Oh, my friends CAN be serious. It's just that I don't know them all that well.

my sister is so freaking annoying
she thinks every other thing i say is inappropriate
and she hates my new hobby of photography
yet she expects me to put up with her awful singing voice and all that
and she's so innocent and "cute" and just a buttface in general

The worst part about being sick is sitting there, hating everything, trying not to lose it, and wasting a fraction of your life realizing that you are, in fact, SICK.

Thank you, public school that my little sister still insists on going to.

Another day trying not to do something, having it happen anyway, and somehow getting blamed for it. You don't understand my rage right now.

Guys, I've lost it. Any tips for dealing with a mental breakdown?

Eh same here
I would have cut
but im a coward
and I only left a small white scar
without blood

Sorry I'm spamming, but it doesn't last this long. It shouldn't last this long...please...someonehelpme

*hugs* watch a lot of tv or something ok just something to distract u
and listen to nice songs like More Than Useless by Relient K and Not Alone by Red and Breathe by Superchick



fuuuuuck
i don't want him to hate me he's my best friend
but she deserves to know

does anyone else just get that one character feel
like, you already know that they're going to die due to spoilers before you even meet them
and they're such a magnificent bastard that you're just like, "well, they shouldn't be hard to dislike like most of the other fans dislike them"
then you're slowly just like "shit this character is actually fucking awesome, I don't care about the rest of the fandom's opinion"
then they die and you're like "dammit why why the fuck do I always have to love the antagonists" or "why do the ones I love always die"
"I THOUGHT I WASN'T GOING TO GET ATTACHED THIS TIME"

cause this keeps happening to me.
over and over.

Fudge you
I'm tryin to hate you
BUT I CAN'T

Yesterday I pulled my neck or something and I've tried motrin, tylenol, heating pad, nothing works. I could barely sleep last night. I'm so tired and I can't stop crying. If I move from this spot I will surely cry even harder.

OH IS IT LIKE A MUSCLE THING THAT'S LIKE ON THE BACK OF YOUR NECK TO ONE SIDE OF YOUR HEAD
cause that happened to me multiple times and ugh it HURTS

I had to go to school with it one day and I'm in 1st period athletics
I'm a sprinter so I had to sprint like 1000 meters total
BUT IT ACTUALLY MADE IT FEEL BETTER

It's just on one side of my neck.

Shower helped a bit.

Death Note spoilers

I did that with L in Death Note.
I think everyone did that with L.

PIANO RECITAL TODAY ALSDF ALSKDJ ALSKDFALEKJcx
I'M SO FREAKING UNPREPARED
AND I HAVE A THEORY TEST TOMORROW AND I AM SO GONNA FAIL ASLKF JAOI UAEOIRGDJLLAKEWFSD ALEFLAKSDFJALKDFJ ALKGHLADFKHA SLDFJK
okay bye i have to go practice now D:

this is what happened to me with Fi from Legend of Zelda ;_; Except she's not an antagonist. But still. D:

Help I'm having a literal mental breakdown because black butler
Literal.
Mental.
Breakdown.


KUROSHITSUJI II HERE I COME
let's see if it revives me or kills me more

Probably both.

Sorry I just use this thread for fiction venting now aha
Cause real life isn't worth squat and I'm very literally unstable right now
Wow
Help though
I cant formulate stuff correctly
What
I make no sense hold on il get it back together soon

THIS IS WORSE THAN WHEN I CRIED FOR AN HOUR AFTER FINISHING THE FMA MOVIE CONQUEROR OF SHAMBALLA
seriosueiuf I just no

Like WAT
I don't even idek

I'll be fine soon but now haha no

my mum says she's worried about me???
she's taking me 2 doctor this week for a 'check-up'??????
aLL I SAID WAS I DONT SLEEP WELL

I worry about you and I live on a different continent.
God knows how I'd feel if I were your mother.
Given what we know, I'd say she's fairly justified.
Please just be okay, my friend.

that's reassuring p:
Oh yeah, she's definitely justified
I will ^.^

You see, my empathy varies. I don't understand others thoughts and feelings automatically, but if you're my friend, I feel something, and I'm not entirely sure what that is. I care a hell of a lot. I do it with fictional characters too. With anyone in pain. I can't be in your shoes, I've given up even trying, but I get a physical pain in my chest and a complication in my thoughts that stops me accessing them plainly and simply. And that hurt is horrible, because I'm powerless to help, except with my words, my brilliant words that don't always come out in the right order and can often be incredibly offensive. Oh do I struggle relating to people, seeing things from their point of view. However, if people think for a second I am a cold, heartless human being, they couldn't be more wrong. There's a hurt just over my heart for all of you. If that's what empathy is, I'd take it over being a machine any day, no matter how painful the reality is. I would go through this every day if it would help you, all of you.

