Oh. My. God. My brother is being SUCH a little a-hole. >_<

My dad just got back from a business trip, and he brought back a video game that he bought for us, and my brother's throwing a hissy fit because it isn't a game that he likes.

HONESTLY.
Dad didn't have you give you ANYTHING, ****. You should be pleased enough just because he's back. Screaming and crying? You're being a baby and a jerk.

Tell me about it. \(-_-)/

Tired but happy. :D
I just went on a 2.1 mile run with my dad...UPHILL. Oh gosh, I feel amazing.

Did you get to run down as fast as your little legs could carry you? DAT IZ BEST PART. 8D

That's funny, cause I'm the shortest person in my class. XD And yes, i did. :3

I am also short. Eleven years old, and barely 4 feet 6 inches.

I think I'm four ten or something...and i'm 13.

I once told my best friend not to ominously loom above me. She told me that she's not, I'm just a bit short. XD

shortness
 

XDDD lol. I have a super-tall friend. (the tallest girl in the class) and she's always all "LOOOOOOOOOM!"

24 days until my auditions...... :o

Angry, Frustrated
 

Argued and threw a few punches with my older sister earlier.

I was in my younger sister's way of the TV earlier, and she was being a little loud about it, so I told her to settle down. My older sister looked at me and grinned, then started to laugh; she does this a lot, because she knows I despise it.

I kept trying to say it didn't matter, and she could laugh all she wanted, but I was already furious. Then she paused the TV so she could watch my reaction as she laughed more. My younger sister, the peacemaker, tried to take the remote away. My older sister hid it behind her back and kept it from us, which started the punching and kicking. My little sister kept my off of my older sister, restraining me, as my older sister stood, chuckling.

I left to cool down. She still laughed in the other room. I went to clean, like my father told me. I kept trying saying things to try and make her feel remorse. My younger sister went upstairs, on the verge of tears.

My mother came down, making my sister help me clean up. Then my father, giving her a lecture, but I couldn't tell what he was saying. Before he went back to bed, he came and hugged me.

I don't post on this thread much. I just feel horrible.

"You look as dead as a corpse"
"You look so old for your age, you're not even a kid anymore"
"You're the dead flower in a group of blooming ones"
"You're the black spot in a white paper"
"You're the fly that spoils the soup"
"They try to build something up, and you knock it down"
"Your face is like the dead, you don't even look alive"
"You look horrible"
"You should be as good as they are"
"You should laugh and smile and sing and dance like they do"
"I'm so disappointed in you"
"I'm so ashamed of you"
"You don't deserve to be around music"
"You can't dance, sing, smile, or laugh"
"How could you be so horrible?"

The choir show was awful. My parents don't understand that I. Hate. Performing. I can't smile or dance or sing or anything, and all that helpful encouragement they tell me before just evaporates on stage. I just can't do it. I can't smile or look like I'm smiling.. it just refuses to work. They say I look boring and horrible and so adult-like and unworthy of being their child, since they're musicians and music lovers and all that blah. I just want to disappear. Crawl into a hole somewhere and hide.

They.....they called you horrible? I'm sorry. XX, you don't need to walk in their footsteps. You are a unique individual, and I know you'll be a trailblazer in the world of writing.

To feel better, listen to some MCR. :p You'll feel better.

@Mary Elizabeth: Your sister sounds like a total jerk. :/ If you can, don't let her get to you. What she thinks of you doesn't matter.

@nngo: DON'T LISTEN TO YOUR PARENTS. You're freaking epik, whether you can sing or dance or act or not.

Thanks guys. MaryElizabeth, your advice certainly worked. And LST, even so, I think I need to try to improve at least, because I really don't want it to happen again.. another concert tomorrow..

Yeah, she can be....difficult. I try to remember that I don't need approval from her, but it still hurts. I feel better now, after cooling off and listening to "I'm Not Okay". :^] Thanks for the advice.

Please, I couldn't forgive myself if I didn't try and help. Really, though, if they actually say things like that, you need to make them realize what those words do to you psychologically.

I really really want to do a story on the Epik Clog Cops...

I hate performing too. Unlucky XX. You should sing 'Blood' at the top of your voice instead.

Another concert?!
Oh God. Just write what exactly what you want to do tomorrow. Like sing MCR at the top of your voice, stand in a funeral dress...etc.

neologisms. That's the word. I couldn't remember what it was called. XD
Yeaaaaahhhh. I was like, "e_0 Um, okay, POV change...that's...not...troubling.....maybe she just means her parents? @_@"
Derp on my part.

