapse into a really strange speaking pattern and expect the other person to understand me--I mean, I'll start rearranging where the subject, object, adjectives, and verb go and I'll sound like I'm still learning the English language), among other things that I'm suddenly too bored to list. But, like a lot of other "disorders" (note the " marks) it causes inappropriate emotion responses, but I've learned to use this to my advantage. It can also be hereditary, which seems legit considering I have two paranoid schizophrenics that I know of, and that's only one ONE side of the family. (Weird... physically, my entire family tree is rather exceptional, but mentally, they're all very sick... o_O) I used to display the negative traits of schizotypy but through exercise and finding various outlets, I've learned a lot of coping abilities and am now pretty much coasting through life with all of it's advantages. XD
:/
However, this is embarrassing: I'm also slightly dyslexic (not really dyslexic but that's the only way I can describe it)... I'm not sure if this and the above are related, but 9/10 times, it will take me much longer than normal to distinguish between my right and my left and I get easily confused with this, even though my brain is very comfortable and accurate with 3D visualization and spatial/directional concepts, ESPECIALLY angles.

Ugh, I need to not think about my quirks... it makes me feel so insane and weird and kicked out and isolated... which is another symptom of schizotypy... ._.

TheAshWolf 12-29-2012 02:05 AM

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Originally Posted by Sandy (Post 392320)
... That reminds me not only of Artemis Fowl but of my brother as well... last night he wanted to sleep on the floor because he was afraid of "messing up his bed." When he gets up in the morning, he immediately asks my mom or dad to help him rearrange his room--everything has to be exactly perfect. ESPECIALLY his bed. It's really weird and creepy... 8^I

(*has some random stuff to contribute*)
Huh. I remember I used to wish I had Asperger's Syndrome without having the slightest clue what is was--every figure in history that I ever looked up to seemed to have it. I suppose it was partly a desire to "have my own disease" that would set me apart from the general population. I remember talking to Camille about it, and she told me the nicest thing... <:'^D "Don't try to hard to be a genius." I'll never forget that. :') That was, what, about two years ago...? I don't know, but it was a long time. :P I know a lot more about Asperger's now, and although it seems to come with a streak of genius in various savants and people, I'm sure that it is not without its undesirable points.

I went through this really OCD phase, too... If I was put in a situation where I had to glance over my shoulder, I would "have" to turn and glance over the other as well just to make sure that there wasn't anything hiding from me on alternate dimensional planes, and I'm not even joking. :I If I had to go to the basement, I would "have" to say hello to the "dude that lived down there." Oh, and then my lovely issue with mirrors... Early puberty was funnnnn... ._. (*extreme sarcasm*) These lasted about 8 months. P:

I have suspected that I have schizotypal personality for a couple years now, or mild schizotypy, which is psychologically categorized as "odd or eccentric." It's more or less having a personality that shares a lot of likeness with a watered-down schizophrenia, and consists of having a lot of moral flexibility (NOT being a bad person. To clarify: think assassin--a chaotic neutral), hallucinations or unusual perceptions (I've learned a lot about these, actually, and they no longer unnerve me), unusual patterns in speaking and thinking (my weird speech has been brought to my attention many times... ._. In real life without rehearsal, I will eventually lapse into a really strange speaking pattern and expect the other person to understand me--I mean, I'll start rearranging where the subject, object, adjectives, and verb go and I'll sound like I'm still learning the English language), among other things that I'm suddenly too bored to list. But, like a lot of other "disorders" (note the " marks) it causes inappropriate emotion responses, but I've learned to use this to my advantage. It can also be hereditary, which seems legit considering I have two paranoid schizophrenics that I know of, and that's only one ONE side of the family. (Weird... physically, my entire family tree is rather exceptional, but mentally, they're all very sick... o_O) I used to display the negative traits of schizotypy but through exercise and finding various outlets, I've learned a lot of coping abilities and am now pretty much coasting through life with all of it's advantages. XD
:/
However, this is embarrassing: I'm also slightly dyslexic (not really dyslexic but that's the only way I can describe it)... I'm not sure if this and the above are related, but 9/10 times, it will take me much longer than normal to distinguish between my right and my left and I get easily confused with this, even though my brain is very comfortable and accurate with 3D visualization and spatial/directional concepts, ESPECIALLY angles.

