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pluzzle 08-01-2014 04:27 PM

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 551523)
okay, i've decided that if i still feel like this after my shows next week, i'm going to kill myself sometime between my vacation and when school starts up. it's not worth it, going through all of this. i've been violated and terrified and strung out to the end of my rope. well, they've won, and i don't care. i'll be dead by then. i won't have to go back to school and face the horrors there. i won't have to go back home and face the horrors there. i won't have to go anywhere with horror, i won't even know the meaning of the word. and i'm so excited to be dead it's unnerving. but i can't help looking forward to it. knowing that there's nothing to live for here that i won't give up to be dead. fuck books to read, sunsets to watch, animals to pet, i don't need them. i don't care and i won't care when i'm dead. i'm going to kill myself and i can't fucking wait. maybe i'll be reborn into a different body. maybe i can start this thing over and have my second chance. maybe nothing will happen but my body will decay into my coffin into the ground. i don't care. nothing matters to me anymore. i've detached myself so much from this life, and now it's time to finally let go.

laurel i really don't know what to say. i dont know what to do, im not helpful in the slightest in these situations. you know how much id miss your selfies and your writing? you know how much we'd all miss you? we don't even know you in real life. imagine how much your real life friends would be hurt. maybe you think that your pain is bigger than that but trust me it's not, ours lasts forever when yours WILL go away. i promise you. it will be okay, i know you've heard that so many times and that it doesnt help, but the best i can do is repeat it.

http://www.zap2it.com/blogs/chris_co...t+-+Television)
you see this shit? if this happens you'll miss it. you'll miss out on a movie adaptation to a chris colfer book. you can't tell me you wouldn't want to see that.

please call someone, a hotline, a friend, anyone.

i know it's hard to accept shit like this when you feel like you do but please remember just how much we love you. i really do, laurel.

Lena 08-01-2014 04:28 PM

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 551523)
okay, i've decided that if i still feel like this after my shows next week, i'm going to kill myself sometime between my vacation and when school starts up. it's not worth it, going through all of this. i've been violated and terrified and strung out to the end of my rope. well, they've won, and i don't care. i'll be dead by then. i won't have to go back to school and face the horrors there. i won't have to go back home and face the horrors there. i won't have to go anywhere with horror, i won't even know the meaning of the word. and i'm so excited to be dead it's unnerving. but i can't help looking forward to it. knowing that there's nothing to live for here that i won't give up to be dead. fuck books to read, sunsets to watch, animals to pet, i don't need them. i don't care and i won't care when i'm dead. i'm going to kill myself and i can't fucking wait. maybe i'll be reborn into a different body. maybe i can start this thing over and have my second chance. maybe nothing will happen but my body will decay into my coffin into the ground. i don't care. nothing matters to me anymore. i've detached myself so much from this life, and now it's time to finally let go.

life is such a bitch
it is
it fucking sucks sometimes
but its life and its worth living because it can also be really fucking beautiful
i know you've heard this a thousand times over but please
i've always looked up to you, actually, because you've made it so far even when life has treated you like absolute shit and you've made it so far and i think that's so great please don't throw that away
this world is a screwed up place
it's hell or worse sometimes
and it's really selfish but i just...i don't want you to die
this world would be so much emptier without you

pluzzle 08-01-2014 04:30 PM

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Originally Posted by Lena (Post 551528)
life is such a bitch
it is
it fucking sucks sometimes
but its life and its worth living because it can also be really fucking beautiful
i know you've heard this a thousand times over but please
i've always looked up to you, actually, because you've made it so far even when life has treated you like absolute shit and you've made it so far and i think that's so great please don't throw that away
this world is a screwed up place
it's hell or worse sometimes
and it's really selfish but i just...i don't want you to die
this world would be so much emptier without you