0_0 I don't think it means anything. She was just upset at how you were talking to her. Nothing more.

All I can say at this point, Cass, is that you should do whatever you like the best. <:^J You haven't made some huge commitment to drawing. And even if you DO end up as a forensic psychologist, that doesn't mean you have to stop drawing altogether. You could still do comics and graphic novels and paintings and stuff in your spare time. Maybe even sell some stuff through dA.

Been there. :rolleyes:

HGSVAUBSDKV. I really don't want to bother anyone with my stupid crappy crappity life, but I need to get this out.

No one really cares about or notices me. When I try, I just feel stupid and people stare at me. When I don't try, I'm not noticed at all. I try everything. Bright colors, wacky hairstyles... I try so hard to be social and make new friends, but it's like no one cares about me. Even the people I consider my friends don't care about me. I was sitting amongst my friends when I stayed in for recess to do art the other, and I was literally crying (into my arm, so you couldn't see my face but I was shaking), and everyone was so wrapped up in their own stuff that no one even noticed that I was crying.

NO ONE FREAKING CARES ABOUT ME.

Plenty of people would consider me a friend, but I bet a million bucks there isn't one person in the world who would consider me their best friend. I don't have a best friend. I have friends, but no one who REALLY cares. They hang out with me for like a year, and then I get boring.

Am I just a toy? A plaything? Is that it?
IS THAT WHY ONE ONE EVEN NOTICES WHEN I'M OPENING CRYING RIGHT IN FRONT OF THEM?

And peoples' attitudes towards me aren't helping either. I'm a failure of a human being.

You are depressing even me, Pokey.

Keep your chin up and be awesome. That's my only advice. And seriously, if I saw my friend crying, I would pretend to ignore them just to avoid the awkwardness of asking.

But that's the thing. No one even saw me. No one even bothering looking my way. -.- But thanks...

No. You are a person. We care. You're not a failure, you survived, didn't you? You're not failing anything. You don't need people to notice you, not the people who don't care. You don't have to do all that to get a best friend. I'm positive you'll find a best friend in your school, but maybe you're not looking in the right place. Best friends just come to you. And here on Kidpub, we're your friends too, just over the Internet. Just remember, please, that we do care.

God, you are depressing, Pokey! Keep your chin up! You'll find someone, and in the meantime, just blame it on the hormones when you get depressed. :) You're great, so keep going.

Bro... I know that feeling, but I'm sure you just need to open your eyes.
Sometimes I feel like that and it hurts, and it feels good to wallow in my self-pity but it's silly and it's not going to make me feel better in the end. I used to get lonely like that and wonder if I would ever be someone's "best friend". And then I remembered that I didn't particularly care, and that's what snapped me out of it.
Maybe you feel like nobody notices BECAUSE you are openly crying.
People don't want to be with someone who will make them sad or make them hurt--a common misconception with the "I'm sad, someone has to come save me" theme that many people, mostly girls, live under. You have to realize that what people are searching for when they look for friends is someone who is strong, stable, and a good time. Deep down, they ALL want someone to save them from their own problems, and I'll bet you that at least one of your friends feels the same way you do right now.
How can people notice you if you're crying when everyone else is crying too? People don't fall for a person's frown. They fall for a person's smile.
You've got to push past this and realize that no, chances are, not a lot of people care about you, and only a couple of people would give their life for you (depending on the size, closeness, relations of your family and close friends), but you have to accept that because no one else has a flock of people eager to be sacrificed for that person. Maybe you're not really wanting to be noticed, maybe it's something deeper than that that you don't know about. Or maybe it's just mood swings.
Whatever it is, I know how you feel, and it'll fade in a little while, just push through it. :)

Can't write anymore.
Just depend on music constantly, until I go deaf. And I can't even fill the room with total music, I can only use earbuds. Sucks.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nejTnJt-nmw
*warning: f word in beginning*
It feels like there's very little desire to write anymore. When I do, it turns out really morbid or just an angsty rant with no talent. It seems like writing doesn't even MATTER anymore. Just music, and I can't even share that with anybody but one of my friends (who I'm pretty sure is tired about me texting lyrics and links) because I'm pretty sure nobody in my family likes rock or metal. So I'm stuck listening to Sick Puppies, Three Days Grace, Egypt Central, and Shinedown on my own.
MEH.