Ugh, I need to not think about my quirks... it makes me feel so insane and weird and kicked out and isolated... which is another symptom of schizotypy... ._.

:| You know we care.

*le is too spent to form a proper response* >_> ... MEH. DX Lemme try this again...

Don't be embarrassed...we all have our quirks. ^_^ Some people can't aim when throwing stuff, some people can't read maps, some people have trouble with right and left. :^B Point is, you're in IB and you're awesome, so, what does it matter? 8D

nngo 12-29-2012 02:09 AM

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Originally Posted by Sandy (Post 392320)
... That reminds me not only of Artemis Fowl but of my brother as well... last night he wanted to sleep on the floor because he was afraid of "messing up his bed." When he gets up in the morning, he immediately asks my mom or dad to help him rearrange his room--everything has to be exactly perfect. ESPECIALLY his bed. It's really weird and creepy... 8^I

(*has some random stuff to contribute*)
Huh. I remember I used to wish I had Asperger's Syndrome without having the slightest clue what is was--every figure in history that I ever looked up to seemed to have it. I suppose it was partly a desire to "have my own disease" that would set me apart from the general population. I remember talking to Camille about it, and she told me the nicest thing... <:'^D "Don't try to hard to be a genius." I'll never forget that. :') That was, what, about two years ago...? I don't know, but it was a long time. :P I know a lot more about Asperger's now, and although it seems to come with a streak of genius in various savants and people, I'm sure that it is not without its undesirable points.

I went through this really OCD phase, too... If I was put in a situation where I had to glance over my shoulder, I would "have" to turn and glance over the other as well just to make sure that there wasn't anything hiding from me on alternate dimensional planes, and I'm not even joking. :I If I had to go to the basement, I would "have" to say hello to the "dude that lived down there." Oh, and then my lovely issue with mirrors... Early puberty was funnnnn... ._. (*extreme sarcasm*) These lasted about 8 months. P:

I have suspected that I have schizotypal personality for a couple years now, or mild schizotypy, which is psychologically categorized as "odd or eccentric." It's more or less having a personality that shares a lot of likeness with a watered-down schizophrenia, and consists of having a lot of moral flexibility (NOT being a bad person. To clarify: think assassin--a chaotic neutral), hallucinations or unusual perceptions (I've learned a lot about these, actually, and they no longer unnerve me), unusual patterns in speaking and thinking (my weird speech has been brought to my attention many times... ._. In real life without rehearsal, I will eventually lapse into a really strange speaking pattern and expect the other person to understand me--I mean, I'll start rearranging where the subject, object, adjectives, and verb go and I'll sound like I'm still learning the English language), among other things that I'm suddenly too bored to list. But, like a lot of other "disorders" (note the " marks) it causes inappropriate emotion responses, but I've learned to use this to my advantage. It can also be hereditary, which seems legit considering I have two paranoid schizophrenics that I know of, and that's only one ONE side of the family. (Weird... physically, my entire family tree is rather exceptional, but mentally, they're all very sick... o_O) I used to display the negative traits of schizotypy but through exercise and finding various outlets, I've learned a lot of coping abilities and am now pretty much coasting through life with all of it's advantages. XD
:/
However, this is embarrassing: I'm also slightly dyslexic (not really dyslexic but that's the only way I can describe it)... I'm not sure if this and the above are related, but 9/10 times, it will take me much longer than normal to distinguish between my right and my left and I get easily confused with this, even though my brain is very comfortable and accurate with 3D visualization and spatial/directional concepts, ESPECIALLY angles.

