I know this feel.

I know it way too well for my liking.

...thing I found on a website LST gaveth to me. I've bolded the ones that I have.

Symptoms of depression


Everyone experiences depression in different ways, but there are feelings and behaviours that are common to depression. Some of the symptoms a person may experience include:

marks dropping
acting aggressive or disruptive (according to my teacher, but... he's being an asshole lately, so IDK)
having negative thoughts or feelings about themselves
taking more risks than they used to
withdrawing from friends and family
losing interest in things they previously enjoyed
having difficulty making decisions
having trouble concentrating
feeling irritable or angry
feeling helpless or hopeless
feeling anxious, nervous or restless
feeling sad or "down"
feeling guilty
changes in sleep patterns (e.g. having trouble falling asleep or staying asleep or wanting to sleep all the time)
changes in appetite (e.g. not wanting to eat much or wanting to eat all the time)
feeling more fatigued or tired
using drugs or alcohol to cope with moods
having thoughts about death or suicide

If I have four or five or more of these symptoms, I *may* have depression. So, um, joy.

Almost everybody feels like this at some point.
It's frustrating, isn't it?
Depression is internalized anger. My suggestion would be to write, draw, talk to a friend (or us) about your feelings often to get it off your chest. Externalize that anger in a safe place, like a notebook.

marks dropping
acting aggressive or disruptive
having negative thoughts or feelings about themselves
taking more risks than they used to
withdrawing from friends and family
losing interest in things they previously enjoyed
having difficulty making decisions
having trouble concentrating
feeling irritable or angry
feeling helpless or hopeless
feeling anxious, nervous or restless
feeling sad or "down"
feeling guilty
changes in sleep patterns (e.g. having trouble falling asleep or staying asleep or wanting to sleep all the time)
changes in appetite (e.g. not wanting to eat much or wanting to eat all the time)
feeling more fatigued or tired
using drugs or alcohol to cope with moods
having thoughts about death or suicide

Yeah, got this from Heather.

I'm going to act like it's nothing big.

I feel like I have this like...emptiness in me. Like, for some reason I can't be happy. I can laugh at jokes and smile and truly mean it, but then there's this one thing tugging on my heart. It's like....I don't even know. I mean, I have wonderful friends and family (even if they get on my nerves sometimes), I'm trying out for the dance team next year, I kind of know what I want to be when I grow up, I'm doing pretty good in school.

CALEIGH, Y U NO BE HAPPY?!?!?!

marks dropping
acting aggressive or disruptive
having negative thoughts or feelings about themselves
taking more risks than they used to
withdrawing from friends and family
losing interest in things they previously enjoyed
having difficulty making decisions
having trouble concentrating
feeling irritable or angry
feeling helpless or hopeless
feeling anxious, nervous or restless
feeling sad or "down"
feeling guilty
changes in sleep patterns (e.g. having trouble falling asleep or staying asleep or wanting to sleep all the time)
changes in appetite (e.g. not wanting to eat much or wanting to eat all the time)
feeling more fatigued or tired
using drugs or alcohol to cope with moods
having thoughts about death or suicide

...

*looks at last one*
O__________________________________________O NO. >__>

I still can't believe I've got all but one symptom.

marks dropping Slightly? I think so.
acting aggressive or disruptive Slightly
having negative thoughts or feelings about themselves
taking more risks than they used to
withdrawing from friends and family
losing interest in things they previously enjoyed
having difficulty making decisions
having trouble concentrating
feeling irritable or angry Slightly
feeling helpless or hopeless
feeling anxious, nervous or restless
feeling sad or "down" Slightly
feeling guilty
changes in sleep patterns (e.g. having trouble falling asleep or staying asleep or wanting to sleep all the time)changes in appetite (e.g. not wanting to eat much or wanting to eat all the time) Sort of
feeling more fatigued or tired Sort of
using drugs or alcohol to cope with moods
having thoughts about death or suicide