Originally Posted by CACrools (Post 407746)

Be thankful that it's not in the single digits...

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 407748)

trust me, i am. O_O

Originally Posted by CACrools (Post 407750)

So, besides being cold, how are you?

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 407754)

...

i'm broken.
they broke me.
(not like crushed broken, or like a broken horse or whatever, but like...pushed a wind-up toy off a table broken.)
that's why i've been acting so strange.
that's why i go from angry to apathetic to depressed in minutes.
i thought i was fixed, yesterday, since i actually felt happy.
now i feel bad again.
...
.....
........meh.
i think i just need a hug. cyber hugs are nice and all, but i feel like i need a real hug.
but there's no one to hug.
._.
then again, a hug might not help...i seriously feel like the song Lonely right now.

bleh.

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 407756)

meh, i don't know. mixed feelings.

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 407738)

what? no, i went back to school on tuesday. this is just what the desert i live in is like. bleeping hot in the summer, bleeping cold in the winter (even though it doesn't last very long). it's been getting to be 23 F at night, actually, which hasn't happened since the 80s. all the non-native plants are all either dead or badly damaged from the nightly frost, too...which doesn't help my mood...TREE HUGGER, HERE...derp.

i'm surprised you noticed i wasn't using caps. 0_0 meh, my fingers were numb at first, so i didn't bother with the caps or shift key. now i'm just being lazy and kinda apathetic.

yeah, i've been depressed all day long. the walk actually helped, though. also my dog is comforting me. (he went on the walk, too...gosh, he cracks me up...he totally didn't notice this random cat until we were five feet away from it, and he just went crazy...haha....)



:^/ That's what I figured.
Crap, now I'm worried. D:
I had this dream last night....SIX dreams, actually, all with the same theme...hearts. In each dream, I either (a) I needed an artificial heart, and had to go to this creepy clinic place to learn about and choose which procedure to have done, (b) I already had my heart removed and an artificial one put in, but they wouldn't tell me what they did with my heart once they removed it, so I had to search through this creepy hospital to find it, or (c) someone stole my heart (think Once Upon a Time) and I needed to go find them and steal it back. e_o I seriously woke up after every dream and felt my pulse to make sure I actually still had my heart.
MY POINT: All this creepy random heart business reminded me of Kay. Since, y'know, she's been having all those heart problems and might need a new one in the near future.

Meh. Imma go send her another message.

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 407754)

...

i'm broken.
they broke me.
(not like crushed broken, or like a broken horse or whatever, but like...pushed a wind-up toy off a table broken.)
that's why i've been acting so strange.
that's why i go from angry to apathetic to depressed in minutes.
i thought i was fixed, yesterday, since i actually felt happy.
now i feel bad again.
...
.....
........meh.
i think i just need a hug. cyber hugs are nice and all, but i feel like i need a real hug.
but there's no one to hug.
._.
then again, a hug might not help...i seriously feel like the song Lonely right now.

bleh.

Originally Posted by christinamoore (Post 407777)

I am frustrated.
First, I arrive back at school last night to a freezing room and no hot water.
Second, I realized I forgot to pack towels, soap and my Pajamas.
Third, I read my syllabi today and I'm like freaking out with all of the reading...
I'm in a literature class on top of two intro classes, a history class and a presentations class...
Aaaaaaaaa!!
Also I really am worried about someone.

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 407022)

Does anyone else feel like they are unimportant?
Like, you have people that honestly DO care somewhat about you. You mean at least a little bit in someone's life, but if you passed, they'd be over it in a few months. You mean something, but you never mean enough. You never affect the person at all. You don't mean as much to them as they did to you. You aren't someone's lifeline. You are just some clingy person who is desperate for someone to care. You're not a big part of anyone's life. Just a background character. It's not like they'd care too much if you die.

no lily stop it dont think like this

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 407780)

aww, I'm sorry about the first two D:
I think you can handle the classes. I haven't talked to you a lot but you definitely seem smart and awesome.
I hope they're okay…