Congratulations!

I.... I'm not sure. I think so.

i need to email you anyways
BUT DINNER FIRST.

....I don't know what I want to be when I grow up. OTL *le stressing out*
Vet tech? Optician? Check book balancer? >_<
All I know is that I want to increase my time in my door-to-door voulenteer work.
WHY ARE YOU PEOPLE MAKING ME CHOOSE ALREADY I'M BARELY FIFTEEN I'M STILL A KID! x_x

Okay.
i'll be waiting. no. that sounds creepy.
Hey. I'm making your bday present. Can I call dibs on you opening mine LAST tomorrow? :'D

Yes. Yes you may. 8D I WANNA SEE IT NOWWWWWWWWWW..... guh.

It's kinda slightly very effed up looking... D: I hope/think you'll like it anyway though. :'D

**WARNING: HERE THERE BE CURSING. Because... I didn't feel like bleeping it out.**

Just because you guys had a parent-teacher conference does not mean you are allowed to make me feel like shit. I realize that maybe my social life needs help, but does that mean you guys have to get involved? Fuck no. So just back the fuck off. You said you were trying to stop being 'helicopter' parents or whatever the hell that was all about, so doing this ain't gonna help ya. It is extremely frustrating that you assume since my teacher thinks I need help with this, you have to butt in. It's rude, really.
I know my grades matter. I. Know. That. You don't have to remind me every fucking time I get a test that "BY THE WAY YOU SHOULD DO REALLY WELL ON THIS SO YOU CAN GET INTO HIGH SCHOOL," as if I don't know that--as if I don't have enough fucking STRESS already. It is completely unnecessary that you should have to remind me if I worry about it night and day anyways without added pressure. Bitch, please.
AND THEN THERE'S MY SUPPOSED ATTITUDE PROBLEM. <<haha,irony. So I act like I'm annoyed all the time, do I? I lash out at 'everyone' but you can't understand why because I 'have a good heart.' News flash: your kid is NOT fucking perfect. Your kid is flawed and conflicted and actually trying telling you this but you told me to never say anything like that again, that the discussion was closed--fine. I can respect that you don't want to deal with my life even though you invade it in every way possibly anyways. Sure. Why not. But maybe I'm annoyed at you all the time because you feel the need to POINT IT OUT that I'm annoyed all the time. It's really fucking aggravating to say I look annoyed when, well, maybe it's because I fucking AM. I'm annoyed at you for caring only about my grades and butting your heads into my social life which is none of your fucking business and I just can't even understand why you would want to delve into my social life when it's clear that I am happy with my friends and as far as I know they're happy with me. You're just giving me more stress and I have enough of that shit already. It's like, every day, I wake up and smell the sunshine yaddayaddahippieshit and then you're all "STRESS TESTS DID YOU STUDY GRADES SOCIAL LIFE BLAH BLAH BLAH DO YOU FEEL COMFORTABLE." Well it's really fucking HARD to feel comfortable when you're talking my ear off about fucking fitting in and "are you making friends with ALL of your classmates not just the 8th graders" and of COURSE I am, of course I am, you should know that no matter what a fucking teacher tells you that I would alert you if something was WRONG. Hell, I tried to when I was so depressed I couldn't live with myself--almost couldn't live with myself--anymore. It's just DIFFICULT and then you're asking me if it's difficult and it's not HELPING. It's making it WORSE and I want to fucking CRY all the time because of this stupid shitty thing. I'll talk if I want to talk, okay? Just fuck off. Fuck. OFF.






...that felt really fucking good.

Oh well. xD

Aw, do you have to do career placement crap? Some of my friends have done that, although my school doesn't do it (I know someone who didn't know what she wanted to do until her senior year--I think she's majoring in Journalism now). I think that career placement tests too early aren't a good idea. Sure, maybe sometime like junior year would be good, but not as early as freshman.
My friend and I do career placement tests for fun. Haha, like 5 of them said she should be a firefighter and for me to be a writer.

Lol, the only thing I've put into my body for 24 hours is water and flat ginger ale. I'm not even hungry.

No, but I DID have to go to a stupid online college fair. x_x It was REQUIRED that I go to one, be it online or in person. I didn't want to go, but I obviously went. It was stressful and boring and all the people did was talk about how great your life will be when (not if, WHEN) you go to their awesome college and how rich you'll be and you'll love your job and BLAH BLAH BLAH BLABBITY BLOO BLAH. e___e There are NO JOBS in America right now. Wasting your time money on college would be one of the worst choices. The only thing about the college fair that was fun was asking the representative tough/touchy questions. XD "What's the dropout rate for this college?" "What's the full average tuition fee for this college?" "What are the preventative measures this college takes against on-campus crimes and violence?" "What is the ethnic makeup of this college?"