Ugh, I need to not think about my quirks... it makes me feel so insane and weird and kicked out and isolated... which is another symptom of schizotypy... ._.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QXx-n6T7tZg

Sandy 12-29-2012 03:01 AM

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 392327)
:| You know we care.

*le is too spent to form a proper response* >_> ... MEH. DX Lemme try this again...

Don't be embarrassed...we all have our quirks. ^_^ Some people can't aim when throwing stuff, some people can't read maps, some people have trouble with right and left. :^B Point is, you're in IB and you're awesome, so, what does it matter? 8D

Thanks, Ash. <:^j What with this extremely sketchy thing still going on between my parents, you made my night a bit brighter. :)

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Originally Posted by nngo (Post 392329)

OH MY GOD yes. :D

maxi 12-29-2012 03:06 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Sandy (Post 392320)
... That reminds me not only of Artemis Fowl but of my brother as well... last night he wanted to sleep on the floor because he was afraid of "messing up his bed." When he gets up in the morning, he immediately asks my mom or dad to help him rearrange his room--everything has to be exactly perfect. ESPECIALLY his bed. It's really weird and creepy... 8^I

(*has some random stuff to contribute*)
Huh. I remember I used to wish I had Asperger's Syndrome without having the slightest clue what is was--every figure in history that I ever looked up to seemed to have it. I suppose it was partly a desire to "have my own disease" that would set me apart from the general population. I remember talking to Camille about it, and she told me the nicest thing... <:'^D "Don't try to hard to be a genius." I'll never forget that. :') That was, what, about two years ago...? I don't know, but it was a long time. :P I know a lot more about Asperger's now, and although it seems to come with a streak of genius in various savants and people, I'm sure that it is not without its undesirable points.

I went through this really OCD phase, too... If I was put in a situation where I had to glance over my shoulder, I would "have" to turn and glance over the other as well just to make sure that there wasn't anything hiding from me on alternate dimensional planes, and I'm not even joking. :I If I had to go to the basement, I would "have" to say hello to the "dude that lived down there." Oh, and then my lovely issue with mirrors... Early puberty was funnnnn... ._. (*extreme sarcasm*) These lasted about 8 months. P:

I have suspected that I have schizotypal personality for a couple years now, or mild schizotypy, which is psychologically categorized as "odd or eccentric." It's more or less having a personality that shares a lot of likeness with a watered-down schizophrenia, and consists of having a lot of moral flexibility (NOT being a bad person. To clarify: think assassin--a chaotic neutral), hallucinations or unusual perceptions (I've learned a lot about these, actually, and they no longer unnerve me), unusual patterns in speaking and thinking (my weird speech has been brought to my attention many times... ._. In real life without rehearsal, I will eventually lapse into a really strange speaking pattern and expect the other person to understand me--I mean, I'll start rearranging where the subject, object, adjectives, and verb go and I'll sound like I'm still learning the English language), among other things that I'm suddenly too bored to list. But, like a lot of other "disorders" (note the " marks) it causes inappropriate emotion responses, but I've learned to use this to my advantage. It can also be hereditary, which seems legit considering I have two paranoid schizophrenics that I know of, and that's only one ONE side of the family. (Weird... physically, my entire family tree is rather exceptional, but mentally, they're all very sick... o_O) I used to display the negative traits of schizotypy but through exercise and finding various outlets, I've learned a lot of coping abilities and am now pretty much coasting through life with all of it's advantages. XD
:/
However, this is embarrassing: I'm also slightly dyslexic (not really dyslexic but that's the only way I can describe it)... I'm not sure if this and the above are related, but 9/10 times, it will take me much longer than normal to distinguish between my right and my left and I get easily confused with this, even though my brain is very comfortable and accurate with 3D visualization and spatial/directional concepts, ESPECIALLY angles.

Ugh, I need to not think about my quirks... it makes me feel so insane and weird and kicked out and isolated... which is another symptom of schizotypy... ._.

:^| I shall reply to this when I get home.

