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camikat 07-29-2014 05:20 PM

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Originally Posted by camikat (Post 550542)
okay here we go
my dad is mormon (my mom was too, but she left the church a while ago) and all my childhood i was raised in that religion but i've been doubting it for a few years now and just going to church because my dad would get really mad/sad because he's really involved in it and if i ever told people at church i didn't believe in what they did i just know they would shove their beliefs down my throat and give me so much attention
i guess i identify as agnostic because i really can't say i believe in a god but i really can't disprove the existence of one but this week i went to a mormon camp and idk it just felt so peaceful like they talked about god and jesus and it felt right?? but i've researched mormonism and they have so many beliefs i just can't agree with and that i think are just wrong and honestly i have no idea what i wanted to do with this post im just so confused about what to do and my doubts about my beliefs have really been bothering me and i just don't know anymore

so i decided to research mormonism in depth and i definitely don't believe in it (if ur mormon, that's cool. u believe what u want. it's just not for me). but the thing is my dad is a huge believer and makes me go to church every week which is awful because i have to sit through three hours of sermons on things i don't believe and i'll probably only get the chance to stop going when i move out (5/6 years, at best) and i don't want to waste all that time pretending to believe in a church i think isn't true
if i told him that i don't believe, he'd be furious. my mom left a few years back and they yelled at each other for a solid year before there was finally peace. i don't know if i should tell him because he could blow up on me and tell me that i disappointed him and i don't know if i want to go through that
he'll have to find out eventually because when i move out there is no way i'm going back to church and he'll probably ask how church is going and then what do i tell him?? he's going to find out sooner or later and while i really don't want to go to that church anymore i don't know if i should tell him now

(bless u if u read through all of that im sorry it's so long it's just religion/spirituality has been a big concern lately and i don't know what to do)

pluzzle 07-29-2014 05:29 PM

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Originally Posted by camikat (Post 550946)
so i decided to research mormonism in depth and i definitely don't believe in it (if ur mormon, that's cool. u believe what u want. it's just not for me). but the thing is my dad is a huge believer and makes me go to church every week which is awful because i have to sit through three hours of sermons on things i don't believe and i'll probably only get the chance to stop going when i move out (5/6 years, at best) and i don't want to waste all that time pretending to believe in a church i think isn't true
if i told him that i don't believe, he'd be furious. my mom left a few years back and they yelled at each other for a solid year before there was finally peace. i don't know if i should tell him because he could blow up on me and tell me that i disappointed him and i don't know if i want to go through that
he'll have to find out eventually because when i move out there is no way i'm going back to church and he'll probably ask how church is going and then what do i tell him?? he's going to find out sooner or later and while i really don't want to go to that church anymore i don't know if i should tell him now

(bless u if u read through all of that im sorry it's so long it's just religion/spirituality has been a big concern lately and i don't know what to do)

i reckon you should tell him, but tell him why and say that you believe this not this. If he starts yelling, try not to get upset, keep speaking calmly and that should calm him down at least a little bit. I'm sorry it's such a big concern, I don't know how that feels, but make sure that you're safe if you do tell him.

camikat 07-29-2014 06:41 PM

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 550950)
i reckon you should tell him, but tell him why and say that you believe this not this. If he starts yelling, try not to get upset, keep speaking calmly and that should calm him down at least a little bit. I'm sorry it's such a big concern, I don't know how that feels, but make sure that you're safe if you do tell him.

mormon families generally get really upset when someone leaves, unfortunately. i'm going to try to work up the courage to talk to him soon and i'll keep your advice in mind. c: thanks!

HeatherB 07-29-2014 08:20 PM

no one at this camp cares about me and if they do they dont show it circus is supposed to be my happy place and right now all it's doing is making me tired and sad i feel like everyone is so wrapped up in their own acts that theyre almost making little cliques out of them and whenever i try to say something theyre always off laughing in thier group like they dont care and if i said something explicitly then theyd know somethingw as wrong and probably be all like "ohnooooooooooooo my poor bb" but i dont want to YELL at them t HA TI"M NO TOKAY i want them to KNOW we've been friends long enough that i know when theyre upset even if theyre trying to hide it and i feel like they should know that im upset and im no t even really trying to hid eit anymore i dont' cA RE, god, the only way i can get attention around here is by screaming at the top of my lungs but i dont want to lose my voice y'know?

CosmoCat 07-29-2014 09:36 PM

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Originally Posted by camikat (Post 550946)
so i decided to research mormonism in depth and i definitely don't believe in it (if ur mormon, that's cool. u believe what u want. it's just not for me). but the thing is my dad is a huge believer and makes me go to church every week which is awful because i have to sit through three hours of sermons on things i don't believe and i'll probably only get the chance to stop going when i move out (5/6 years, at best) and i don't want to waste all that time pretending to believe in a church i think isn't true
if i told him that i don't believe, he'd be furious. my mom left a few years back and they yelled at each other for a solid year before there was finally peace. i don't know if i should tell him because he could blow up on me and tell me that i disappointed him and i don't know if i want to go through that
he'll have to find out eventually because when i move out there is no way i'm going back to church and he'll probably ask how church is going and then what do i tell him?? he's going to find out sooner or later and while i really don't want to go to that church anymore i don't know if i should tell him now

(bless u if u read through all of that im sorry it's so long it's just religion/spirituality has been a big concern lately and i don't know what to do)

yeah, my dad isn't really in to religion like my mom is, but he's still a Christian. Therefore, Sundays as his place are really weird to me because we're not getting up to go to church. But the one time I asked him about it, he said he visits different churches in the area, but listens to his sermons and such online. so if a radio station near you broadcasts sermons from the local churches like ours does or if you want to hear Christian and Catholic speakers (I recommend Father Leo Patalinghug) then maybe that will keep just enough religion in your life so that your dad is at least a little satisfied. *shrugs* i don't know why I try giving advice, but that's my analysis of the situation.

blossom 07-29-2014 11:59 PM

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Originally Posted by Lena (Post 550819)
i'm so scared i'm literally shaking why would she post something like that she says shes okay but why would she do that that is such a shitty and terrifying thing to do i'm so scared but she's still texting me shes still all right shes still alive but why the fuck would she do that she said she was hacked but shes lying, i can tell i'm so scared

I know someone who does stuff like that but I never know if it's genuine. It's getting really late so I can't do much but if you want to talk about it email me.