O_O I agree. I'm a FRESHMAN. I can't even DRIVE yet. Why are we trying to plan my whole future in one sitting? x_x I DON'T want to go to college. It doesn't MATTER how much money I make as long as I get by with the necessities. I DON'T GIVE A CARE if you teachers think I'm "squandering" my scholastic ability and "ruining" my future. I'm not. So get off my back already. I'm already dealing with more emotional issues than I can handle. I don't need this.

Right now I'm like

https://encrypted-tbn1.gstatic.com/i...HFM0jN_4PJT9pw

But soon I'll go through the paranoia

https://encrypted-tbn1.gstatic.com/i...-UKxeqghv0IzgK

And the embarrassed stage

https://encrypted-tbn3.gstatic.com/i...9jfmmDZJd9q-Kv


And soon....

https://encrypted-tbn1.gstatic.com/i...SxcRQNOHw7NMtQ

Finding solace in music.


It's sad how I can predict this.

*bangs head against wall* SAKLSDJ. I thought I saw my mom's friend in her car and she was waving at me to pick me up from rehersal, so I went over there and attempted to open the car, but then I realized that it was actually someone else's mom. And my crush was standing right there. *headdesk* AGH so embarassed. XO

I. Frickin. Hate. Parents.

o_o I feel bad for you. Do tell; I'll help you. D:

I'm going to college. If you don't have a diploma, it's incredibly difficult to get the job you want. What you said about there are no jobs:
1. Who's to say there won't be more when you're older?
2. Someone with a college degree has a better chance of getting a job than someone without one.

Ash, what ARE you going to do? Just wondering...
Aren't you going to work with the JW?

Well, I don't KNOW exactly what job I want, so the point is even more mute than before. <:^/

1. There won't be. This country is BROKEN. A highly respected economist said that if we were to do a 180 degree turn around and fixed EVERY problem we have in one day, it would still take this country 100 years to be restored to what it was like before the crash. All you have to do is look around and try to understand the banking system. It's horribly flawed. It was set up to fail. And it's failing fast.
2. Yes, of course, my door-to-door ministry work is my main priority in life. ^_^ But we don't get paid for doing that. It's all voulenteer work.

Are you okay? What happened?

1. We turned around the Great Depression, didn't we?
2. How are you going to support yourself/your family that way if you don't get paid?

... To be honest I've been worrying the exact same thing since you told me, Ash.
I mean, I don't want to start my future either, I want to crawl into a hole and never come out and pretend I'm twelve again, but I can't, and I know there is a bigger world waiting for me after post secondary. And it has money in it and I want the money. 8^I
(*Mr. Krabs voice*)
MONEYMONEYMONEYMONEYMONEYMONEYMONEY
I haven't missed a day of Pre-IB and it's almost midterm. I'm seriously so determined to get this IB Diploma so I can get my butt into the best possible school in the world for not just art (since it's very unlikely that I--ANYONE--will be able to actually follow their childhood dreams and to be honest I'm not cashing all my chips in on art either) but anything I want to pursue. I'm taking business and business tech because those jobs are certain and they DELIVER--I'm taking math and French not because I love them (which I do) but bilingual people, especially in Canada, are GUARANTEED job placement and people who understand math are just plain old useful.
I'm sorry but I doubt that anyone will make a living off of writing--whether it be a novel, a newspaper, ANYTHING. Writing is, without doubt, dying, and it will always be dying--never die, though. You can't just expect yourself to publish one thing (one book will plunge you so far down into debt that you won't be able to breathe) and hit it onto the bestseller list.
It's very likely that if you intend to have creative writing as a career priority, you'll be juggling three or four other jobs, and without an actual diploma of any sort those jobs can range anywhere from being a school janitor to a waitress.

So... I have to ask the same thing as Camille... :< I don't know what jobs are like in America but here in Canada you have to make the best of the opportunities you're given. And if there's no opportunities, you move your butt somewhere else and make a living that way.
I'm having lots of emotional issues too, you know, but I can't just not show up to school, I can't use up my 14 days of absence, I can't just skip my CAS programme hours. Your future isn't going to go away... so I'm just worried about you. If you don't get a diploma from SOMEWHERE, you're pretty much setting yourself up for unemployment... :(
I know I probably sound like one of your annoying teachers, I'm sorry... I'm just worried and want to make sure you've got a plan. :<<

I'm doing I.B. as well.
French. Good idea, Cass. Useful in Canada, but Spanish is more useful here. I'm learning Spanish, but I know a small amount of French.
I agree with you about the writing thing. I wanted to be a writer when I was a little kid, but that's very difficult. Writers struggle.