TheAshWolf 12-29-2012 03:06 AM

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Originally Posted by Sandy (Post 392376)
Thanks, Ash. <:^j What with this extremely sketchy thing still going on between my parents, you made my night a bit brighter. :)

;w; So that's still going on, eh? I'm sorry...you shouldn't still be dealing with this. ._. If I could figure a way to get them to stop, I would....but...CANADA Y U SO FAR AWAY? e_e XD XD DX DX ._.

Anyway.

It's the least I can do, after you made my Wednesday bearable... :'D I'm still a bit traumatized by what happened that evening, but, thanks to you, I didn't have a total emotional breakdown (again). >w<

rebecca 12-29-2012 04:19 AM

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Originally Posted by LaurenM (Post 392221)
This is the first time you slapped me. Five times. Or more. I'm not sure. And punched my skull.
I'm sorry I called you a piece of shit, though it was in Chinese and was more like 'poop'.
Even though you deserved it.
You said, if my behaviour is exemplary throughout a month, you'd apologise for hitting me. I was genuinely sorry, but after what you said, how can I continue being apologetic?
I don't think I can ever talk to you any more.

Lauren, refusing to speak either worries people or infuriates them even more. It could be effective, or it could make things worse.

Am I the only one who has a good home life? I mean, my dad has hit me before, but we were doing boxing. We always used to. My mum gets a bit stressed, and antagonises me occasionally, but to be fair, I usually start it. So yes, my home life is perfect. I feel sorry for everyone here because I can't connect with their problems.

Lily09 12-29-2012 04:38 AM

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Originally Posted by LaurenM (Post 392221)
This is the first time you slapped me. Five times. Or more. I'm not sure. And punched my skull.
I'm sorry I called you a piece of shit, though it was in Chinese and was more like 'poop'.
Even though you deserved it.
You said, if my behaviour is exemplary throughout a month, you'd apologise for hitting me. I was genuinely sorry, but after what you said, how can I continue being apologetic?
I don't think I can ever talk to you any more.

I know the feeling. My dad used to slap me repeatedly and sometimes throw me around and push me, sometimes a combination of them. Sometimes,it was reasonable, other times for the most idiotic things, such as saying, "I don't like this show." or asking him to have a book. Im not going to go into details since he doesn't do it anymore because I screamed at him, calling him an ignorant asshole and that physical punishment is useless since he's done it for so many things that I'm used to it.
My dad said, "Thats the Asian punishment." :/

Like Rebecca said, I don't know if that is an effective way or not. It might be, but it might just piss your dad/whoever off even more. I don't know, I guess the only thing here is to try your best not to say anything that could be considered offensive.

bookworm1999 12-29-2012 05:18 AM

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 392442)
I know the feeling. My dad used to slap me repeatedly and sometimes throw me around and push me, sometimes a combination of them. Sometimes,it was reasonable, other times for the most idiotic things, such as saying, "I don't like this show." or asking him to have a book. Im not going to go into details since he doesn't do it anymore because I screamed at him, calling him an ignorant asshole and that physical punishment is useless since he's done it for so many things that I'm used to it.
My dad said, "Thats the Asian punishment." :/

Like Rebecca said, I don't know if that is an effective way or not. It might be, but it might just piss your dad/whoever off even more. I don't know, I guess the only thing here is to try your best not to say anything that could be considered offensive.

Wow.....um, guys Iam so sorry your dad wold o that to you. First off, it isn't okay he is doing that whether the Asians say it is or not. The bond there will be deeply damaged over time and that should be the strongest relationship you have. The dad must protect the daughter in any way he is responsible, such as their purity and inocence. My dad is nuts if he sees me with a boy, haha, I do have guy friends of course he just enjoys joking how he'll get out the shotgun or something. Fathers should talk to their daughters, help them work on their flaws and not literally fix it for them or they will learn nothing. He should give right punishment, not yell how stupid they are but tell them he loves them but is dissapointed to see them disobey. I am soooooo thankful for my dad, our relationship is stronger than ever. I pray the best for you girls.


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