The Writer's Block - Your emotional venting thread. I'll explain.

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Originally Posted by cloudwriter (Post 559076)

So I had a great day, yet I still feel like crap.

I'm so proud of my self portrait art piece, and my art teacher even pulled me aside after class to tell me I was doing a really good job with it and she really liked it. We played a game in Math (sort of like wheel of fortune) and I guessed the hardest puzzle right (the teacher said it was the fastest anyone had ever guessed it) plus my team won and got 5 extra credit points. And there was a pep rally and it's Friday.

So why do I still feel like crap?

I know. I honestly can't describe to anyone how I feel right now because I barely even know how to describe the feeling to myself. It's like I'm silently screaming inside but the sound refuses to come out. It's like my heart is slowly ripping in half, like everything's falling apart and I have no power to put it all back together with my bloody hands.

God, why does it hurt so much? I'm trying to tell myself that just because he hasn't texted me back since yesterday doesn't mean he hates me, but I can't help going through all of the dumb and pointless 'what ifs' in my mind. I've tried to tell myself he's busy. But he's always texted me, every day, and now, suddenly after three weeks there's nothing. And besides, he was on Facebook for 20 straight minutes last night from his phone, which means he probably got my text...

I just feel like now he's starting to get accepted into the more popular circles (even though he's more of a loner like me) and I'm going to be thrown away and forgotten about. A lot of people like him, and if I don't do anything else soon, I'm going to have to be ripped in half even more to see him with another girl. And I can't text him too many times in a row without no reply because no one wants to be that annoying person....

And one last thing. It figuratively kills me inside every day to see you. Walking to school. In the hallways. Passing by the math room. At the pep rally. To watch you and know that you have no idea that I'm the girl from Facebook. And every time we have brief eye contact, I have to look away and pretend like you're just another stranger and it's so hard </3

I just feel awful and have no clue what to do.

Shit. I'm probably too late already. I'm never good enough. I can never compete with the popular kids. And I hate that.

But I'll hate myself more if I give up...

I know I hardly come on KP or WB anymore, and this obviously doesn't compare with a lot of your guy's problems, but...

I've been so busy, I actually missed the anniversary of starting my soul story. o___o I didn't even notice until today. The anniversary was over a week ago. I just woke up today and thought, Wait...August is over. I missed it. (*lies on the ground, dazed*) hOW DID I MISS IT?!

(*intense guilt*) (*burns my schedule so I have more time to write*)

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 559119)

You should write more and post more because I miss your writing.

Listening to Fixer Upper, playing online games, and eating bruschetta with tomato, onion, avocado and spinach.

Saturday afternoon?

Hell yeah.

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Originally Posted by maxi (Post 559122)

Listening to Fixer Upper, playing online games, and eating bruschetta with tomato, onion, avocado and spinach.

Saturday afternoon?

Hell yeah.

I'm glad you're enjoying your Saturday!! ^w^
(Also woah man, I never can get used to the idea that our time zones are so wonky compared to each other...it's almost 3 AM, here. o_o)

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Originally Posted by maxi (Post 559120)

You should write more and post more because I miss your writing.

I just spent the past three hours writing, for the first time in I DON'T KNOW HOW LONG. ;w; I'm so happy, oh my goodness, I FEEL SO GREAT WHEN I WRITE I NEED TO MAKE TIME TO DO THIS MORE OFTEN! I will totally regret staying up late, but, it was worth it. OTL I want to post more soon, oh my word. I just have no idea when I'll be able to. I'm trying REALLY hard, now, though. Extra hard. Harder than I've tried in a while.

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 559123)

I'm glad you're enjoying your Saturday!! ^w^
(Also woah man, I never can get used to the idea that our time zones are so wonky compared to each other...it's almost 3 AM, here. o_o)

I just spent the past three hours writing, for the first time in I DON'T KNOW HOW LONG. ;w; I'm so happy, oh my goodness, I FEEL SO GREAT WHEN I WRITE I NEED TO MAKE TIME TO DO THIS MORE OFTEN! I will totally regret staying up late, but, it was worth it. OTL I want to post more soon, oh my word. I just have no idea when I'll be able to. I'm trying REALLY hard, now, though. Extra hard. Harder than I've tried in a while.

Thanks, Ash! ^_^
Oh my goodness, I know, right? Time zones obviously are weirdos in the head.
THREE HOURS WRITING? Oh my gosh. I would usually spend around 30 minutes nowadays because of... *growls* school, but anyways! Well done for writing a lot! Yeah, I'm really excited for you to post something 'cause you always used to get a chapter a week or something like that posted. :D

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Originally Posted by maxi (Post 559128)

Do you got anything fun planned for the weekend? ^w^ I'll probably do the usual. Eat a ton of food, watch a lot of Netflix, aaaaand listen to 5SOS songs for a couple hours straight.

I KNOWWW! ;w; Thank youuuu. (*tears of joy*) I did three hours, I'm so happy. I sacrificed almost my entire night's sleep for it, but, it was TOTALLY worth it! :cool: SLEEP IS FOR THE WEAK. (*....says the girl who will gladly sleep for literally 12 hours if she gets the chance*) School is terrible for finding time to write, though, I totally know how you feel. ._. How's school being going for you, lately? Y'know, other than being annoying and tiresome. >_>

And yeah, aaaaaagggghhhh, I STILL want to go back to a chapter a week, but I dunno how to do that??? (*looks at schedule*) (*sobs*) WHY DO I HAVE SO MANY THINGS TO DO oh yeah that's right I run the entire household THAT'S WHY. ._. (*sigh*) Maybe someday, I'll go back to a chapter a week...just gotta re-arrange some stuff and make the time.

Everyone's just screaming and annoying me into worse depression while I haven't smiled willingly in a week.
I want to smile.
I have a pencil in my hand, and all I can't think of it is a potential stress-reliever.

all I want to do after eight hours of exhausting hard work mostly under the hot sun is take a shower, fall over, and go to sleep for a week
I most definitely do not want to sit down and study for tests or think about being unprepared for a competition next week or be stressed by school
and yet here I am

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Originally Posted by JoMarch (Post 559164)

(*hugs super tight*) hey you'll make it through and do great