Same here man. It's kind of strange, but I'm a little used to it. All I seem to care about is forensics and psychology. ._.
No one else in my family likes angsty rock and metal, escept for my dad, who seems to like every other metal band other than the ones I like, whom he has reserved a special hatred for. (He hates the Three Days Grace voice... TIME FOR HIM TO DIEEEEEEEE)
It's okay, I'm stuck listening to those exact same bands plus KoRn (ESPECIALLY KoRn) all on my own, have been for about two years now.
;_;
Ah well.
(By the way, I don't know if I've asked you this already but have you heard "Bully" by Shinedown?)

I'm excited. For the second year in a row, we get to have a...
TACO PARTY!!!!!
And my friend's love Hector will probably be there. XD He was there last year. OMPJ I'M SO EXCITED.

My brother has listened to some Sick Puppies songs but he dun like it DX
Yep! ^_^ I think that was the first or second Shinedown song I've listened to.

Plus, I don't really think he likes the bands I listen to because of the themes( like suicide, cutting, depression, etc.) so he just sticks with the stuff on the pop radio

DX Arghhh, the first Sick Puppies song I heard I knew I liked them. DX
You're lucky you heard that one first. D8 I heard "Sound of Madness" first, and I thought THAT was good, until I met Bully.
(*cries with happiness*)

I like angsty songs because they make me feel like a person who can connect with serious feelings like the ones they sing about... rather than just a mindless consumer like the ones who follow JB for no good reason. -_- (no offense to Beliebers, nothing against the Beibz, he looks exactly like my bro and is Canadian so what can I say -_-)

I think I've heard Sound of Madness once or twice... There's a rock channel on the TV, and I really want to listen to it because I heard Kick A** by Egypt Central and If You Only Knew by Shinedown on it before, but every time I turn it on my brother's like CHANGE IT TO A DIFFERENT CHANNEL!!!

Search up Rock Kids by Sick Puppies. It sings about suckish pop tunes xD It's from their first album, I think? You can hear Shim's accent. I only listen to it for the chorus, because honestly... Shim rapping isn't really that good and the other lyrics in the song are weird.

SERIOUSLY? Your brother looks like Justin Bieber?! Has any girls mistaken him for JB?

I have a stab at being Valedictorian!
(*extreme me gusta face*)
But this is grade eight grad... -_-

(*searches up Kick Donkey*) Checking it out right now. Liking it so far. :)
Yeah, my parents are too nice to do that to me though, but I can't play my music unless it's in my room because even though they say it's okay, I know that they don't like it. X^I
Oh god, did you see the lyric video for Bully? (*sorry, I love that song*) owo I love lyric videos... pretty much every lyric videos, especially the KoRn vs. Skrillex... (it was actually KoRn ft. Skrillex but SHHHH LET ME WALLOW IN MY FANDOM)
(*has just watched the Bully video, got shivers*)
(*is probably annoying you but now you got me started on music and I can't stop now XD*)

Alright, I look that one up next... 8D Playing it right now.
AHHH! This song had me at the intro where it dissed pastel images of fake s*x appeal. That always gets me. I love it when he screams stuff because it's usually full of curses. XD XD

Yup, like an exact copy except he's younger. He has the old JB hairstyle, and honestly it's perfect, not overdone like some, and he's got blue eyes instead of brown. The girls don't mistake him for Justin Beiber, but the first time he saw his basketball coach, the coach screamed, "WHOA, JB IS IN DA HOUSE!" and lots of other people have commented on it.
Oh, and my dad has legitimately been mistaken for Val Kilmer. Like fifteen times now, I remember a couple times in Chapters when one of the clerks ran up to him, squeed, and said, "YOU LOOK JUST LIKE VAL KILMER!" And more times than ever when we went to Hawaii, when my dad and mom were walking on the beach and a bunch of guys started staring and whispered to each other, "Is that... is that Val Kilmer?" And he always tells us when he gets these weird stares, and says now he knows that it's someone trying to determine whether he's Val Kilmer or not. My bro gets his JB looks from my mom, and I'm taking more after my dad.
(*for the first time ever, checks the pictures of Val Kilmer*) O_O
Oh, I mean, Val Kilmer when he was younger, like this:
http://img.poptower.com/pic-48362/val-kilmer.jpg?d=600