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CosmoCat 03-01-2015 02:28 AM

apologies for the terrible "advice" TT-TT
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by Ember (Post 566537)
Only now am I truly realizing how alone I am. All because I'm too afraid to show people who I really am. Frick, I don't even know who I am. Here I was thinking that I had finally found some real friends and I don't know anymore I'm just so done with everything I need to lie down and sleep for the rest of eternity I'm done I'm done.
Frick why are there no stars I don't know I know the stars aren't important I just don't like talking about my real feelings so I need the stars to talk anout and I need to talk about how much I hate where I live and how much I hate all this other petty crap just because I don't want to address my real issues which is that I'm alone and I hate who I've become and I don't want to be this this can't be me it just can't I'm supposed to be a heroine like all those goshdang books friggin tell me to be right I'm supposed to be happier and wittier and nicer and skinnier and more beautiful and I'm supposed to make people happy and be radiant but I'm not I'm not and I never will be I'm not going to be who I thought I was supposed to be and I honestly don't know what I'm going to do and frick this is long I'm sorry I'm sorry I'll stop now.

hey, this is totally okay. it's okay to feel sad every now and then, but sometimes it turns into more than sadness, doesn't it?

i know the "real issues" and the big problems are hard to address, and avoiding them is the easiest and hardest thing in the world to do. i don't have much to say about that because i'm still working through things like that myself. but one bit of advice: be open to change. even if you can't fix those things, be open to at least trying whatever changes have been forced upon you because of a situation.

And be you. I know the world will say "oh, yeah, be yourself (but only if you're the ideal human being who is a size -2 but totally healthy and who only thinks of pleasing men and looking hot and also being super smart and clever and just overall perfection)" but screw that. because you can love the little things about you. Hey, maybe I'm not the smartest person in the world and maybe i do get my dumb moments every now and then, but that doesn't mean I should hate myself for it and that doesn't mean i don't have the potential. Or maybe it does mean that i should stop focusing on being smart and that this is just another stepping stone towards my true personality. because, honestly, you don't just get bad days because that's what happens.

I think we get bad days and terrible situations and hard problems because they will help us grow and become who we were meant to be. life isn't hating us, it's trying to guide us. and sometimes that guidance becomes really forceful and it will hurt. but just keep pointing yourself towards that goal of a better, future you. and keep in mind that YOU SHOULD KNOW NOTHING ABOUT THIS PERSON. i know it sounds weird, but in order to get to your goal, you can't have a goal. you have to work towards whatever traits and personality you think you want to be, but the possibilities of who you will be and what life events will shape your characteristics are literally endless. so there's almost no way to say "yeah, i'm gonna be that person" because, really, you're gonna be You and that You is someone mysterious and amazing and you're just going to have to get to know them as slowly as the rest of us do.

I know this probably doesn't help or make sense. Sorry. ;_; but just keep pushing on towards that invisible goal because someday you'll get there and you'll be that amazing person you were truly meant to be. just keep moving forward (and screw life for forcing such terrible things onto you because life is so hard and there are so many things that everyone has had to deal with. so kudos to humans for going through with this tragedy called life, and screw the world for helping influence the issues we face in life)

pluzzle 03-01-2015 03:40 AM

its 5:30pm, im tired, i hate myself (suicide, alcohol, meds tw) dont quote :)
 
it wouldnt let me delete my bullshit letter so have this

meerkat 03-01-2015 02:19 PM

i just want to never feel an emotion again

AlgebraAddict 03-01-2015 07:18 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by meerkat (Post 566544)
i just want to never feel an emotion again

emotions are fun though like falling in love and stuff

although maybe that was kind of a bad example

strawberry 03-01-2015 10:00 PM

i need to tell someone but i cant sometimes venting isnt enough sometimes i need more im insatiable ill never ever get what im looking for idk idk idk idk what im saying anymore i just need to but i have no one i dont know i just dont know why am i even doing this what is my purpose even maybe tomorrow will distract me maybe maybe idkkkk
ok bye this was a waste ofspace

strawberry 03-01-2015 10:03 PM

i dont want to trigger anything ever ill just shut up and keep these pent up feelings of idk what to myself what am i even feeling i dont know why am i doing this why do i keep doing this

meerkat 03-01-2015 10:10 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 566548)
emotions are fun though like falling in love and stuff

although maybe that was kind of a bad example

i AM AROMANTIC
andcoldandbroken

meerkat 03-01-2015 10:11 PM

why the hell am i on this thread anyways

meerkat 03-01-2015 10:28 PM

nonononono i do not feel emotions why do i try to help people with theirs

meerkat 03-01-2015 10:35 PM

think about this:
everything you have ever felt is literally a communication between two neurons in your brain. your emotions are all electrical signals.
just think about that for a moment.
isn't it fascinating?


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