please.

please don't drink. don't cut. don't hurt yourself.

please don't kill yourself.

and i know not doing all of those things is easier said than done but please

i'm begging you.

i've been reading your posts--all of hte posts on this thread, actually--and to anyone out there who's feeling stressed and sad and like they want to hurt themselves, oh god, please don't. please please please. i am a stranger from across the internet, maybe across the world, and i care about all of you enough to be begging you to not.

you are all beautiful human beings who deserve more than anything to live.

you all deserve the best lives and you all can have them. the world is yours. this life is yours.

please. it's so hard, i know

but don't.

god, please.

i want to die but i don't want to hurt anyone but i'm basically going to do that if i keep living right all im going to do is be a disappointment right and im not going to get anywher in life idont want to be alive anymore life is pain ad i am weak

pain is a part of life but I've seen that life is more than pain

how others think of you and even how you think of yourself is a part of who you are but not your entire definition.

and i do not believe you are a disappointment.

one so fierce in love and hate is not lukewarm, not a disappointment

i have seen that we all fall short of our ideals sometimes

please keep trying because i have seen that it is worth it.

i have felt that perserverance feels good.

i pray that you may be granted great joy in this life and the next.

i hope i was helpful

ok, ok,
i know how fricking hard what your going through is because i've been there (wow, that's an asshole thing to say, sorry) but it passes, it comes back too, but it never stays forever.
You can beat it,
you can stay clean,
i believe in you,
KP believes in you,

And you know what? even if you do relapse, it's not the end of the world. recovering from something as addictive as self harm is hard, and it's ok if you fall of the metaphorical bike sometimes, just get back on, try again. you'll get it tomorrow if you don't today.

i hope that all doesn't sound preachy, sorry. please don't relapse.

i think i'm okay now. i just get really upset once in a while. it's becoming less frequent, i think. depends on how things with my parents are going. please don't worry about me. i won't do it. i just like thinking about it until i realize what a devastating effect my death would have on others. you're alwys helpful. i love you.

No no no no no, no, Madie. I swear to the gods that you are not a disappointment. I owe you everything and my have saved my life so many times. People on earth need you.

I need you

I'm a selfish person and I need you on this planet across the computer screen from me

You don't have to do it for everyone

Just live for one person

Live for your best friend who's mother died. She needs you.

Live for your father and your mother

Live for your siblings

Live for all of your internet friends

Live for me

I hope the thoughts keep becoming less frequent. not fun to deal with at all. I love you too, you wonderful firebrand :)

also pardon my silm reference but you and Stormy have a VERY Fingon and Maedhros relationship :)))

Stormy- You're really close friends who owe each other important things, like lives

don't worry. i'm fine now. just had a couple rough days. i'm kind of a big baby c'x you guys are all the reason I'm alive. you, my parents, my siblings, my friends, snow, all my other internet friends, my church, my family. so thank you, darling. i'll live to help you get through this if i can from so far away. live for me too, all right? i think that's a good relationship. thank you, stormy. i've said it before: you inspire me to stay alive. i love you so darn much. <3


thank you, bby <3 i hope you're doing well also, and that your sis is getting better c:
that makes me v v smiley and oh my gosh you're so right i've never thought of it like that

who would we be? merry and pippin?

omg you remembered my sis, that makes my heart all warm. And yeah, it's an ongoing battle, but she seems to want to fight it now, which makes all the difference

who's a firebrand and who's a bookworm?

I hesitate to say Sam and Frodo?