What I would give to be home schooled.....

Knows what?

Knows that KidPub exists! Knows that I am addicted to it and I behave less like a pyscho and more like me here. If they wanted material to bully me with, this would be the place to get it.

*massive hugs*
suicide? Don't. Fucking. Do. It. You can last until you can get help...
There wouldn't just be guilt, like you said. There'd be a lot of grieving and sadness, too. And do you know what I remember from researching this stuff? The chance one will get depressed and/or attempt suicide increases a lot when a loved one kills themselves. If I remember right, it's one of the warning signs to look out for if you're scared someone's suicidal.
all in all it would be terrible for everyone. from you, to your family, to everyone you know in real life, even all the way to us on KidPub.
*hugs again*

And you're a neanderthal! You're so incompetent that I have called you a dumb-ass thousands of times and you couldn't even comprehend the words I was saying! You finally tried looking in the dictionary for "intellectually inferior", but you spelled it incorrectly and came up with the theory that they weren't real words! So instead of throwing trivial and painless insults at me, go wash your knuckles--it's not very hygienic to drag them on the floor like that.

My new year's resolution is to be more humble. I'm pretty close to becoming a narcissist, but now I've finally realized that the only thing I'm talented at is writing. Hell, I'm not even good at human communication! Sure, I can have a conversation, but it isn't long until they start believing I'm a homocidal maniac (though that's probably my future profession).

I have wanted so long to show people that I'm good at SOMETHING, and maybe I can use the newspaper. It's a really crappy thing made by me and some other eighth grade girls, but maybe I could put in some of my creative writing and prove that I'm not JUST a deluded narcissist. I can achieve something.

This is the longest post I've ever written on this thread.....

Oh, and I forgot. My best friend's going through shit for being bi, like s/he's (don't really want to give too much away) going to rape somebody. If s/he didn't act like a perv before, do you think s/he's going to change now?! S/he keeps talking about how there are only a few people who "stuck around" for him/her, and it makes me want to go hog-tie the people s/he mentioned and throw them into a river. Why can't s/he transfer to my new school and we can be awesome together and laugh at the idiots as they struggle to understand words we use? No, instead, I, the asshole, gets an enjoyable life while s/he goes through hell EVERY FUCKING DAY, even though she's the better person.

You need to think about your happiness, too. Selflessness is not sustainable. If it was me, I would be happy that someone came to me for help, and I would be pleased if I was able to help them.
Work-wise, everyone struggles. Well, almost everyone. But it's hard to tell your friends that your struggling with work, especially if you're proud or known for being good at schoolwork or something, so people barely notice that they're not the only ones struggling. Society is dysfunctional.
The eating thing I can't help with much, since I'm greedy and I have little to no self control when it comes to food, unless I'm ill. But seriously, what would it matter if someone was fat, or thin. Like I said to Jesse a while ago, it doesn't make a difference unless it's damaging your health. And you said how much you weigh, you won't actually qualify as 'fat' unless you are a serious midget.
Maybe they're afraid that you are fine, and you'll get mad at them for thinking that something's wrong. Talk to them. Friends are supposed to be there for you, but they can't always be psychic.

Please don't. Think of all the good things that have happened to you, all the wonderful people you've met. It won't be fair to people who never got happy moments like that if you just destroy the memories, if you destroy the person who was shaped by all of these. It will be like you're wasting all the happiness you've experienced, and all the opportunities for more. What about all the happy moments that you can make for other people in the future? What about the people who will miss out on meeting you?

This is something I think LST posted.

I want to stop existing, not out of depression, but because I don't want to waste time living. Of course, I won't do anything stupid, except almost having panic attacks when I think about the future.

I'm afraid that I'm not going to cherish this year enough.