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Originally Posted by Athenabrain1 (Post 550811)
Worthless.
Stupid.
Idiotic.
Dumb.
Ugly.
Fat.
Disappointing.
Failure.
Maybe I should just die, instead of watching my parents' disappointed looks when I do anything, instead of dealing with horrible friends, and more.
Butterflies don't really work anymore.
But I'm too much of a scaredy-cat to cut.
I'll just keep a secret journal to vent.
My parents think that I shouldn't write anything privately without them knowing.
They check my email and keep deleting important stuff.
Thy get suspicious of everything.
My friends are worse than them.
"Lice."
"Go jump down a hole, chasing the rabbit, and die."

I can relate a lot about feeling this way. Keeping a journal is a great idea. Those aren't your friends, don't hang around them. Don't let them abuse you like that.

Fulfillment comes with the Lord.

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Originally Posted by meerkat (Post 550806)
if you are reading this i'm seriously considering taking my life
everything seems to be my fault and there's just no point
i just ran away from home without anyone knowing because they just constantly scream at me and say i'm abusive.
maybe i am.
i'm constantly blamed for everything that happens at home/school/wherever. its like im the universal scapegoat.
today when i was crossing the road there was this huge truck and i was praying for it to it me. sadly, it didn't.
every small thing triggers me into feeling like this.
my family, who i have to love, calls me a special snowflake and drama queen and all that because I've seriously lost the will to go on
i know i'm young and there's a lot of the world left to see.
it's just that i don't deserve any of it.

If you didn't deserve it, why would it exist? You're not to blame for everything, don't let other lead you into bullying yourself.

Death is not the answer. If you die, you'd never be able to overcome this sadness! Happiness is ahead of you, just hang in there.

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 550864)
im scared, im scared of myself, im scared that all i need to do is take it from the cabine

It's super late and I wish I could write something super long for you but I can't, so please just don't be scared. Remember you are in control of yourself and you will remain that way. If you need to email me feel free, by all means.

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Originally Posted by Emaafre (Post 550894)
The doctor's appointment is today. Oh God. What if they do a blood test and it's abnormal?
I'm on "the Pill" for hormone imbalance. It's supposed to stop my period. But it's not doing that! My mom said, "It's normal to spot," but then I said, "It's a full-blown period, actually. What if this is linked to the possibility of leukemia? Also, I have skin allergies during the summer, and when I scratch at something, it swells up-- and STAYS swelled up for several days!
I'm just really scared, you guys.

Again, I wish I could type something long here but I really can't. It will be alright, I wish you the best and remember God has a plan! <3 Good luck!

pluzzle 07-30-2014 02:01 AM

dont worry teacher i wont be around long enough for you to put 'messy' stamps on my work because i draw pictures when you talk because it keeps my hadns busy

maxi 07-30-2014 02:49 AM

GET THE HELL AWAY FROM ME, YOU PAIN IN THE ASS.

Piss off!

pluzzle 07-30-2014 03:07 AM

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Originally Posted by maxi (Post 551076)
GET THE HELL AWAY FROM ME, YOU PAIN IN THE ASS.

Piss off!

what happened after you told him to fuck off (assuming it's the same person)

but im sorry i hope they leave u alone )):

JoMarch 07-30-2014 03:46 AM

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Originally Posted by camikat (Post 550946)
so i decided to research mormonism in depth and i definitely don't believe in it (if ur mormon, that's cool. u believe what u want. it's just not for me). but the thing is my dad is a huge believer and makes me go to church every week which is awful because i have to sit through three hours of sermons on things i don't believe and i'll probably only get the chance to stop going when i move out (5/6 years, at best) and i don't want to waste all that time pretending to believe in a church i think isn't true
if i told him that i don't believe, he'd be furious. my mom left a few years back and they yelled at each other for a solid year before there was finally peace. i don't know if i should tell him because he could blow up on me and tell me that i disappointed him and i don't know if i want to go through that
he'll have to find out eventually because when i move out there is no way i'm going back to church and he'll probably ask how church is going and then what do i tell him?? he's going to find out sooner or later and while i really don't want to go to that church anymore i don't know if i should tell him now

(bless u if u read through all of that im sorry it's so long it's just religion/spirituality has been a big concern lately and i don't know what to do)

i don't really know a lot about mormonism. i'm sorry that i don't really have a lot of advice to give you. the best thing i would say is to talk to your mom about it first maybe since she left the church and maybe she could give you some advice or even help you talk to your dad idk
i'm really sorry that you're in that situation tho
i think there are about an even number of pros and cons on whether you wait to tell your dad until you move out or tell him sooner rather than later but that's just what i think so you might want to try writing down the advantages/disadvantages to when you tell your dad if you haven't already and idk it might help you be more confident in whatever decision you make

i really hope everything turns out okay (*hugs*) and again i'm sorry that i couldn't really help a lot :/


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