It's pretty much the same here in America. It's hard enough for people WITH a degree to get a job, but without one, you're pretty screwed.
Cass is right. Kudos to you, Sandy. You're working and you deserve to go to a good college.
Plans are good. I'm in 7th grade and we already took a career placement test.

IB'ers rule <|:^] *is also one*

I'LLLLLLLLLLLLL MAKE A MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN OUT OF YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU


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*pictures that playing overhead at a...*
Nevermind D8

Angry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 

Me and my mom just spent an hour at the goodwill thinking that their 99 cent sale was this week. Well guess what.............. They're not having it because of HALLOWEEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I LUV HALLOWEEN
GOING AS THE MAD HATTER
-Spaz-

Sigh.

Sigh.

Okay, so my friend loves singing. She's my best friend, and probably my only real friend besides my sister. She loves singing, anyway, and we're both in choir. And we both auditioned for allstate choirs.

I got in.


She didn't get in.

This meant everything in the world to her. I know she doesn't think I'm any good at singing, but I am, I know I am. I feel I deserve to be in allstate, but I have no idea how she'll take the news. What on earth am I supposed to say to her? Sigh.

Is she good at singing? If you think she is, say so. Tell her to keep practicing, try out next year. Whatever you do, don't rub it in her face. I wouldn't even mention it it around her. Good luck. :3

Meh/Happy
 

I feel like it's too late to do anything I love. :/ I have no idea how to explain it.

And at the same time I feel happy our community is having a celebration today. :P

Mulan. </3 My Disney streak was in August, I listened to that song so many times.

My Disney streak is NOW. xD

Also, strawberry jawbreakers and calming pills= not a good tasting mixture. :P

You know I'd fall apart without you...
I don't know how you do what you do
Cause everything that don't make sense about me
Makes sense when I'm with you
Like everything that's green girl I need you
But it's more than one and one makes two
Put aside the math and the logic of it
You got to know you're wanted, too
Cause I wanna wrap you up
Wanna kiss your lips
I, I wanna make you feel wanted
I wanna call you mine
Wanna hold your hand forever
And never let you forget it
Yeah I, I wanna make you feel wanted
Anyone can tell you you're pretty
And you get that all the time
I know you do
But your beauty's deeper than the makeup
And I wanna show you what I see tonight
When I wrap you up
When I kiss your lips
I, I wanna make you feel wanted
I wanna call you mine
Wanna hold your hand forever
And never let you forget it
Cause I, I wanna make you feel wanted
Better than your fairytales
Better than your best dreams
You're more than everything I need
You're all I ever wanted
All I ever wanted....
And I just wanna wrap you up
Wanna kiss your lips
I, I wanna make you feel wanted
I wanna call you mine
Wanna hold your hand forever
And never let you forget it
Yeah, I, I wanna make you feel wanted
Baby I, I wanna make you feel wanted

Cause you'll always...be wanted.. <3

Is it bad I want a guy to sing this to me one day? Wanted by Hunter Hayes, probably my favorite song. By the way, I have this song memorized and typed it from memory. :D

Failure-ish, I guess ._.
 

My 800 m...my result was worse than every other result of mine this year.
Everyone's disappointed. Especially me.
My coach wants me to choose properly--whether I wanted to run cross-country or continue with 800 m. I've only ran cross-country once, and my result was pretty nice, but I always think like that after I got a passable result. I did with 800 m at first. My 800 m result is usually 2:52:00, around that area, anyway. I got 2:56: ?? today.
I don't know which to choose.
My personal best of 800 m is 2:45:7?, and that was half a year ago.
Why has my speed gone down so effing much?

._. Why do you think it is that?
I feel so sad for you. D': I once got the best speed of all and then, I went down in the bottom 30. 0_0 It sucks. ._.

That's not obsessive at all.

Mulan was my childhood.

How you feel sometimes? Cause, I've been feeling this a lot. I look into my mirror and I don't recognize myself. It's terrifying.

P.S.: Mulan! /whoop

:'D I love that song.

I thought you said it was canceled!