THIS IS what i wanted to say but. this x872393284

JoMarch 08-01-2014 04:30 PM

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 551523)
okay, i've decided that if i still feel like this after my shows next week, i'm going to kill myself sometime between my vacation and when school starts up. it's not worth it, going through all of this. i've been violated and terrified and strung out to the end of my rope. well, they've won, and i don't care. i'll be dead by then. i won't have to go back to school and face the horrors there. i won't have to go back home and face the horrors there. i won't have to go anywhere with horror, i won't even know the meaning of the word. and i'm so excited to be dead it's unnerving. but i can't help looking forward to it. knowing that there's nothing to live for here that i won't give up to be dead. fuck books to read, sunsets to watch, animals to pet, i don't need them. i don't care and i won't care when i'm dead. i'm going to kill myself and i can't fucking wait. maybe i'll be reborn into a different body. maybe i can start this thing over and have my second chance. maybe nothing will happen but my body will decay into my coffin into the ground. i don't care. nothing matters to me anymore. i've detached myself so much from this life, and now it's time to finally let go.

pLease
pleasepleaseplaese
o please please
plese
i cant see the keyboard im sorry
pleas edont
i m crying already i really dont watn to think about you not being there
u might not really know me but
i always think of you as thi s amazing perso nwho is really good with words and doesnt deserve to have been through the shit she has

please dont
please dont
i will probably cry every single day of my fucking life
and im sorry if this sounds selfish

i know you think youre done
but you will never know
if things will get better
if you stop now

you have to keep going to find out and i bet you things will get better
im sorry
im so sorry that youre going through all this horror but you are a lovely person wHO dO esn t deserve that and one da y youre going to wake up an d things will be better
but if you stop now
youll never know that day

please please please
go to a suicide hot line or something
please
please get help in some way
im sorry i feel like this reply is worthless
but i would miss you so much

i d ont wan t you to die please dont die you are beautiful and you have a beautiful face and a beautiful soul and you write beautiful words and it wo uld be such an absolute tragedy if the world lost someone s obeautiful

JoMarch 08-01-2014 04:32 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lena (Post 551528)
life is such a bitch
it is
it fucking sucks sometimes
but its life and its worth living because it can also be really fucking beautiful
i know you've heard this a thousand times over but please
i've always looked up to you, actually, because you've made it so far even when life has treated you like absolute shit and you've made it so far and i think that's so great please don't throw that away
this world is a screwed up place
it's hell or worse sometimes
and it's really selfish but i just...i don't want you to die
this world would be so much emptier without you

this is what i wanted to say except lena can actually make words and i cant so this just this please dont throw your life away you are beautiful

lvhamsters 08-01-2014 04:42 PM

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 551523)
okay, i've decided that if i still feel like this after my shows next week, i'm going to kill myself sometime between my vacation and when school starts up. it's not worth it, going through all of this. i've been violated and terrified and strung out to the end of my rope. well, they've won, and i don't care. i'll be dead by then. i won't have to go back to school and face the horrors there. i won't have to go back home and face the horrors there. i won't have to go anywhere with horror, i won't even know the meaning of the word. and i'm so excited to be dead it's unnerving. but i can't help looking forward to it. knowing that there's nothing to live for here that i won't give up to be dead. fuck books to read, sunsets to watch, animals to pet, i don't need them. i don't care and i won't care when i'm dead. i'm going to kill myself and i can't fucking wait. maybe i'll be reborn into a different body. maybe i can start this thing over and have my second chance. maybe nothing will happen but my body will decay into my coffin into the ground. i don't care. nothing matters to me anymore. i've detached myself so much from this life, and now it's time to finally let go.

