It really frustrates me how people keep on saying they want Aspergers, without actually understanding it. Because of my Asperges I had to change schools because my Asperges sensory problem meant that I couldn't comply to the uniform regulations. I can't wear socks, because it makes me so uncomfortable that I scream and cry and kick and pretty much turn into a three year old who didn't get what they want. Same pretty much goes for jeans and short and most shirts. When I was little I had long hair but I had to cut it because it was too uncomfortable to tie it up but I had to for school, and I constantly got mistaken for a boy. Literally. I walked into the girls bathroom one day and the girls all screamed at me and told me I was a stupid pervert because they thought I was a boy. Also, my asperges sensory used to stop me writing. Before I had a computer, I had to write all my stories by hand, and I never finished one because I find it extremely uncomfortable to hold a pencil, because I have this thing about my hands having to be even, same with my legs and arms and waist and shoulders and feet and ankles. People actually realised this at school and constantly poke my sides, because they know I'll always poke the other side because its uncomfortable without doing so. And it actually hurts. Because they all poke in the same place, on my upper arm, and I have two very dark bruises on my arms. Even my "friends" do it, and they find it fucking funny to hurt me for their entertainment. One time I got angry and pushed one of them away from me, and she screamed at me and told me I was mean and horrible for trying to fucking hurt her. Which I was not. Its called self defense, you stupid bitch!
So yeah, in short, Asperges has pretty much destroyed my life.
Rant over.
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