I just want you all to be okay, to be happy, to be healthy in body and soul, cheesy and cliché as that sounds. If I care about you, you're special. I'm a misanthrope by nature, an obnoxious, irritable, irksome human who dislikes pretty much everyone. But I care about you, and I always will, unless of course you try and kill me. Please don't. I want to carry on as things are, minus the worrying about your welfare. Also, I want to live.

Just want you all to know I love you all, platonically of course, and you are all metaphorically in my heart. Please do not literally attempt to enter my heart, it's quite cold in there. You may need a coat. Also that may kill me, and as I said earlier I want to live.

And so should you.

(as you can guess this went from being directly addressed to pluzzle to a speech to you all. Heed my advice. I care a lot about you. Unless you smell. I'm discriminatory against online nasal sensations. Everyone, please, I'm talking to those who I've 'hated' while here. You have a place in my worries. Just do okay and I'll tolerate you. If you start breaking up though, it is my duty as an enemy to try and fix things. I can't be losing my rivals this early on in the plot now, can I? I haven't even crushed your mortal forms yet!)

Oh my god Rebecca. I'm terrible with words, especially online (Also, I used proper punctuation and capitals - just for you) but wow. Thank you.
(:

i don't know why i keep doing this
every year i get my hopes up so high because i've had so much fun all year and because i want to win, and ever year i just become more disappointed and upset
and the worst part is every time we lose i just know next year won't be the same and it kills me because i just want everything to stay the same and i don't want to wait until the next year and just end up losing again
and then i cry about it and my teammates/best friends don't know why i'm crying but it's because i don't want our year to end because it honestly has been one of my favorite parts about ninth grade
and even if most of us do it next year, it won't be the same. someone will quit and we'll have to scrounge through our grade to find someone who will join our team. or even if it's the same team, it's different problems and it's not the same
and yes part of it is we haven't won in two years and i just want to win because i'm competitive and i hate losing
i want to quit but i know i won't because i love it too much
gosh odyssey of the mind what are you doing to me

what
rebecca
just
what
awww
that was the best thing ever tbh

*bows*
Thank God that went well. It could have come out awkward and foolish. But it didn't. Thank the Lord.

Sorry to bother you Rebecca but could you please review my book, I've posted on your thread.

I will get it done. I'm just busy with revision for exam. But I swear on the One Ring I will do it, today, even.

I did pretty well on my recital
BUT FREAKING THEORY/SIGHTREADING/EARTRAINING TEST TODAY
now i'm frantically studying composers and their periods of music history D:

Frustrated...

I find out that newbies are on KP, but I'm not on my computer, so I cannot make a welcome post!

It's not that big of a deal. It's not like I got a welcoming post. Many of us didn't. There are too many welcoming posts these days anyway.

I think I did okay... but I bombed my sightreading and repertoire and I had to start over a million times.
And I saw my judge's notebook, and she wrote "almost perfect" for sightreading
but there was A LOT of writing for my repertoire pieces so i'm kinda scared

I'm fucking envious/jealous (the meanings are actually slightly different, look it up) of too much shit and too proud about other shit and dammit

That moment when you get Black Butler feels by reading Artemis Fowl.

WTF?

the amount of tears I've produced the weekend is ridiculous

ahah same
(*hugs and gives cookies*)

I didn't cry at all this week even though anime feels

i don't know anymore.
i just
i
4orfjknsdshdfjknkjsd
i have so much homework, so many assignments, yet i fell asleep to avoid it all
cant i sleep forever
please


also, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qjVC_jrHcHI that cheered me up for about 10 minutes, very funny

Oh god I know. Homework. I hate it. I never do mine.

I do mine before school, when I get there

*hugs back*
Feel better sweetie