I'm so sorry you're feeling so horrible, you really don't deserve it. You're such an awesome person but life is so cruel. But think about what happens after all of this. Like after you turn 18 and you can move out, get away from school and family and friends and replace all of them with people and places that make you happier. You could completely start over your life and make it your own. I know all of this has probably been said by someone to you before but it plays such a huge role. You're almost done with the first and hardest phase of your life, so why quit now. I know you're strong enough to stay strong those last few years until you're 18. You've made it this far so why put all of that effort and struggling down the drain? Life is a very precious thing. It's the only thing we have complete power over. Please don't abuse that power. Please see that you're amazing and that it's worth the suffering to get to happiness. Please see that without sadness, there's no happiness. Please see the world and the people and how many adventures you can have if you just stay. Please see future events and who you can be and who you can save if you stay a little longer. Please see all of the people that adore you. Please see through all of the horrible things that may have been done and focus on all of the good things and moments in life. Please ignore the cheesiness of this post and see that what I'm really trying to say is dead serious and something to really ponder over. We care about you. We really do. We may be just random people online but that doesn't change how close we can get to a person. Just please stay strong and know that we're here to back you up. I really hope this helped.

camikat 08-01-2014 04:43 PM

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 551523)
okay, i've decided that if i still feel like this after my shows next week, i'm going to kill myself sometime between my vacation and when school starts up. it's not worth it, going through all of this. i've been violated and terrified and strung out to the end of my rope. well, they've won, and i don't care. i'll be dead by then. i won't have to go back to school and face the horrors there. i won't have to go back home and face the horrors there. i won't have to go anywhere with horror, i won't even know the meaning of the word. and i'm so excited to be dead it's unnerving. but i can't help looking forward to it. knowing that there's nothing to live for here that i won't give up to be dead. fuck books to read, sunsets to watch, animals to pet, i don't need them. i don't care and i won't care when i'm dead. i'm going to kill myself and i can't fucking wait. maybe i'll be reborn into a different body. maybe i can start this thing over and have my second chance. maybe nothing will happen but my body will decay into my coffin into the ground. i don't care. nothing matters to me anymore. i've detached myself so much from this life, and now it's time to finally let go.

there are countless people who love you and care about you and if you were gone there would be a huge emptiness in so many people's lives that could never be filled and life may treat you like absolute shit but please keep going even if you don't think any good can come out of it because there is always something worth living for, always, and you'll never find it if you don't keep going

you are a work in progress and you've made it this far which is fucking amazing and i've admired you so much because of that and i do not want you to leave because you are so lovely and beautiful and you don't deserve anything that's happening right now but i know you can pull through and see the light

please call a hotline or go on an online chat please get help i love you and there are so many other people who do and i would miss you so much and i don't want you to go

Emaafre 08-01-2014 05:16 PM

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 551523)
okay, i've decided that if i still feel like this after my shows next week, i'm going to kill myself sometime between my vacation and when school starts up. it's not worth it, going through all of this. i've been violated and terrified and strung out to the end of my rope. well, they've won, and i don't care. i'll be dead by then. i won't have to go back to school and face the horrors there. i won't have to go back home and face the horrors there. i won't have to go anywhere with horror, i won't even know the meaning of the word. and i'm so excited to be dead it's unnerving. but i can't help looking forward to it. knowing that there's nothing to live for here that i won't give up to be dead. fuck books to read, sunsets to watch, animals to pet, i don't need them. i don't care and i won't care when i'm dead. i'm going to kill myself and i can't fucking wait. maybe i'll be reborn into a different body. maybe i can start this thing over and have my second chance. maybe nothing will happen but my body will decay into my coffin into the ground. i don't care. nothing matters to me anymore. i've detached myself so much from this life, and now it's time to finally let go.

No
I swear to God if u kill yourself I will feel so empty inside that I don't know what to do.
Life is a little slut. She screws everyone. But life is also so worth it. I've been to hell and back with abuse, bullying, and now this cancer shit, but I'm not ready to go yet! And neither are you! Please, Laurel, I love you so much. Call a hotline or something please...

HeatherB 08-01-2014 05:19 PM

i love you all so much its hard to explain or even feel

pluzzle 08-01-2014 05:26 PM

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 551542)
i love you all so much its hard to explain or even feel

we all care so much i really really dont want you to go


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