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Originally Posted by wildwolf
(Post 265692)
Poor Ash... DX Do you have anything serious like that? Didn't you have depression when you were really young?
My dad is manic. :-l
"WE live in America where a girl that threw flour on Kim Kardashian was arrested on site. But the man who KILLED Trayvon Martin is still free."
-Will Smith
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Well, I DID suffer from depression when I was young, but it seemed to be the kind that goes away. o_o Only instead of going away, stuff got worse and worse and worse and worse and worse until I got to the end of 3rd grade and was seriously contemplating suicide. :D
BUT, now that things are somewhat stable...*shrug* Now the only thing holding me back is my anti-social mindset. ^_^ Which I'm working on.
Although, I AM seriously starting to suspect I have bi-polar II. o_o Teenage mood swings are one thing. But I can predict my freakish behavior patterns now. I get freakishly hyper and bubbly and weird and start talking to myself a lot (XD that ALONE should qualify me for some sort of mental problem), then the hyperness suddenly goes away. Then I get all tired and twitchy and nervous and start thinking about all the stuff I need to do. Then something will go ever so slightly wrong, and my brain just explodes and I get really, REALLY aggressive, and have to restrain myself from cursing every two seconds.
And then, of course, there are the other symptoms, which are honestly getting worse.....staying up late and doing strange things and not feeling tired is a prime one. (Hence my little 4-AM-Writing-Party last night/morning. XD) Another symptom is not being able to enjoy things as much as you used to. When I went to the Renaissance Festival (which I've ALWAYS loved) the other day...*shakes head sadly* It took a full hour for my brain to kick in and say, "Oh, um, yeah. This is FUN. Yeah. I forgot about fun. Hurr." That happened with me during the Ostrich Festival, our weird mini-trip to see the snow, going to see Wicked with my sister...even KP isn't nearly as fun as before. o_o Half the time, I'm all mood-swing-y...but the other half of the time, I'm totally blank. Nothing seems to matter to me. I can't really enjoy anything. Then again, I can't seem to hate anything, either. Although anger and hate do seem to come to me more quickly and strongly then it used to...which PROBABLY isn't a good sign...XD
o_o Holy crap. Ramble that no one cares about! <:^D SORRY! Sorry. Ignore me. *fades into the shadows*
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Originally Posted by Lily
(Post 265710)
My mom says I'm bipolar/have maniac depression. I don't want to be.
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Though my mom always seems to be trying to find ways to make me feel worse...
Or maybe that's just me.
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O_O Manic depression? Yikes. I'm suspecting I have type Bipolar type II. Manic is a whole other ball of wax.
I seriously doubt she's trying to make things worse. <:^J She's your mother. She should be trying to help you. But, sometimes, things can get a little crazy and it can be easy to misinterpret her efforts.
