I know exactly how that feels. <:^/ *pats on the back* *gives you a blueberry muffin*

You are incredibly awesome too.
*hugs for both of you*

Muffins are good. *eats muffin*

It seems that everyone around me is fine while I'm just hiding away on the inside. But I'm glad to know someone feels the same way I do :]

*hugs LST and Ash*

I've only been watching Glee for a few months, but the same day that I started watching it was the same that I realized that I didn't really mean anything to my old friends. It just took care of me and told me that it would be alright. I flipped on Glee: Live in Concert and they started Sing. It was kind of mediocre, but having Glee and MCR in the same setting was just...jarring. Back then, in January, seems like a pivotal time for me. That was the first time I self-harmed, and then MCR brought me out of that hole and kept me at bay until the beginning of March. It's just really strange to think about how different things are this year.

That Bitch Called Life Better Get The Hell Outta My Way Before I Kill It.

Why Did Caps Not Work??

Oh, I DIDNT KNOW THAT.
:)

nOW!
I SED NOW!

Complaint: People usually think I'm rude or insensitive when I don't talk about a serious topic but really I'm not talking about it pq I really don't wanna cry.

hai dere, Amy!
wow.
it's been sooo long since i've read one of your stories!
i love your poems!!

Of course I'm not human. I'm just curious as to what a relationship is like.

Blank faced means I am totally ignoring your comment. If you can see that, why do you continually tell me comments like that? It's a waste of breath. ^_^

Please don't. Just please.
Self-harming just to see the blood seep out probably means that I have some obsession with blood and somehow feel better when I see it.
But no, I don't like periods.
While having a crush on someone...

I don't know why. But I wince if it's too painful most of the time, and I usually stop when I see blood.
Anne Frank does.

I haven't been on Kidpub in a long time because I've been thinking about a lot of things, mostly my emotions and the world around me.

I've read some of the things on here and I can't say that I'm shocked or disturbed, because I'm not. Unfortunately, a lot of us have found common ground on rather morbid issues; depression, self harm, eating disorders, and other mental problems. Rather sad that people go through that.

I know that my words probably won't mean anything to you, but I just wanted to say that none of you are alone. None of you will ever be alone as long as I'm here. There are over seven billion people on this planet. You're never alone, for anything.

You don't need to cut yourselves or scratch yourselves, or take a flame to your skin. You don't need to, but you do it anyway because you're angry and sad but numb at the same time, and half the time you don't even know why you're doing it anyway. I don't want you to hurt yourselves anymore. I don't ever want to see a cut on anyone's arm ever again. I think you subconsciously know that physical pain doesn't make mental pain go away, but you don't know what else to do. Everyone has their own scars, and you shouldn't be ashamed of your past, but inflicting more and more wounds on yourself will just wear you down to the bone. If I could take away the hurt you're feeling, I would.

I'm watching a lot of you fall into really deep pits of depression, and I don't know what to do to pull you out. Not that my concern would matter, considering I'm an idiot on the internet, but I don't want to watch people just shut down. I've interacted with a lot of you, and I know that you're all strong people. You're all fucking strong and I want you to know that. I want you to know that you're all really brave people and that you can all make it and that if anyone tells you otherwise, you should punch them in the face and then proceed to not give a damn about their opinion. I know what it's like to be sad and empty inside and feel like you're all alone, but you don't deserve to feel that way. I want you to talk to someone and get some sort of help. Sometimes getting help is the bravest thing you can do.

I'm watching a lot of you go hungry, too. Please eat. Forget about those stupid models in the magazines, and stop comparing yourself to other girls and boys you see out in public. There is absolutely nothing wrong with not being skinny, and there's nothing wrong with being naturally slim. So what if you don't have a flat stomach? Who cares if you aren't extremely muscular? That doesn't make you ugly or less of a person. That makes you, you. I think you're an amazing person, because you fucking are. Don't change your appearance to please other people, because you'll never be satisfied (the media is bullshit: completely disregard it).

You are brave, intelligent, clever, and beautiful. Every single one of you. Every member on Kidpub is an amazing person, and none of you deserve the self-hate you are giving yourselves. Just thought I'd inform you of how fucking great you are.

I actually really appreciate that, Ruza. Thank you.

Haven't been here in a long time. Anything new?

Not much. I mostly just come on WB to talk to friends. I'm getting tired of KP.

I haven't posted anything in over four months or so. I don't think I'll be leaving the Writer's Block anytime soon, though. Too much history with it.

Wow. That pretty much says it all. I love you. You're amazing.

Just don't give up, okay?

Thanks for the thought.

It isn't a proper crush. It's a celebrity one. Different story.

I dread Thursdays all the time, because my art teacher has a serious rivalry against me and I spent my free afternoon of Wednesday procrastinating my homework. Do you have a problem with sleeping? I usually just try to sleep it away, because in the end I usually do manage to finish copying the homework.
ME, you've always struck me as a confident, even arrogant person. Remember the ECC days? I'd much rather you be the old Mary Elizabeth instead of you being sad and self-harming.
Similar.

Yes, we want MaryElizabeth back...I was tempted to set up a clogger account and be a complete pain in the neck. Just, you know...creepy or what?

Sleep has been inconsistent. There was a streak of nightmares for a bit, but it stopped after three days. Now it's better. Listening to music right before going to bed seems to help.

I want to be that way again too. I still feel like I'm around a bunch of morons, but it's more just that I don't belong anywhere.
Even if you did that, it wouldn't make a difference. I've had too much impatience to even look at the KP Fight History thread.

Thanks, really. You guys saying that you even liked me before my mind went to shit really means something to me.

Name: Bear

Party Date: Starting tommorow at TBD

Party Title: Bear's Party

Reason: A party in tribute to all things fading, broken, beaten, or sad

Guests: Everyone is invited.


By the Way, this is on my party thread. Oh yes, so vain, that I post on my own thread, not to mention, advertise it. So vain. Anyways, hope to see you there. ugh. i doubt anyone's going to show up.

Yeah.

awww. come 'ere.
*huggies*
i'm so sorry you have to put up with all this bullshit.
i'm so sorry.
but i know that you'll get through this. maryelizabeth.
i can tell that you have a strong heart.
keep on going strong.

Thanks. Anything helps.

:3

i hope you're feeling better.
i know the feeling.

feeling like your stuck in a hopeless black tunnel with no way out. you find tiny flashes of light, or hope, then they disappear. dispair.

I think I am. Usually when I get into those dark spirals the cutting only brings me back. But I'm listening to a lot of music, and I'm thinking about sending a letter to Gerard Way if my parents let me.

It'll be okay. Wrap yourself up in thick blankets. Listen to music. Watch your favorite TV shows. Take a shower and let the water run through your hair and over your ears, blocking out the sound. It'll be okay.

i've only been taking cold-ish showers because warm water really stings.

(if you're talking about scars) Yes, I have new ones from last night, and I just had my hand pressed to that patch of skin because it hurt so badly, but the water just blocked out everything. It was nice.

bAND AIDS TO THE RESCUE.
but shoot.
doesn't it suck that it's too warm to wear long-sleeves.

It does. Which is why I did them on my thigh.

I only have them on my upper shoulders and upper thighs.

lucky.
HOW DO YOU REACH THEM
MINE DUN DRAW ENOUGH BLOOODDD