Heyyyy you're never on Skype for me. xD

And hating awesome people is bad so don't do it *hugs*

now doesn't this just make me a pretty little hypocrite

i'm kind of pissed right now

Life sucks, but that doesn't mean that you suck at it

The way people take things sucks, but that doesn't mean you suck at saying things

The way that society judges your actions suck, but you don't suck at acting

You are not an idiot

You're just a little bit too smart for the world to acknowledge it

i'm really good at ruining things and really good at fixing them just to screw them up again

no no no no no

you guys are not any of those things

Fuck math.
And this is coming from someone who's username is AlgebraAddict, so


And from the rest of this I infer that your school is just a bunch of assholes, and you aren't the problem; they are

Thanks AA. I feel a bit better, now.

No you don't deserve the bullies you deserve friends that love and support you and don't give a flying shit about your math grades or sexual orientation

Thank you. (:

okay *hugs* thank you for letting me make you feel a little better

no matter how good i feel during the day i always feel like shit at the end of the day someone just shoot me

thanks AA ugh its just that whenever i look in the mirror its just like/??picture doesnt match

i hate school because of math and science and class and people and theres so much dysphoria
like you really don't realize how cissexist everything is until you realize you're not cis
and if i were to come out i'd just be called the t word and have my gender invalidated all the time fuckkfkasdlf

live for the day you can move away and meet people that will love you for who you are, who will want t be seen with you.
if it makes you feel better I dont get invited to parties or anything much either.

just remember that in ten years, this bullshit people give you wnt matter and youll be a fierce sassy bitch, even more ghan you are - in the best way.

My mum's suggested I get medication for my anxiety as my exams get closer. She's got a point - in maths yesterday I was muttering away to myself, throwing things and rocking back and forth intermittently.

I think that's a reasonable idea (though I do think that schools should watch this behaviour more closely at exam time). I don't have any exams for like 12 weeks - considering term hasn't started yet.

ALSO!

I HAVE A FRIEND IN ALL OF MY CLASSES! HURRAY!

(edited post away bc i didn't like the swearing)

somethings wrong with her i can tell i need to do somethign i need to helph er somehow shes done so much for me i need to help her but i have no fucking idea how i just dont want her to hurt anymore and i know i cant fix her or any of that bs but i wish there was someTHING I COULD DO its so goddamn frustrating to watch your friends think of thesmevsel as worhtless and hate themselves and all you can see is how goddamn beautiful they are and you tell them that as much as you can and you throw out little compliments and hope they mean more than the few words they are (you are beautiful. you look nice. i like your shirt. your hair. everything) and im just

i need to know what she was going to say
im scared that shes scared
scared means thinking with fear and impulse not logical and clearheadedness
scared means dangerous
and she cant go through that again

can some1 write me a rly long paragraph 2 make me feel bettr abou myself and ily ash wolf you're always there for me

dear bear.

you're pretty amazing. actually - very amazing. you even inspired my signature! (; whenever we have a conversation - be it normal or weird - you never fail to bring a smile to my face. your face is awesome!111111111?1/111!!1!!11 how you do the thing with your face?!?!?1?

anyway yeah. p: you're v funny as stated above. i wish you could see yourself in the same way as we all do. you're a beautiful talented funny girl who deserves nothing less than the best. i wish the people around you could see the fabulous person you are.
never give up ^-^

day brightened by 43547385974375493579483% ily i

goooood it deserves to be 43547385974375493579483% bright everyday have an awesome 89438934e75983 years with the e

YOU GUYS I AM ACTUALLY HAPPY

so we took this test to see who would make the MATHCOUNTS team for the middle school

and i got the highest score

of anyone

i feel so fugging smart right now


and ALSO I am going on an overnight road trip tomorrow with a bunch of friends including my best guy friend/possible crush who I will probably fall asleep on or confess my love to because I get weird late at night



but for any or all of you who feel stupid

be smarter than these people

http://www.pinterest.com/pin/289567451010958311/

i actually like number 11 XD

you're smart and good at everything and hsjfhnsdjkfh im not good at anything except for internet and practicing my look of disgust

the only hobby i really find joy in is code-academy

XD It's awesome
I love the last one and the second one



Haha nope I'm good at like nothing except math and writing and possibly cooking and you're super good at a lot of stuff like looking super sexy and writing and being inspirational and stuff

and sEE YOU SHALL BE A SUPER SMART COMPUTER PERSON and you will have to fix my printer for me because wtf printer

I know. I now have a new computer that doesn't have Skype on so I Skype on my iPod and it logs me off when I'm not on and the only time I'm on is when someone summons me from elsewhere
No you aren't. Shh
Try not to care or at least show that you care to anyone you have a wonderful sense of humour kay
YOUR GENIUSNESS WON'T DIE
But yeah, I know how that feels. I panicked in the Chinese composition thing and couldn't think of anything good to write when I could think of loads afterwards
Why the fuck would they do that?!

wHAT? Why the heck would you hate yourself?! O__O You're SUPER smart; not an idiot at ALL. <:^D You're intelligent and witty and an INCREDIBLE writer--the next Stephen King in the making! (*gives you a muffin*) Please be nicer to yourself...

I'm fine. I'm better. I got to 100,000 words so I'm better now, Ash. :)

ayyy lauren yooooo u got snapchat

max: ahuewkfjdkj dont ur rad :cool:
blossom: wat why??!??

My geniusness will probably be helped by for once being able to focus.

Tw I Think
 

I'm so fucking proud of myself.

It's been 4 months since I last cut. FOUR MONTHS. WOOO!
(That was at a week long school camp in Canberra, AU's capital. Friendships were ruined, pacts were broken and panic attacks were had. I had a sharp bracelet, I didn't bring a razor thank god or I would have bled everywhere.)

It's been a few weeks since I last contemplated suicide. That's a very long time for me. c:

And for once, I think I'm happy. I think I'm content. I'm going to take this one chance I get at life and I'm going to make it the best.



For anyone feeling sad, or having a problem, or whatever - my contact tab is always open and so is my askbox.