what milo said basically

i feel so fricking guilty for a normal life with friends and stuff bc most online people (none of whom are on this website) who i know are like "yeah i have no friends computer is life lolll who needs good grades when you have *insert random internet site here*"
i wanna ban myself from computer tomorrow bc of this

hey. hey friend. please don't go. we all love you so much. i really really hope youre okay please stay safe

Today all of "friends" were away for a science Olympiad competition. Is it bad I really don't want them to come back?
I had so much fun with these two other girls today. Hell, for the first time in a really freaking long time, I was crying with laughter at school today. I just kind of feel like my friends (namely one of them) are dragging me down.

*hugs* hey that's middle school

if you want to switch your friends up a bit, do it. Whatever makes you happy. By clinging on to old friends for the sake of tradition, you're just limiting your happiness.

Do you ever think Perry or anybody else helping run KP ever comes on Writers Block, or clicks on one of those emotional rant stories we(all KPers) post occaisionally and just read them and get a litte sad about it because they know that you have so much talent and potential and that if you could see that then maybe you wouldn't be so depressed or so worried about what others think, and like, they just cross the fingers and hope to heaven that you get all the support you need from the other users on this site and the site itself and you keep going on another day and another week and another month until enough time passes and you finally realize that you are a fantastic human being and deserve to live the best life ever. Because honestly, if they really wanted KP to be a truly kid-friendly site they should take down all the posts about cutting and depression and angry rants and transphobia and discussions about sexualities and keep them off, but they don't do that. They just let us keep posting and talking about all the things in our life that make us hate the world. I don't know, the thought just occured to me, and I think that's one of the reasons we all love KP so much, because here we truly can express whatever we want, and we won't get reported or deleted or banned. Anyways, I think what i'm trying to say is, thanks Perry. Also, I hope anyone reading this little blurb here realizes all those things I said about you being wonderful, yeah, their all true.
Bye~

Thanks. I guess I'm just a little torn. :)

omg so well put thank u

I am so sorry
 

Seriously strong suicide warning. Like literally. Don't quote this or whatever.

I have been thinking long and hard about this, and by long and hard it could mean two things - sitting in the waiting room as I wait for my orthodontist yesterday, or since the summer of 2012 when I first felt "sad".

I can't directly say I am going to kill myself, it scares me too much.

There isn't much to say except that I'm praying that the lord is on my side, has mercy, and lets me do what I please. I mean, if I make it out the other side again, I would be very mad. As the meme goes, free him. Even now I can't help but think of memes. why.


Here is some good songs for an interlude.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2oHShap1jM0
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=76WJJ57YoG0
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=szp9x1ZlZn4
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SCj4oZg369E

Thanks for being so tolerable, but I've reached my stop. Thank you all for supporting me, it meant so much to me and it still does now. Goodnight my friends. Love you all.

^
wait no no no no no please
think about what you are doing.
imagine if your best friend (let's just say she's a girl) in the world died and you walk into her room and everything smells of her and everything is still left the way she left it. every single small connection shoots anxiety and sadness through your body. you'll never want to watch her favourite tv programmes because it will make you cry. food that she used to love will make you cry. you'll strip down half your room because it reminds you of her. you can't concentrate in lessons because you're mourning and breaking under the regret that you didn't do anything to save her.
all the pain that she had experienced was doubled up and put onto your shoulders. the pain is unbearable.
please don't give up. so many people love you endlessly. so many people would lose a part of themselves without you. if you used to be happy, why can't you be in the future?? you can figure this out, this is just a small part of your life and IT GETS BETTER even though that sounds bullshitty af and fake and cliche honestly don't.
this is a temporary solution to a problem and there are so many beautiful things and experiences that we all want you to experience. please stay